Akhirnya kecundang jua

For the past few months, Iman refused drinking milk in the bottle. I tried changing to other bottles and it failed big time. Someone suggested that I change the tits and guess what, failed! Izwan's friend suggested to look for the rubber yellow color tits and dude, I've looked for it everywhere but couldn't find any. Unfortunately, that type of tits is not certified hence, it is off the market. But Izwan insisted to look for it. Well, good luck dear husband! 

I've tried everything and it's not working. I almost give-up but I came up with a solution after consulting with one of my colleague who is also experiencing the same kind of problem. Apparently, it is a norm for babies to not to drink milk in the bottle. As long as I keep on breastfeeding Iman, it shouldn't be a problem.

So, I decided to mix the ebms into her morning cereal. That is the only solution that it seems to be working although the amount of ounces that she consumes is very very little, at least she has it!

She lost weight (I think!). Physically, she looks thinner but she put on some kilos over the past months. She's taller that's for sure. I guess because she is actively moving around that makes her look thinner or maybe because I'm being a kiasu mom that it worries me.

This has been happening for months now that I decided to introduce her with formula milk. Yes, after 14months on ebm/dbm, I finally switch to formula milk. But not entirely though. With the amount of ounces that she consumes, I'm not convince at all. So I bought Anmum over the last weekend and I tried to feed her using bottle. And guess what, it failed!

Ya Allah, dugaan! dugaan!

So then, I spoon-fed her yesterday morning right after her breakfast and Alhamdulillah, she's on it. But it has to be a spoon-feeding method. She still refusing milk in the bottle which I have no idea how to overcome. If any of you mommies have experienced this before, please, please do share with me. I'm out of solutions.

I would love to continue bf-ing my daughter till she turns 2 but I guess it is about time to switch to formula milk. She's growing up and she needs more nutrients.

Ibu yang kebingungan I am!

My Little Family

I decided to change my domain name and title.

The previous domain and title was created for a "recovering" purposes after I broke up with Izwan.

Drama big time, I know!

So, I decided to use my old domain which is more "ME"

Gotto go. 

Have a nice day everyone!

Wordless Friday

My soon-to-be 16 months old lil munchkin. 

Very bubbly. 

She loves to climb up and down from the sofa bed. 

Very loud as she loves to scream out loud.

She loves to throw things after playing with them.

She loves to push the mini-bicycle instead of sitting on it.

My cats are afraid of her.

She loves to play with a ball instead of a doll.

She sleeps like a king. 

She's a lazybum. She refuses to walk on her own. Sigh!

She's my heart and soul.

I love you with all my heart. 

Are you ready?

This will be my first time voting. I'm excited. No, jakun is the best word to describe how I feel towards the coming 13th general election. Yes, you read it right - JAKUN!

I couldn't be bothered to vote during the last GE simply because I don't feel the need to do so. And plus, I was still studying at that time. I don't have commitment yet and if it wasn't because of my husband who has been consistently brain-washing me with all these political issues and how it effects our daily life, I don't think I would still register myself as a voter.

Sekarang dah lain, especially when you are working and pretty much aware of what is happening around you, one needs to vote.

Honestly, it wouldn't change that much. The current government will still rule whether you like it or not. But, the question that has been raised by most people - will they be able to get the parliament 2/3 majority? And this is where the excitement comes. 

With all the political dramas that have been happening for the past few years, this general election will determine who speaks the truth.

And as a voter who will be voting in Selangor, will Selangor falls under BN after all the heavy advertising that they've done? "Sayangi Selangor, Yakini BN" 

I personally think that it is unnecessary to do such advertising and to shout how BN has help in developing Selongor. It is showing that you are actually focusing more in Selangor than any other states for that matter. What happen to Kelantan, Terengganu, Sabah or Sarawak? Aren't they as important as Selangor? But why Selangor? You are doing a good cause for a wrong reason.

But anyhow, lets just wait for 5th May to come as it will determine who the next government will be.

Have a nice day people. And don't forget to vote coz every vote counts.

The Broken Ones

I know they've hurt you bad.

Wide, the scars you have.

Baby let me straighten out your broken bones,

All your faults to me make you more beautiful.

I can't help it,

I love the broken ones,

The ones who,

Need the most patching up.

The ones who've,

Never been loved,

Never been loved,

Never been loved.

And O maybe I see a part of me in them.

The missing piece always trying to fit in.

The shattered heart,

Hungry for a home.

No you're not alone,

I love the broken ones.

You don't have to drive,

With your headlights off.

It's a pocketknife,

Not a gift from god.

Don't you learn of love from the love they kept.

I will be your anchor slowly,

Step by step.

I can't help it,

I love the broken ones,

The ones who,

Need the most patching up.

The ones who've,

Never been loved,

Never been loved,

Never been loved.

And O maybe I see a part of me in them.

The missing piece always trying to fit in.

The shattered heart,

Hungry for a home.

No you're not alone,

I love the broken ones.

Maybe we can rip off the bandage.

Maybe you will see it for what it is.

Maybe we can burn this building,

Holding you in.

I can't help it,

I love the broken ones,

The ones who,

Need the most patching up.

The ones who've,

Never been loved,

Never been loved,

Never been loved.

And O maybe I see a part of me in them.

The missing piece always trying to fit in.

The shattered heart,

Hungry for a home.

No you're not alone,

I love the broken ones.

I love the broken ones.

I love the broken ones.

I love the broken ones.

I know I always complain about how crazy my work is but the actual fact, it is actually not that...bad. On some lucky days, I do get the chance to relax like yesterday. All I need to do was just sit and read those magazines. Easy pissy. But wait a minute...... that was NOT the only thing that I have to do. I have to evaluate them after reading through pages and pages of the magazines - the not-so-fun part!

Anyways, the magazines that I have to vet through were mostly the "high class" ones. From the picture you can see the titles clearly. It contains all the A-list celebrities/socialites and jinx of things that they do for a living or parties that they attended to -  the wonderful life of the rich people.

And it got me thinking.

How fortunate some people are to be born in a "well-established" family. They do not need to work hard to get or earn anything. Money is not a problem to them. In fact, it would be a problem for them to not to spend it. Some may be brought up being so spoiled but some may turn up to be a successful one. 

But some work really hard to reach the same level as them.

I came from an average kind of family. My mother work so hard to make sure that we get a good education. My sister and I, we were never showered with money. Jangan sesekali nak meminta-minta. You have to earn something in order to get something. We went to school taking the public buses. We hardly go holidays together. Kalau nak makan sedap tuh bolehlah sekali sekala but occasionally lah! But Alhamdulillah, rezeki Allah kasi tak pernah putus. My parents were able to send us to a good school for the education that we deserved and I thank them for that - for the strength that my mother has for not giving up on us. And because of that, we are what we are now.

My parents have gone through tough times and it is our job now to change it and Alhamdulillah we are able to do so. To give a better living for our parents. 

I'm so grateful of how I was brought up. Hidup dalam kesederhanaan. I learn how to live life the hard way and it makes me value my surroundings. If it was not because of my mother, I don't think I'll be who I am today.

It's ok not to be rich or have a lot of money to spend. Asalkan hidup bersederhana sudah cukup memadai.

Have a nice weekend everyone!

The thing I'll never forget.

I was sick yesterday and lucky me, husband was on leave too. As I always mention, my husband is a super busy person mengalahkan Prime Minister so we hardly have time for each other. Since I'm on MC yesterday, I took the opportunity to spend some quality time together with the husband. Well, poor Iman has to be left at home with her nanny. Takpelah, sekali sekala apa salahnya.

He accompanied me to the clinic pastu lepak-lepak jap kat kedai mamak minum kopi. And before we reached home, we singgah at another kedai mamak for another round of kopi session. Kami pasangan yang economic. Low-profile gitew!

My point is, it's been awhile since we last ride together. Tak ada kena-mengena dengan cerita di atas. We went lunch again to a kedai mamak but only this time we decided to ride the motorbike instead of driving the car.

Sebenarnya nak cerita pasal memory motorsikal ni tapi mukadamih panjang berjela. This motorbike of my husband has been serving us for almost 7 years now. Motor ni juga lah where he met with an accident that have caused him a broken leg kaki masuk besi semua and still, this motorbike has never disappointed us. Banyak jasa motosikal ni espesially during our Uni years. Motor yang tak seberapa cabuk ni lah yang tolong bawa kami ke sana-sini hantar assignment last minute.

As an art student, we are required to do a lot of assignments be it on a piece of paper or on a large A3 board. Motor nih lah yang tolong bawa the large board of mine to be submitted to the lecturers. And of course I don't do it myself, for 1 and half years, Izwan has been the "victim" to carry my assignments where ever I go.

So yesterday, it reminded me how banyak berjasa this motorbike has done to us. Walaupun sudah menghasilkan banyak bunyi-bunyi yang tidak menarik but I told Izwan to keep it until it can never be used again. It reminds me of our zaman kesusuhan.

Candy...what?????

I can't remember when I started playing this game but sure it is very very addictive. It's like a competition here in my office. Some of them have even completed all levels, some are on the 100++ while I am here stuck at level 89.

Like I said, it's very addictive.

I'm no longer received a "real" facebook notifications except the ones from Candy Crush.

Candy crush and candy crush only.

People have stop communicating due to this game. And they will only communicate when it is time to request for "life".

In fact, if you go to places like kedai mamak, bus-stop, lrt stations, you will see people glued to their phones and play with this game.

Believe it or not, candy crush is the latest-most-influenced-game-innovation that people are really into.

Whoever who creates this game is a genuise. YOU have successfully make people shut their lives and glued to your game not just to past their time but to waste it, like what I'm doing right now.

SHINE

C'mon girls, Lets SHINE and be inspired

Mid-life crisis..Eh, lambat lagi!

I used to love going to work. I used to enjoy my work very much. Sadly, I don't feel the same way anymore. Every morning I drag myself to work. Tuh yang kadang-kadang masuk lambat. Then, pukul 7pm terus cepat-cepat pack barang terus balik. The thought of having to go to work tomorrow (or any other day for that matter) is making me sick. In fact, I am actually down with fever today sampai berjangkit kat Iman or probably I got the sickness from Iman, I don't know. But I really really feel uncomfortable going to work.

Dapat dek tahu boss ni, mampuih den!

Is it a sign that I have to look for another job? But I still have a lot to learn. Ilmu belum penuh di dada untuk meninggalkan agency.

And....I don't want to go to other agency simply because I want to balance my work and life. Boleh berani kerat rambut kat agency lain, I wouldn't get the same kind of work life as per the agency that I'm currently attached with tapi .......

Inilah dinamakan masalah dunia.

Is this normal?

I don't want to be someone who loves to jump one job to another. Macam takde focus. I'm building a career not job titles.

I'm not complaining. I'm just having a minor mid-life crisis right now. Masalah kebanyakkan orang sekeliling.

Enough rambling. I should go to bed now. Goodnight!

Supermom...Not!!!

Being a mother, a career person and a student at the same is never easy. Its becoming even worst now that I'm actually thinking of dropping two of the above and become a full time housewife instead.

I'm exhausted beyond words.

I'm usually the fighter type. I can easily boost up my confident level everytime I feel demotivated. But this time, its different! I can't take it anymore. I'm just too weak to handle everything.

The "bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian" mantra doesn't work anymore. It doesn't work anymore.

I need a hug. *sob*