Under Construction

If your partner tells you that he/she loves you for the person you are, well, don't be fooled by the statement. It's bullshit! Nobody loves you for the person you are. Nobody can! Parents are excluded as they are the responsible person for making you; you. You're like their own piece of art, painted on the canvas. The canvas that they've created.

I'm talking about an outsider whom you've invited in to be part of your life. Someone you barely knew and willing to risk the person you once be just to fit in to meet the so called "criteria". If you past the first round that doesn't mean that you've succeeded. Not even for the second or third. There's always changes and amendments that need to be done along the way. By the end of the day, you realized that you've transformed to be someone new. Someone different carrying the same identity card, same old face shape, maybe a little bit changes on your physical features, same shoe size with a different kind of personalities. Whether you like it or not, you are now the new version of YOU.

Then comes the part where you start comparing the previous YOU with the current YOU. When one starts commenting on how much you've changed, you start to question yourself, which one you like better? The new you or the old you.

One may says that you're way much better now compared to the old version of you but one may also says that they like the old you better then the new you.

So what are going to do now?

You can either stay and be the current you or change back to the old version of you. Or maybe you can run though the same process of transforming yourself again and create a new version of you. Three versions altogether. Past, present and future.

My question is, why can't you be someone that you're comfortable with. Someone that fits your own kind of criteria. Someone that makes you the real you. The kind that you like the most.

The reality is, people change because they want to get notice. They change because they want to fit into someone's else life. They change because they want to be liked. They change because they want to prove that they too are as better as others. They change just to fit in.

But is it worth doing? Will you get all the attention that you needed? Will you be as what you've wished for? Is that what you really want? Will that makes you happy for the rest of your life coz whether you like it or not, you are the one who is responsible in leading your own life.

Because at the end of the day, you are actually lying to yourself, not being fair to others and hypocrite is your new best friend.