"If you can't be with someone during their worst, then you don't deserve to be with them in their best"
A friend of mine asked me couple of days ago what makes me want to settle down, getting married at the age of 25 (oh, I'll be 26 nanti bila sudah bergelar puan) with the person that I've been with for the past 5 years? "tak boring ke nanti kahwin dengan orang yang sama?", that was her exact question.
I smiled and gave her the most cliché statement one could have answered. "dah sampai jodoh". I don't see the point of explaining to her coz clearly she doesn't understand the concept of marriage. She was once married but unfortunately, her marriage doesn't stay for long. She has stop believing in marriage ever since. I don't blame her for that. I totally understand her situation.
This is not the first time she asked me this soalan cepu cemas. The first time she asked was more casual "ala, tak kahwin pun boleh happy" but I told her that I want to grow old, growing grey hair together with my husband, with god's will of course. Poyo kan bunyinya but who cares?! But she still insist in being happy.........alone. I don't blame her though. She had her share of unhappy marriage and we don't have the right to judge. Some people have their own story to tell; to believe in. And I believe in sharing my love with my loved ones.
Honestly, I was once like her. I don't believe in kahwin muda. I even have my life planned right after I graduated. Kerja puas-puas, kumpul duit, travel as much as I can before settling down. Basically, enjoying the single-hood to the fullest. I achieved most of the things that I want to achieve after graduation. I got my dream job. Travel a bit tetapi pepatah melayu ada berkata "semuaya adalah ketentuan tuhan" and never...never to say never in your life coz believe it or not, karma works weyh!
I nearly lost someone very dear to me and I had to learn life the hardest way. Lesson learned and everything changed ever since. So I decided to say "yes" to an early marriage. But the dreams to travel, kumpul duit, BEING HAPPY have never stop. Izwan and I, we have plans. The plan for traveling together. The plan of kumpul duit together. The plan of being happy with each other. Insyaallah.
I know it's too early to say. I'm not living in a marriage life yet but I'm anticipating much on it. They say marriage is for the good and the bad, in sickness and health, for richer or poorer and for better or for worse. Till death do us apart! They don't just vow meaninglessly don't they?!
If my future husband is willing to risk his life marrying me, taking the worst part of me together with him, handling the psycho part of me and for the fact that he has to deal with my sarcasm and crankiness his entire life, I don't see the point of saying "no" to him then. After all, he has been dealing with all that for the past 5 and half years. Kalau tak masakan dia proposed? Kan?! Memang menempah maut hidup sengsara. Siapa mau?
They say you'll only realize how important that person is to you only when they're gone and I have to agree with that. Life is after all about taking chances. Kalau tak cuba, mana nak tahu? Kalau dah cuba, barulah tahu, kan?!
So yea, I'm willing to take that chances with no regrets. Insyaallah.
