Goodbye November, Hello December

It's been awhile since my last post. I don't even remember my username and password, I had to try them twice to be able to log in - that's how long this blog has been abandoned. Dah berkulat dan bersawang.

Well, thanks to all TV channels for not airing good TV programmes for me to watch, I finally tuned myself to this blog of mine which I clearly, have no idea what to write. Iman is asleep and I finally have time to myself and yet, I find myself restless for not doing anything.

Pendek cerita, tiada yang lebih serabut selain daripada perasaan yang dihadapi sekarang.

Kadang-kadang, ada betulnya bila orang cakap jangan terlalu berharap sebab harapan akan hanya tinggal angan-angan dan boleh memakan diri sendiri which clearly, have taken its toll on me. Takot yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendung berciciran. All I can hope for is to be able to change my life for the sake of my family - to improve my relationship with my husband (not that we have a bad relationship) and to be able to be a good mother to Iman.

A lot has happened and I, at some point feels that I am nothing but a bad wife to my husband and a super bad irresponsible mother to my child which have driven me nutts. I pray that December will be nothing but a good month for me. A month for me to change - change to be a better person.

Dah merepek meluahkan perasaan, I think I have to go now sebab Iman dah bangun. Oh btw, we went to Bali last October. Will write about it soon (kalau ingat).

Salam and take care everyone.

Selangor Negeriku

Posted up this status on my Facebook account last Wednesday. Feeling all disappointed over the current situation that is happening in Selangor. 

After so many years, Selangor has finally becoming an establish state managed by the "experience" people who really know how to manage a state rather than thinking on how to grow their own pocket size. For that, I believe, has built the confident and trust between the ruler, The Sultan of Selangor and the state representatives especially towards the MB. And as the rakyat, I also believe, we are happier now than ever - in so many ways and factors.

In the eyes of the rakyat, Pakatan Rakyat has done a wonderful job managing the state of Selangor. We can proudly say that our leader, the MB is finally free from corruption (I'm sure he is not totally free but does not commit serious corruption crime as the previous MBs). We can see that he is working towards the excellence of Selangor, just like how he managed his previous organization. We believe in his capabilities. But unfortunately, all these are going down the drain.

Selangor adalah negeri yang sangat kaya-raya. Kuala Lumpur is situated within Selangor's district. Kaya dengan balak, kaya dengan tanah pasir, kaya dengan kilang-kilang. Segala jenis kilang ada di Selangor. Kilang Carlsberg kat Selangor. Kilang Guinese kat Selangor. These are the source of income for Selangor. Dan sudah pasti, ramai orang mahukan Selangor. Selangor MB seat is always the "hot" seat. Dan sebab itu juga, Selangor tidak pernah lepas daripada berlakunya pergolakan politik.

I hope this is just temporary. A transaction period for a betterment. Maybe, just maybe, what people say about the MB is true. But he is reliable and he can do work. We all know that he is not a politician. He is known for his corporate excellence and because of that, he manages Selangor very well!

Semoga Selangor kembali kepada sedia kala. Kalau sekarang ni di buat pilihanraya, I'm 101% confident that it'll be in the hands of BN. Penat je pergi beratur panjang-panjang mengundi pada May 5, 2013. Sia-sia segala penat lelah peluh yang minitik!

Salam subuh!

The end of the 2 series

About a month ago, 9 July 2014 to be exact, I celebrated my 29th birthday. This year is rather special because my birthday fell on the 3rd week of Ramadan. Syukur and Alhamdulillah for another wonderful year of living. Jatuh pulak pada bulan Ramadan - bulan yang paling mulia. Rezeki yang amat berharga.

This year marks as the final year within the 2 series. Next year, it'll be the beginning of the 3 series, insya Allah. Pejam celik, pejam celik dah nak 30an dah. But I always believe that age is just a number. And that, age does not reflect one's maturity. One can be at his/her 30s but acts like a child and vise versa. Therefore, a year older means a year wiser - for me that is!

Being 29 feels nothing less than 28, or even 27. To be honest, I don't really feel "old". Hey, I am not old, I'm still young at heart!

But my responsibilities and commitments to my family, career and to my studies grew bigger. Syukur Alhamdulillah, kalau dengan izin Allah, I shall complete my Masters by end of this year/early 2015. Mungkin, perancangan untuk membesarkan keluarga Ajlaa-Izwan, and maybe, just maybe, new career enhancement. But for now, I would just like to enjoy being 29, with no plans of what-so-ever!

This post is a month late. But, I would like to take this opportunity to thank my family for always, always be there for me even when I said that I don't need their presence/help. A million thanks to my husband, for his patience, dealing with his super crazy maniac wife. For never give-up hope on us even when I'm already am. For being the forever annoying you. Being together is tough but I don't mind being tough together with you.

And last but not least, to my loving best friends, for being the coolest best friends ever! Very sporting to get me a mixer as my birthday present. Super cool and I love it!

I shall end my post with a big hug to all of you, for the well wishes. Thank you so much from the bottom of mu heart!

Pukul 4 pagi

I hate waking up in the middle of the night thinking that it's already morning and that, I have to be ready for work. Wasted few precious hours before the actual waking up time! Lepas tu nanti mulalah rasa menyesal sebab tak tidur puas-puas, sigh!

As I aged, I noticed that I can no longer enjoy the beauty of 8 hours of sleep. The max I can go is 5 hours in a day, excluding evening nap. I'm not that type of person who needs an evening nap. Memang jenis tak boleh tidur petang. Tidur means hanya di waktu malam. Evening nap hanya jika mahu tidurkan Iman. Itu pon lepas Iman lena, I won't continue napping.

Our bedtime is between 10pm-10.30pm. Tapi kalau weekend lambat sikitlah. Kasi chan lah sikit kat Iman. I try to make sure that I reach home before Iman's bedtime so that I can atleast spend time with her. And, I try not to make her sleep too late as that will affect a child's growth. She needs her sleep and she needs to have a fix sleeping time. And because of that, every night without fail, I will wake up between 3.30am-4am sebab dah cukup 5 jam tidur. Lepas tu lepas subuh mulalah mengagau mengantuk!

It's all started when I choose to stay-up late every night during my uni years. Staying up bukan untuk study, tapi pergi melepak. And it became worst when I really had to stay up late to complete my assignments. Biasalah budak art & design, ilham datang tengah malam. Sleep deprived lah lepas tu. Jadi sekarang, ia dah jadi norm to my circle of life. And I become constantly tired because of the lack of sleep.

As much as I hate waking up in the middle of the night. The one thing that I enjoy doing while awake is to watch Iman sleeping. She is at her atmost beauty when she is asleep. Sniffing her face while she is asleep. That is the only time that I can really enjoy her "presence" because it is the only time she lays quietly without jumping or moving around. She snores, just like her dad, which worries me! Does a 2 year old kid snores? 

Well anyway, it's 15mins to 5am. I better stop now and really force myself to sleep before subuh comes.

Salam Tuesday kawan-kawan. Have a nice day ahead!

Kisah baju raya 2014

Just like any other typical Malay family, there will always be a theme color set for every raya, without fail! 

We had light green for our first raya celebration, brownish during the second, orangy on the third and this year we settled for grey. Izwan yang pilih nak color grey, alasannya sebab dia tak pernah ada  baju melayu yang berwarna grey. So, grey it is!

Memandangkan tahun ini merupakan tahun kemalasan dan tidak sempat untuk menghantar baju ke tailor, maka bermulalah acara mencari baju raya secara online. I bought a few. Mana taknya, with just one click, semuanya settled! 

I got my baju raya during the first week of Ramadan while Izwan's, macam biasa dibeli di BAK Tailor berdekatan. Masalah datang bila sampai nak dekat raya tapi baju Iman masih belum jumpa. Was searching high and low over a grey baju kurung tak can fit Iman. Unfortunately, there weren't any. Sampailah ke Parkson KLCC meredah, lalu terjumpa. However, the design wasn't up to my liking. 

Dengan ke-creative-an yang ada di dalam diri, I decided to alter the baju kurung and put up a nicer beading design on Iman's baju kurung.

It took me 2 days to complete the task. Not bad at all!

Dan inilah hasilnya apabila si pemakai menyarungkan baju kurung hasil buatan ibunya.

I must say that I am honestly proud with my own workmanship. Siapa nak puji diri sendiri kalau bukan diri sendiri, ye dak?! Hidden talent namanya.

Maybe I should put some serious thought on this hidden talent of mine. Mana tahu untung-untung boleh buka business, insya Allah!

I gave birth to a drama queen

We went to a salon earlier today and Masyaallah never I knew that it was going to be a nightmare. Mother wanted to "re-style" Iman's hair do and Ya Rabbi, she screamed the moment the uncle hold her hair.

First bad experience for ibu and daughter. We are not going to visit the salon anytime soon. Not a million years for dear Iman.

Candy...what?????

I can't remember when I started playing this game but sure it is very very addictive. It's like a competition here in my office. Some of them have even completed all levels, some are on the 100++ while I am here stuck at level 89.

Like I said, it's very addictive.

I'm no longer received a "real" facebook notifications except the ones from Candy Crush.

Candy crush and candy crush only.

People have stop communicating due to this game. And they will only communicate when it is time to request for "life".

In fact, if you go to places like kedai mamak, bus-stop, lrt stations, you will see people glued to their phones and play with this game.

Believe it or not, candy crush is the latest-most-influenced-game-innovation that people are really into.

Whoever who creates this game is a genuise. YOU have successfully make people shut their lives and glued to your game not just to past their time but to waste it, like what I'm doing right now.

Mid-life crisis..Eh, lambat lagi!

I used to love going to work. I used to enjoy my work very much. Sadly, I don't feel the same way anymore. Every morning I drag myself to work. Tuh yang kadang-kadang masuk lambat. Then, pukul 7pm terus cepat-cepat pack barang terus balik. The thought of having to go to work tomorrow (or any other day for that matter) is making me sick. In fact, I am actually down with fever today sampai berjangkit kat Iman or probably I got the sickness from Iman, I don't know. But I really really feel uncomfortable going to work.

Dapat dek tahu boss ni, mampuih den!

Is it a sign that I have to look for another job? But I still have a lot to learn. Ilmu belum penuh di dada untuk meninggalkan agency.

And....I don't want to go to other agency simply because I want to balance my work and life. Boleh berani kerat rambut kat agency lain, I wouldn't get the same kind of work life as per the agency that I'm currently attached with tapi .......

Inilah dinamakan masalah dunia.

Is this normal?

I don't want to be someone who loves to jump one job to another. Macam takde focus. I'm building a career not job titles.

I'm not complaining. I'm just having a minor mid-life crisis right now. Masalah kebanyakkan orang sekeliling.

Enough rambling. I should go to bed now. Goodnight!

Supermom...Not!!!

Being a mother, a career person and a student at the same is never easy. Its becoming even worst now that I'm actually thinking of dropping two of the above and become a full time housewife instead.

I'm exhausted beyond words.

I'm usually the fighter type. I can easily boost up my confident level everytime I feel demotivated. But this time, its different! I can't take it anymore. I'm just too weak to handle everything.

The "bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian" mantra doesn't work anymore. It doesn't work anymore.

I need a hug. *sob*

Blogger for Android

As jakun as it sounds, I am now posting via phone. Macam canggihkan bunyinya.

I found out that Blogger is now supported by Android (or the other way round, I don't really care) from one of the bloggers few days back and voila! Not that I update my blog so frequently but at least I can tell people that I have downloaded Blogger App (trying not to be left out from the digital world).

And I must say that it is so convenience. Sambil baring-baring golek-golek with Iman pon still boleh posting and I don't have to depend to much on my lappy. Yelah, mentang-mentanglah kena berebut lappy sendiri dengan kekanda tersayang. So yea, convenience it is.

It's close to midnight already and I have a mission to wake up as early as 4am trying to complete one of my assignments. Wish me luck!

Good night and Assalamualaikm.