and I'm still trying.

"Sometimes, the best we can do is just apologize and let the past be the past"

- Kristen Bell

Awesome Powsome

Forwarded by: Mr. General Manager.

Human as the future technology

Gila Cool!

sudah sampai masanya untuk berangan-angan

I slept the whole day today. I just couldn't get my ass up. All that I've been doing was sleeping till late evening. Yes babies, you read it all right. It was an unproductive day and I couldn't care less. I don't eat, apatah lagi mandi. Hasilnya, saya masih segar bugar pada jam 2 pagi.

I got it all excited whenever I saw IKEA's new catalog online. It gives me ideas on what to get for my own house. IF ever, I have one. But it doesn't stop me from having those wonderful ideas on how to decorate my own house. Truth be told, I already have the list of things I want to do/get when I'm finally owning my own house.

Ever since we were talking about getting married and starting our lives together, all that I've been thinking is a place that we can call it as our home. Although there's a high possibility of us staying at my parents house (due to some circumstances) but I still want to have a place where we can actually call it as our own. I sounded so demanding, I know, but a girl is allow to dream right? And my dream is to have a place of my own that is filled with the people that I love and the babies that we're going to make. Oh! that sounded so gross but what the hell.

Every time we passed by Puchong area, my eyes would be scatting all around looking for a nice looking house. But of course, it wouldn't necessary be Puchong but since Mr. husband-to-be is currently working at TPM, Puchong is where we headed the most. And they have some nice looking houses too.

I know, I should be worried about my wedding preparation which I haven't started doing anything yet. But I rather be dreaming about my future home than planning on what to get for the big day. I rather think about the color that my walls would be than thinking about the dress that I'm going to wear for the wedding reception. And I rather think about how much money I have to make in order for me to get my dream home than thinking about the amount of money I have to spend for my wedding reception.

It's a way to get me distracted from work problems as well as the pressure I get from the wedding preparation. Like I mentioned on my previous post, life after marriage is what I'm looking forward to not the wedding preparation. I even had the craziest idea of becoming a fully housewife after getting married to give my full attention to my family which Izwan rejected firmly.


Can this 8 months pass by as quickly as it can? Coz I'm already excited to have a living room as the picture shown above.

Mommy 59th birthday

Mommy hosted a BBQ session on her birthday last 9 April. She has been planning to do it weeks before her birthday. She has been calling the aunties and uncles to "balik kampung" for that day. And for the rest of us, balik kampung right after work was where we headed to.

Oh! for those who don't know, my kampung is just 30 minutes away from the city.

Without further a due, let the pictures do the talking.

Mak long + Pak long + Mak Ngah and mommy. Oh! they were having their adik-beradik gossip session using the language of none of us could understand unless you're a truly "minang" literate person.

And the rest of the crew.

My most favourite baby cousin.

Mommy and her cake.

Pak long + Kakak + Kak Yati.

The little kiddos were waiting for the cake eagerly.

Family I love.

And to you mommy, happy 59th birthday. May Allah bless you always murah rezki, panjang umur dan dirahmati selalu. You've been through a lot. You are the toughest person that I've ever known in my entire life. Though sometimes, you're sarcasm is superbly unacceptable but deep in your heart, you always wanted to give the best especially to the ones you love and care the most. Love you big time mother!

Ouch! how come i can still feel the pain?

" It’s better to say goodbye and make the person you love cry than to make them believe with all your lies. "

Pulun Kedah Pulun

It was an impromptu decision made by mr. fiance but certainly not mine. He was planning to go but halfheartedly at first. Since I was with him the entire day, he had no choice but to drag me with him. I guess, that was the toughest decision he had to make, dragging me to watch a football match. He left me with no choice but to follow him to the stadium. It was right after maghrib that he decided to go with no ticket in hand. We left right after dinner which was around 8.15pm. The game was scheduled to start around 8.30-ish and knowing me, I practically nagged him throughout the entire journey to the stadium from looking for a parking space to what-happen-if-there's-no-ticket to the-crowd-that-we-have-to-handle-while-watching to there'll-be-no-place-to-sit-on to almost every possible thoughts running in my head. He just sat quietly and relaxing while driving us there. That is what happened when you have to drag a girl who have no interest in watching a live football match.

We managed to get a nice spot for a parking space and we're even lucky to get a cheaper price ticket. To top it up, we managed to get the clearest view to watch the match.


Unlucky me, I only have my bad quality camera phone with me as a first timer watching a football match as a witness of self-achievement. That was the crowd on Kedah side. They were aggressive. I guess, when you're watching your state players fighting for a winning title, you'll be aggressive as if you're the one who were actually playing for them. It was a good game though. The crowd were crazy, from both side perhaps!

It was a hell of a good experience. I really enjoyed watching. We managed to escape the crazy crowd as we decided to leave the stadium right after Negri Sembilan scored the last penalty. It was just a plain luck for them and a bad ending for Kedah. They should've goal the last kick. I enjoyed the game. It was after all, a good first experience.

sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit

I still remember the first day I met you and I still remember how you were back then. Those years when nothing in this world means anything to you. You were a type of person who cares nothing but yourself. You're not the type who finishes his assignment on time. You're not the type who goes to every classes as scheduled. You're not every teachers' pet.

But today, as in Thursday, January 8, 2010, you've made me and the rest of the family proud and I am the happiest among all.

Sunday thoughts

I was doing the usual room cleaning today when it occurs to me that 2010 will be the last year of me living my single hood. As in today for the next years, I'll be having someone with me, trying to build a life together, Insyaallah and hopefully it will be the one that I'm going to live with forever.

While browsing through the internet, looking for potential what-ever-nots, I crossed over blogs of bride-to-be(s). Yes, not one but several of them who created a blog just to post about their wedding/engagement preparations. There were those who were being skeptical on how their reception will turned out to be. There were those who concerned on what kind of hantaran they should give. And there were also those who were busy sketching their own wedding dresses and color to choose on to collaborate with their wedding theme. And I stopped browsing immediately.

Honestly, I wasn't ready to start looking for stuffs for my wedding, not just yet. 9 months is still a long way to go, for me that is. But the truth is, 9 months can past with just a blink of an eye. But I'm still not up to it. Not to say that I'm not excited of my wedding. It's just that I'm more excited to live my life after the wedding. I wasn't interested to talk about my hantaran. Not even to Mr. Fiance. Everytime he started talking about what to get, when to buy stuffs, where to get it all done; I quickly change the topic to something rather interesting than discussing about hantaran.

Isn't it weird?! Usually, girls go crazy for their wedding preparation. But in my case, it is the other way round. The other half is even excited to talk about the preparation compare to me. I found it rather weird. Well, I guess when the time comes, I'll be crazy talking about it. But right now, lets just keep it to the low.

In 9 months time, I have to be fit to lead my own life. There's another person that I have to look after. There's another plate on the table that I need to get it ready for. There's another pair of clothes that I need to put into consideration. My bag is double the size from what I have now. I can't just think about myself anymore. And the bag will be getting bigger by time. I have to be ready for it. I have to be fit to face all that.

It's the life after marriage that I have to be ready for not the preparation. I have to be a wife to a husband and still maintain the relationship with my family. I have a reputation of being his parents' daughter-in-law and keep a good relationship with his side of family. I have more hearts to care off and not just mine. And by time, there will be more responsibilities that I have to carry.

It's a beautiful thing, if you look it on the positive side. I will be having a real kampung (for the fact that my current kampung is just 30 minutes away from the city) because his side of the family is all in Kedah. I have someone to share my ups and downs; happiness and sadness all my by self and most importantly, I have a husband now! Someone to share my love with.

I have 9 months left to enjoy my single hood to the last sip. I have another 9 months to get myself ready for a new adventure. And I have another 9 months to go before having a new last name (heh!). I'm all excited for it! For that 9 months in the future, Insyaallah.

But for now, lets just keep things to the low.