Hello World!

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam KeSebelas: Keluar ia daripada dunia (mati) bersih daripada dosa seperti ia baharu dilahirkan.

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He was born on 18 August 2009, hours before Maghrib with the weight of 3.89kg.

Dear little cousin, welcome to the world. You are now the baby brother of your brothers (the aunty already have 2 boys before him) and also the youngest among us. May you be a bright happy kid with all the love you can have around you.

Welcome to the family, Muhamad Syazani bin Shezri.

Holly Schmolly

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam KeSepuluh: Allah Subhanahuwata'ala mengurniakan kepadanya kebaikan di dunia dan di akhirat.

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I'm now officially connected to the world.

SpencerAzizul Hebat!

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam KeLapan: Allah mengurniakan pahala orang sembahyang terawih sepertimana yang telah dikurniakan kepada Nabi Allah Ibrahim Alaihissalam.

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I'm proud to announce SpencerAzizul's most astonished product campaign will be officially on air today! Point of advice; get yourself a box of tissue paper.

Ministry of Health - Tak Nak 2009 Campaign TVC by SpencerAzizul Sdn Bhd.

will be on air as scheduled below:

TV1 - Berita Nasional (8PM)

TV3 - Buletin Utama (8PM)

NTV7 - Mandarin 7 (9.30PM)

NTV7 - Hong Movie (10PM)

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam KeTujuh

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam KeTujuh: Seolah-olah ia dapat bertemu dengan Nabi Musa serta menolong Nabi lsa Alaihissalam nenentang musuh ketatnya Firaun dan Hamman.

Coz I'm Only Human

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam KeEnam: Allah kurniakan pahala kepadanya pahala Malaikat-malaikat yang tawaf di Baitul Ma’mur (70 ribu Malaikat sekali tawaf), serta setiap batu-batu dan tanah-tanah mendoakan supaya Allah mengampunkan dosa-dosa orang yang mengerjakan sembahyang terawih pada malam ini.

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The only thing I asked yesterday after subuh prayer was all the strength that I could have as the day earlier was the suckiest I could have remembered. Nothing but just strength.

It started of pretty well. I mean my day started of pretty well. As I thought that yesterday would be a very bright and shinny day, it turned out to be in its’ heaviest; storming afternoon. I couldn’t hold myself yesterday. I mean the working life has finally taking its’ toll on me. I’m seeing the darkness side of it and I’m starting to not to like them. I hope it’s not permanent. After all, this is what I’m asking for on the evaluation paper.

But I’m glad it happened in the month of Ramadan.

I made a huge mistake yesterday. At least for me, I thought it so. But like I said, I’m only human. I made mistakes in the process of learning and try not to do the same mistakes again because I believe, everyday is a learning process despite of what ever things that I do or get myself into.

I guess this is what working in an advertising firm is all about. Working at a very last minute, being an all-rounder, can-go-to-hell-with-datelines, dealing with an uncivilized people, working with the hard-cores and most importantly, stay back till late hours.

Despite of all that had happened, my day ended the other way round. I guess, rainy day doesn't last too long.

Just smile and hope that everyday is a wonderful day

WORK is just a 4 letter words

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam KeLima: Allah SWT akan mengurniakan pahala seumpama pahala orang-orang yang mengerjakan sembahyang di Masjidil Haram, Masjidil Madinah dan Masjidil Aqsa.

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yesterday was the first day i had my Ramadan as a working person. for the past, i don't know gazillion years, Ramadan has always been easy for me. time was never a problem. i have ample of time to prepare myself for berbuka, getting myself ready for sahur (dan kembali sambung tidur selepasnya) and also performing terawih. but yesterday, the heat of Ramadan has finally knocking on my door.

it wasn't the best first experience. in fact, it was the worst! let's just skip the whole episode and hope that today will be a better day.

berebut bas adalah satu perkara, berdiri di dalam bus sepanjang perjalanan adalah lain cerita tetapi berdiri di dalam bas sepanjang perjalanan yang sesak terlampau memang menguji jiwa dan raga. this is where i say, taking public transportation is totally sucks! abang bas driver yang handsome pon menjadi tidak handsome muka macam &*^%&(*&^^$$@#.

lets just say that i had the worst day ever!

mother, i salute you! bangun pagi masak sahur, pergi kerja, balik rumah dan masak untuk kami, tidur selepas kami semua tidur dan bangun semula di pagi hari untuk masak sahur. memang hebat!

kalau gua dah tentu patah kaki.

time is running out! tiba-tiba pagi ini semua berebut mahu mandi awal. what the????????

Big Heart

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam KeEmpat: Memperolehi pahala ia sebagaimana pahala orang-orang yang membaca kitab-kitab Taurat, Zabur, Injil dan Al-Quran.

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yesterday marked the second day of Ramadan and also the third night for all of us performing Terawih. it is the usual for us the family to perform Terawih at As-Sobirin mosque and yesterday was the day that amazed me the most.

we were imam-ed by a 10 years old boy with such a beautiful voice. Adik Muhamad as i can recalled his name. as far as i can remember, he was the youngest As-Sobirin has ever invited in leading the solat. and boy i must say, it made the hall full of ashamed. as the boy is only 10 and he lead the hall that was full with muslims nearly atleast double his age. he recited all the beautiful surah from the Quran with beautiful Taranum and Tajwid perfectly. I was amazed!

amazed to see that he's only 10 and memerized the surah from Quran in heart. amazed to see that he has the courage to lead the solat in a mosque; for the fact that he's only 10.

he made his parents a proud one! and he sure made the hall full of proud muslims.

and he made yesterday a memorable one!

Question

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam Ketiga: Berseru Malaikat di bawah 'Arasy supaya kami meneruskan sembahyang terawih terus-menerus semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa engkau.

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• Kenapa bila tiba bulan Ramadan, semua siaran tv nak pasang rancangan pasal orang miskin dan daif?
• Kenapa bila tiba bulan Ramadan, semua siaran tv berlumba-lumba nak pasang rancangan berkisarkan kisah-kisah nabi?
• Kenapa bila tiba bulan Ramadan, baru terhengeh-hengeh siaran tv membuat peringat supaya kita bersedekah dan beramal jariah?

rasanya, untuk beramal jariah, memperingatkan diri tentang kesusahan orang lain dan mempelajari tentang kisah-kisah nabi bukanlah pada bulan Ramadan sahaja. bukannya setiap bulan pun harus beramal jariah? mengingati para nabi dan sentiasa bersyukur? tapi kenapa harus beria-ia pada bulan Ramadan sahaja?

konsep tolong! konsep.

memanglah bulan ramadan diseru untuk lebih beramal dan beribadah tatepi janganlah terlalu mengambil kesempatan. seolah-olah bulan Ramadan sahaja yang umat islam beribadah, seolah-olah bulan Ramadan adalah bulan kesusahan/kesedihan, seolah-olah di dunia hanya ada orang susah bila tiba bulan Ramadan dan seolah-olah bulan lain kita tidak langsung beribadah.

sama juga dengan drama melayu. bila tiba bulan Ramadan, semua terkedek-kedek pasang cerita orang ini leka dan baru terkejar-kejar nak bertaubat seolah-olah bulan lain kerjanya hanya bersuka ria. semua berebut-rebut nak tayang cerita yang air mata boleh kumpul satu baldi, semua nak pasang cerita yang endingnya bertudung dan berjubah. tudung bukan untuk bulan Ramadan sahaja. berjubah bukan untuk tujuan berfashion sahaja. apakah maksud jika bertudung hanya padan bulan Ramadan? what will happen to the rest of the months? well, hijab is not a trend of fashion and hijab is not spesifically for the holy month of Ramadan. hijab is not just a matter of covering the head alone, but also of covering the bosom, which is attractive to men, and of lowering the gaze and walking in a way that does not attract attention. Note that the order to lower the gaze was addressed first to men

"Tell the believing men to lower their gaze and be modest. That is purer for them. Lo! Allah is Aware of what they do. And tell the believing women to lower their gaze and be modest, and to display of their adornment only that which is apparent, and to draw their veils over their bosoms, and not to reveal their adornment save to their own husbands or fathers or husbands fathers, or their sons or their husbands' sons, or their brothers or their brothers' sons or sisters sons, or their women, or their slaves, or male attendants who lack vigor, or children who know naught of women's nakedness. And let them not stamp their feet so as to reveal what they hide of their adornment. And turn unto Allah together, O believers, in order that ye may succeed" - Surah 24, verses 30-31

konsep please, konsep!

walaupun bulan Ramadan digalakkan oleh kita untuk lebih beramal ibadah, tetapi janganlah sehingga memberi maksud yang berbeza. lakukanlah dengan keikhlasan. bukan atas tujuan untuk menunjuk-nunjuk. supaya bulan ini memberi seribu barakah kepada kita semua. Insyaallah.

Berpuasa Hari Pertama

Fadhilat Solat Terawih Malam Kedua: Diampunkan dosa-dosa orang mukmin yang sembahyang terawih serta kedua ibubapanya (sekiranya mereka orang beriman).

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We (the family) didn't managed to wake up for sahur this morning. i guess we were all tired after having the late night hours of cleaning the house. oh! have i mentioned that the house is now fully renovated. so, no more knocking here and there, no more living under the super dirty air and no more dust.

my room is now ready for some actions!

anyways, i'm now resting my head down after cleaning the new room, moping the house floor and cleaning some areas in the house. and i'm now down flat tak tahan. my mom was making her point out when she mentioned about us not helping her with the house. well mom, you're the one who was being so excited about renovating the house.

so i helped her out today.

you know the power of a mother. none, i say none can ever replace them! i was down with a high fever couple of weeks ago and was suspected for having dengue dued to the rashes that appeared around my hand and the very high fever itself. and my mom did so many things just to keep me healthy. she cooked though the house was in a chaos, helped me dealing with the hospital (i was injected and dripped for dehydration) and was with me the whole week. to see the sacrifices, i don't think i could ever be like her and it even sacred me. can i ever be like her one day? am i capable of being like her; doing things like what she does?

and so, i repay her by helping her out today.

dah flat, gua mahu mandi. kalaulah ada bath tub. dah lama dah berendam.

Ramadan Al-Mubarak

i was planning on throwing the anger here, right at this moment but was awaken by the gift given by the big boss with a warm wishes of selamat berpuasa. i was tensed the whole day (still am for the fact that these people here in the office have the tendency of doing work on the very last minute). he gave us a pack of wrapped King's Dates with a small card saying "Selamat Berpuasa". he even delivered them by hand. sungguh baik hati. alangkah baiknya juga jika bungkusan itu disertakan dengan sepaket duit raya. a bonus maybe ;)

maka dengan itu, tiba-tiba amarah itu sudah hilang. this is what we call the power of Ramadan.

with this opportunity, i would like to wish everyone Selamat Menyambut Ramadan. Semoga bulan ini memberi seribu kerahmatan dan who knows it might be the month for us to change some "inappropriate" attitude we have in us. may this month be the month for us to clean our souls from all the bad influences and thoughts.

since it is the month of holy-ness, i made a promise to myself to change all the bad attitude i have for the sack of improvement. sentiasa memperingatkan diri dan tidak leka terhadap tanggungjawab samada yang wajib ataupun tidak. to always be a better person in every aspect in life. Insyaallah!

marilah kita sentiasa ingat mengingati.

i will try to include the Fadhilat Malam Terawih from my post everyday in the process of reminding and remembering. Insyaallah!



Fadhilat Malam Terawih Pertama: Keluar dosa-dosa orang mukmin pada malam pertama sepertimana ia baru dilahirkan, mendapat keampunandari Allah.

GRADUATION

first and for most, i've officially graduated. yes, Alhamdulillah. all the hardworks, the dramas, the these and that; they are now the greatest past tense of my life and i'm proud to say that nothing, NOTHING have ever been regretted. not a single line. i think, i've spent the past 5 years pretty well. even, the shittest shits happened, and i'm glad that they happened. well, a chapter is now closing and it ended the way it should be and of course with greatest memories in line. and if it was written in a book, it will definitely be the one called, When Ajlaa Survives the Shittest. chewah! berangan.




i miss Penang terribly. i'm no kidding! i don't remember being sad leaving Penang the way i felt when i left Penang Monday the 17th. it felt as if part of me has been torn apart. chewah, drama plak! but seriously, it felt that way. Penang has grown in me pretty well i guess. i'm sure gonna miss Penang after this. though, there won't be anymore trip going up north but i'm sure gonna "visit" them someday. any day!

oh, aku rindu Penang sudah!

One Word

tired!

i'll write more, i promise! a lot has been happening. both good and bad, mostly good and happy moments (siapa tidak happy kalau officially graduated!).

i'll write more with marvelous pictures in line.

wait till the renovated house has finally over. it's getting on my nerves now i swear to god i'll burst anytime soon. and mom, if you ever read this, please, i say please no more renovating the house or by any chance you've decided on doing some "minor" repairing here and there, i swear i'll leave the house and never coming back. (ok, dramatic pulak). ok, maybe i'll leave the house and balik kampung.

i'll write more when the feel is right. but for the time being, relax and enjoy your life while it last! you might be suprise to see how short your life is. eh, it doesn't sounds right but you know what i mean. life is seriously too short now!

so lovebirds, smiles even when it is raining!

A Cup of Coffee A day Keeps The Heart-ache Away

as much as i thought that August will give me wonders, it fails! and today marks that first day of being miserable. i had a great first week of August. got free vouchers from the Production Manager, had food celebration coz we nailed 5 campaigns, had another free food treatment since it was the bestfriend's birthday and i'm nothing but happy coz my wishes have been granted.

but today, i woke up with teary eyes.

Shit with all the miseries, I'm out to get McD's Chocolate Sundae.

Beauty is Pain

and i agree 110%.

to have a million dollar face, one have to spend a trillion dollar to fix everything. and that includes all kinds of botax-ing, all type of injections, all sorts of therapy and not forgetting, countless of wasted time on consultancies.

the same goes to fixing a house. to get a nice looking house (i'm not going to say a million dollar house coz my house is not worth of any millions), one have to hear all kind of noises, living under an airing dust, having the feeling of insecurity (for the fact that the house is doorless), messy looking environment, breething the dirty air, and most of all, can-go-to-hell-with comfortness.

and this is what i'm currently facing.

its been 3 weeks now. all the noises, the dirt air, dusty and messy looking house; its getting on my nerves now. this is all because mom wants a good looking house. kalau lah ada pintu poket doraemon, dah tentu-tentu ada pintu ajaib masa hadapan yang boleh skip all the hussle-bassle.

i can't go anywhere but stay in the kitchen. i have to wear mask for i have a very weak heart (lelah). i can only take my bath when the workers finish their works for the day. i have to wake up before they arrive. i think i'm turning deaf now coz they are cutting the steel to make the stairs in the house.

Nikmatnya Malaysia

I miss Penang!

enough said.

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p/s: will be having a short trip up to Penang. uberly excited y'all!

p/s/s: as you can see, i changed my template and my Bucket List is gone. all gone!

p/s/s/s: i think August is awesome!

p/s/s/s/s: I always learn something new everytime i watch Freedom Writers. everytime!

Forgive and forget.

i have so many things to write about but words were not always on my side. they were oftenly left hanging half way in the middle of ............ finishing the post. i weren't able to finish writing a post without even cancelling the old one. i got distracted easily trying to figure out practically about nothing. i just need a peace shit of mind.

July wasn't the best month for me this year. as the matter of fact, it was the worst so far! and i had a tough time handling them. the "unwanted" chaos. i had a tough time fixing them. i guess i were't trying hard enough or maybe i just being plain lazy. it gets harder each time. it gets more complicated each day. i rather sit and do nothing than squeezing my head trying to figure out on what to do. i just need a peace shit of mind.

everything is not functioning when the head is not placing in its' place. everything seem so wrong even for something that is so right. the sun is not shining brightly even when the rains are gone. the world seem so quiet eventhough laughters are everywhere. seriously, i just need a peace shit of mind.

i'm out of words again. i've lost in my own translation. i just need a peace shit of mind.

i hope it is still not too late to wave my hand saying goodbye July and hello August. may August be a better month for me that will be filled with laughters and countless of happiness.

Cancer

"Don't back away from an emotional matter that needs to be resolved. You will find the right words to accommodate the situation and get things working the way you want them to. Be honest about the way you feel and how you see things unfolding"

- MalayMail, August3, 2009

Fixing a broken heart

and it's fucking hard

All that I want

and a new set of life. i need some distractions and i need it immediately. this is torturing.

Touch N' Go; Pick N' Grab

it's normal to be demanding. we oftenly opted for something beautiful; atleast from our own perspective. we looked for something that we thought we had the connection with. we searched for something that is meaningful to our life; atleast before we die. but nevertheless, taking things for granted is what we always do.

and like i said, we oftenly opted for something beautiful. we saw something attractive while browsing through but never really had the feelings to owns it but somehow or rather, we have the needs of wanting it.

we made choices. but to some, choosing is not an option. we grab everything that we saw beforehand. just like sales on a designer's boutique. prices aren't negotiable. the needs of wanting is more important. we choose, we pick and off we go, with no regrets.

because we know, satisfaction is what counts.

but like i said earlier, we tend to take things for granted. we tend to forget what we really want. the hardworks, the needs, the moments; they are now no longer relevent.





i'm lost in my own words. i know you're reading this. i hope you'll be everything that you always wanted to be. my prayers will always be with you. i'm wishing you all the best in life. may Allah bless.