The one that stays

Life is not about the people who act true in front of your face, but it's about the people who remain true behind your back

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Annual buka puasa with the gang last Saturday was the bomb! Chewah! It wasn't about the food, though we stuffed our tummies with unstoppable in-coming good yummylicious food for berbuka but it was more of the company that was there to enjoy the food with you. Syukur Alhamdulillah for I have been given the opportunity to share my love and life with people that's true to my heart.

First "kick" is the deepest

Like most moms-to-be, every changes that happen are being counted, be it the first kick of the baby, the "enlargement" of the size of the boobs (oh, I can tell you that they can be very heavy too), the back pain that is seriously painful, the size of one's foot that suddenly looks similar to a size of a dinasour's foot and most excitingly is when the doctor shows the baby's heartbeat through the scan on every check-ups. It's amusing!

And I'm no other different from most moms-to-be. Excuse me for I've been writing about my pregnancy coz yea, it's the best feeling ever and Alhamdulillah that I'm able to experience such in the most beautiful way.

I can't really remember when was the exact date, day and time when I first started feeling my baby's movement. For all I know, I've been feeling the uneasiness of my tummy for the longest time. I think most probably between week 17-18. I thought it was the gas in my tummy or something but after consulting with few experienced moms, that gassy feeling was actually the movement of the little person inside me. And oh boy, the movement has been nothing but active especially when I'm riding the train to or from work. He/She would probably feel exciting for sitting in the train from Taman Bahagia to Wangsa Maju or vise versa; that's what I always think. And since Ramadan, in between Sahur and Subuh is when the baby's moving actively. It is its' way of saying Selamat Pagi Ibu and will stop moving right after I'm done with my subuh prayer. Mungkin dia tengah bersolat juga dengan ibunya, mana tahu kan?! He/She gets pretty excited every time I recite the Quran, Alhamdulillah and will only sleep after Izwan plays surah Maryam to him/her. Kalau tak, memang tak berkesempatanlah si ibu untuk tidur malam.

But the size of tummy doesn't do any justice. No one believes that I'm actually 5 months pregnant apa ntah lagi bila kata dah boleh rasa baby's movement. Kakak always says that her tummy is even bigger than I am itu belum lawan dengan perut Izwan lagi. I'm definitely at the bottom three. Yang penting baby sihat, tak gitu?!

Will be having next round of check-up this Saturday and I'm anticipating much!

"Minta Mak Kueh Sepotong, Saya Mahu Makan Kenyang Perut Kosong"

Pejam celik sudah 15 hari Ramadhan, how's Ramadhan so far?! Mine, Alhamdulillah, sudah 4 hari lompang. Can't help it. Been vomitting due to empty stomach and fever I had during the first week of Ramdhan and prior to that, 3 hari harus dilompangkan to make sure that Ibu and baby is all OK! Well, the extra one day tu terpaksa di buka half day because paginya terlajak sahur. I was shivering, shaking & feeling so weak last Saturday I thought it was just the pregnancy symptom that I normally have tapi tiba-tiba teringat ceramah TV ustaz apa ntah cakap kalau bimbangkan kesihatan ibu dan bayi di dalam kandungan diharuskan berbuka. I went straight to the kitchen, made myself a large glass of Anmum milk and toasted 2 slices of bread sapu butter dan ngap! I was still shivering and shaking but after few hours of resting, saya kembali bertenaga sampai boleh redah Bazaar Dato' Keramat dalam hujan lebat mengalahkan orang yang berpuasa. Kesian Izwan jadi mangsa keadaan kami. Takpelah setahun sekali, bukan selalu!

Oh lupa, parents are back. Yey! Itu sahaja.

Oh, cerita tak masuk post title pula. Begini ceritanya. Normally, after 15th day of Ramadhan, most local radio stations will be playing raya songs but unfortunately, this morning on my way to the office, all that I heard were the edited and newly composed songs yang tak ada bunyi lagu raya langsung. I was hoping for the all time favourite raya songs, the ones you hear every year yang enak itu but sadly, they weren't playing it. Hibo hati den! And since I'm all in raya mood today, I spent first half and hour of my morning downloading raya songs and I'm all stuffed with raya songs that's on loop kasi meleleh tahi telinga dengar.

I know we shouldn't be too excited over raya since we are still in the midst of Ramadhan. Our ibadah that counts but sekadar untuk halwa telinga meyambut Syawal, apa salahnya tak? Yes, No? But yeah, I'm all about raya song today.

Jadi, selamat mendengar lagu raya kawan-kawan. Ibadah jangan dilupakan.

Oh footnote tertinggal: I got my kasut raya. Kasut ibu mengandung Izwan dengan baik hati belanja yesterday. It was the first time I'm out to shopping mall since pregnant. I have this stupid allergy with shopping malls during the first trimester. We went to KLCC yesterday dan kasi tawaf the whole building. Kasut down, handbag to go.

Are we really that dumb?

Since I'm pretty much stable now, I take the train to work again. It's the second day this week and it's disappointing to see how we Malaysians are. I have never encountered such incident before till I experienced it myself this morning. Very very disappointing but somehow, I don't have the guts to "tegur" four inconsiderate human beings who were sitting on the train's seat like a dead body with nonfunctional braincells.

There was a pregnant lady standing right in front of them who was being ignored by those four inconsiderate white collar professionals (based on their working attire) and was left standing till KLCC station. She would probably from Wangsa Maju Station or maybe even further since she was already standing when I entered the train which was at Setaiwangsa Station. I was standing right beside her and god, I wish I have the guts the slap their faces. Two of them were pretending to be sleeping while the other two were busy buzzing with their phones. I can totally understand of me standing coz hell yeah, my tummy is not visible enough for people to know that I'm actually pregnant but hey, the lady's tummy is visible enough even a blind man can see the visibility. She has a tummy of a mountain and yet those idiots were blind enough to even notice. Poor lady but luckily, she does not has to stand to long. But still!

It's sad to see educated people acting plain stupid. I mean, I'm judging based on their working attire and the laptop bag that each and everyone of them was holding being selfish towards the people who are in need. C'mon, a pregnant lady is standing in front of you, how can you just ignore her totally?! Where have your brain gone to?! Are you really that dumb? Sad, really sad!

Sepandai-pandai manusia, ada juga bodohnya, tak gitu?!

Ramadan ke-3

How's Ramadan for you so far? Mine, Alhamdulillah, today is the third day for me and I hope I'm able to puasa healthily for the next 26 days but on the sad note, I have yet to perform terawih. It's either I reach home late or break fast at the nearby area with Izwan. Since parents are away for umrah, I'm now the responsible wife cooking for her husband and to make sure that my dad's two healthy-fat-cats are feed with ikan kembung rebus. They eat like a lot. Crazy a lot!

But Alhamdulillah, every day is...so far...manageable. I'm allow to leave the office at 5pm everyday during fasting month. But since I'm working on the other side of the world from where I stay, it takes a longer time for me to reach home. I dare not drive during the hour or ask Izwan to fetch me coz boy, the traffic is madness even DUKE highway was bad last couple of days. I rather take the LRT. At least, I can have my quick 45 mins nap in the train. The last time I checked, I reached home at 6.30pm. It was good enough for me to prepare sambal tumis sotong, daging goreng kunyit and fried instant popias mom got me before she left for Umrah as our first day of berbuka meal. But I got very tired at night I fell asleep as early as 9pm hence why I've not been performing terawih yet. Am still adjusting my time so that Izwan and I can berbuka on time and sempat to terawih.

It's a wonderful experience I must say (and tiring too) for the fact that I'm fasting as a wife this year and actually DO wife's job. All these while, mom has been the responsible chef at home. I cook but boleh kira dengan jari berapa kali. Since mom is away for Umrah, I've been cooking every day and I can say that I actually enjoy cooking. Just that, time does not allow me to do so and being pregnant makes you feel tired easily. Oh speaking of which, everyone in the office are not happy with me fasting. They keep on saying that it might harm the baby. Ahh, they are just being too conscious. As long as I take my vitamins every day and eat sufficient food for berbuka and sahur, I should be ok right?! Hey, I'm not going to force myself fasting the whole month, only when my condition permits but so far Alhamdulillah, baby and Ibu are doing fine. I don't want to make pregnancy as an excuse for me to not to berpuasa. As long as both mommy and baby are healthy and in good condition, I don't see the point of not berpuasa-ing. Being pregnant does not hold me from continuing beribadah, right? But lets see how long I can stand berpuasa. Hopefully till the final day of Ramadan-lah!

Ahh on the happy note, we've bought flight tickets to Alor Star for Raya. Big yeay!

Ok now, back to work. Selamat berpuasa kawan-kawan.