The wonderfulness of motherhood.

I had a crappy day today. I was stuck whole day doing budgeting. You do not want to do budgeting whole day but when you have 42 active brands, you need full concentration especially when your numbers are being reported to the senior management team. You do not want to report faulty numbers no?! I have to ensure that the numbers provided by my agency are accurate. I have to ensure that my team members also submitted the right set of media budget numbers. Trust me, you do not want to know this.

On top of that, I also need to manage some other irresponsible people who like to sit on things. Who like to cause delay on other people's job. Who just like to sit in the office makan gaji buta. Amat geram rasa di hati ini. Sesungguhnya, hari ini adalah bukan hari yang baik.

Memandangkan hari ini saya berpuasa ganti, so I left office quite early compared to other days. Left at 6.30pm sharp just to ensure that I reach home right on time for berbuka. Sesampainya di pintu rumah, Iman rushed to me naked (because it is about time for her to take her bath) with a card in hand. She handed me the card that she made today at school. Ok, clearly it is not her handwriting but the thoughts of her knowing it's actually a mother's day put me at awe.

This washed away all the crappiness I had earlier today. This really put a smile on my face. I almost cried receiving this beautiful.... beautiful card. 

The wonderful thing of being a mother. Syukur alhamdulillah.

For better or for worse

We celebrated our 5th anniversary last January. Pejam celik, pejam celik dah 5 tahun berumahtangga. And I must say, it is not easy to sustain a marriage; to sustain my marriage. It's true when they say, you only know your partner only when you sleep, shit and eat together.

Within this 5 years of being together, we have our fair share of ups and downs. It is nothing compared to the ones we had during our 5 years of "courting". The fights, the laughters, the disagreements, the happiness; they are all different. I learned a lot through it. I believe I'm more matured through it. 

So what I gained from this 5 years of marriage. A lot, a hell lot!

In all honestly, this marriage is so powerful coz at times, it able to pull my self-esteem down. It demotivates me to the level where I feel like I want to run away from everything and everyone. It also gives me the disappointment feeling which I have never felt before in my life. Despite the negativity, it is so wonderful that it able to change me to the most happiest person on earth just within split seconds. It motivates me to improve myself to be a better person. It teaches me patience. It teaches me to see things in a bigger perspective. It gives me courage to change myself to be a better person. The feeling is so .... priceless.

5 years, we almost lost it all. But I'm glad we are able to pull ourselves together and still holding our hands strong. I guess, it is a learning process for both of us. We need to understand each other better; our wants and needs. We have to understand that marriage is a team work. It is not a one person's job. It's a lifetime commitment between two person who believe in each other, that promise to be with each other through ups and downs; for better or for worse. 

Hidup senang bersama memang senang to achieve tapi hidup susah bersama adalah cabaran sebenar.

Preloved - COACH CROSBY CARRYALL IN LEATHER IN DARK BROWN

I'm making room for other stuff and I'm selling off this lovely pre-loved handbag.

The bag is still in a very good condition. Carried twice for less than 3 hours each occasion. The bag comes with a dustbag and an original guarantee card. The bag is still smell good. Bought at Coach KLCC Boutique early 2015.

I'm selling for RM1,800 (negotiable). Retail is selling at RM2,300.

PM is you are interested. COD within Klang Valley area. Email me at ajlaa0907@gmail.com

Photo Credit from Coach Malaysia website.

Photo Credit from Coach Malaysia Website

Corporate vs Agency

Last month, I celebrated my first anniversary with Nestle. It's been great so far - tough, challenging but overall, it's a very good experience.

To be honest, I am still adapting to this whole corporate world thing. It's my first experience working in a corporate world and I must say, it ain't easy. My first 6 years of working experience has been with an agency - local and multinational. The experience was nothing like how it is here in the corporate world. Even though my heart is still with the agency, but I don't think I would want to go back to where I was - to the agency. I've made up my mind long before joining Nestle that this is the way it is now for me. No turning back. Not till I get what I need to get/gain and where I need to be. And I have to be strong in order to stay.

Within this short period of time (yes, 1 year is still short period), I've experienced my ups and downs. I broke down once, end of last year coz I seriously feel that I can't take it anymore. It's mainly because I was working all alone by myself for three months straight and the pressure was overwhelming. I was literally running my department by myself. It was crazy. But all is well now, I hope!

My responsibility is bigger here in the corporate world compared in the agency. In agency, you have no time for politics. It's either you take it or leave it. No hangky-pangky. One's priority is to serve the client. That's the life of a media planner. Unlike here in the corporate world. One just need to know how to play the game.

Well, it is not always bad in the corporate world. There are so many opportunities and room for me to learn and grow. It's the matter of time. I just need to be focus and stay positive.

I'll write more. It's good to be back again here but it is not good to start with negativity. 2016's resolution is to write more walaupun dah nak dekat setengah tahun.

Good night for now.

Beribu Sesalan

Ku susuri, malam ini

Yang tidak berbintang, sunyi sepi

Juga rembulan, dan menghilang

Dalam kelam ku sendiri

Ku mencari, hembus bayu

Yang selalu berbisik, madah rindu

Kini membisu dalam sayu

Tidak ku temu suaramu

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku

Di saat ku perlukanmu

Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu

Di sini, ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi

Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi

Kisah janji, dimungkiri lagi

Sia-Siaku

Mencintaimu

Setia Padamu

Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku

Retak hatiku

Luka jiwaku

Dihiris pilu