Tunangan orang.

Last Saturday, my dear friend Nadia got engaged.

Us girls

The pretty Nadia.

Nadia + Sobri

To Nadia and Sobri, Selamat pertunangan. Semoga kalian bertahan merempuhi konon-konon alam "darah manis" untuk jangka masa 5 bulan ini. Take good care of each other. Be patience. There'll be a point where you will given up on your hope. There'll be a point where you feel like canceling your wedding. There'll will be a point where anger and hatred take control of you. Be patience and always, always believe in each other. Banyak-banyak berdoa semoga segalanya berjalan dengan lancar. All the love and joy to the both of you.

Love much,
Me

I thought I was making the right decision

.................but I guess, I'm not!

But I'm juggling. I'm juggling all.

I will survive this.
It's the matter of time.
I will heal this.
Maybe next time.
I will make this up.
But not now,
Not tomorrow,
But when the time right, I'll make it all.

For all I know, I have myself to hold.

Chronicle

1. A boy said Hi!
2. A girl just smile.
3. They became friends instantly.
4. The boy confessed,
5. The girl said "why not?!"
6. Boy met with an accident.
7. Girl got panic.
8. Boy graduated and started his career in the city.
9. Girl was left with another 3 semesters to go.
10. Girl graduated.
11. Boy got promoted.
12. Girl got hooked up with life
13. Boy screwed up
14. They separated
15. Girl suffered - hard!
16. Boy apologized
17. Girl moved on
18. Boy made up.
19. And got back together.
20. Boy proposed
21. Girl said "Yes!" - who would say "No" to a ring?!
22. And now, they are about to get married in 2 weeks.

5 years (6 years in 3 months) and counting. Amin.

Monday oh Isnin!

I'm writing due to the lack of work. Yes darling, you read it right; lack of work. I guess everyone is still in their holiday mood so work can be put aside.

I'm writing coz right now, right now my wisdom tooth is aching and is aching hard. Last month, I experienced the same kind of pain as the left tooth ached. Today, the right tooth decided to show its' talent and started aching. I was supposed to operate both teeth but I'm just out of time to do soo. Well, no that's just an excuse. The fact is, I just love to feel the pain, the headache that I'm going to feel due to the pain, for being unable to open up my mouth coz it hurts so bad and the trouble that I have to go through caused by the pain. I just love the pain. If ever you believe that!

I'm writing coz right now, all that I have in my mind is the video I watched on youtube of a confession from a malay man over his sexuality. Bravo brother for being bold, brave and honest about your sexuality. But I think, the boldness in you is not placed at the right position and no, I'm not going to post the video here. You may need to put some afford to google it yourself.

I have nothing against gay people. I grew up surrounded by them. I went to an all girls school and yes, we have lesbians in our school and I bet at an all boys school, they have it too! I have a friend whom I'm close with who is a gay and he is still my friend eventhough he confessed about his sexuality. He's no alien to me. He is still an understanding friend who I sometimes, sometimes neglected. Boohoo. I'm not in the right position to punish or to judge. I've advised and he has promised that maybe someday, that day will come for him to change. All that I can do is just pray. Pray that someday, he'll change. Dosa pahala dia hanya urusan antara dia dan tuhan. Urusan dia dengan kita adalah urusan sesama manusia. Moga-moga tuhan buka kan hatinya untuk bertaubat. Itu sahaja.

But mister, there's no need to announce publicly on your status. We are no Americano. What will happen to the other gays for your bold confession. They have feelings too. C'mon, we have to face the fact that there are gays here in Malaysia. There are even some who have had a grand wedding just to cover up on their status. Well, that's totally out of my league but yea, they do exist! But the need of publicly announcing your status is inappropriate. After all, we are here living in Malaysia where almost everything is prohibited. You just gotta learn how to play the game by its' rule. That's all!

I'm writing coz I have the sudden missed of my best friend. She's out on a vacation to Korea and I miss her. Gila gay! Mesti dia kembang tak kempis-kempis kalau dia baca. Sungguh tidak sesuai.

Fever, fever go away

...........come again another day!

I'm down with fever for a week now and I don't see its' going away anytime soon. I think miss fever just love "living" in my body beranak-pinak bercucu-cicit.

Orang cakap demam adalah penghapusan dosa-dosa kecil. Harap-harapnya sudah terhapuslah dosa-dosa kecil. Seminggu demam cik, banyak kot dosa kecil yang boleh dihapuskan. Amin.......

Tuhan cakap, jangan minta sakit kalau tak sakit. Nanti Dia kasi sakit betul-betul.

A week ago, I went to the clinic to get an MC for a "day off". I was too tired I couldn't bare it anymore. I just need a day off. I went to the panel clinic and the doctor said that my stress level was high so he gave me a day off. I was a happy bitch that day, went home and sleep. Woke up to get my wedding stuff settle and I went out to meet with ex-colleagues at SAA. It was in deed a very fine day. I got my rest and few things done, so happy-lah!

Few days later, the fever starts crawling in. Sakit kepala, temperature, ulcer bibir pecah, you get the picture don't you?! It drags till today. Still sakit kepala + temperature. Ulcer bibir pecah makin seksi. I didn't get an MC (bila perlu tak nak pulak). I still went to work with a terrible condition and a sloppy face. I sneezed, coughed and hingus meleleh-leleh throughout the whole week. Horrible I tell you.

Pendek kata, PADAN MUKA! Jangan minta sakit kalau tak sakit sebab sakit akan datang bila-bila dia suka.

I just want this fever out from the body, itu sahaja!

To say "Thank you"

There are so many things that I would like to thank for.

God works in the most mysterious ways. Alhamdullilah for His blessing and barakah.


I've been receiving good news for the past couple of weeks; tak putus-putus. Alhamdulillah. At times like these, good news are what I'm praying for and Alhamdulillah, my prayers were answered. I called it as rezeki orang nak kahwin. I guess apa yang orang tua-tua cakap as apabila seseorang itu ingin berumahtangga, rezeki memang datang melimpah ruah is true. Alhmadulillah.

The biggest news I received was about the exam that I sat last month. I know how skanky I sounded back then for having to sit for the exam, how I rejected the idea of sitting for the exam, how excited the parents were knowing that I have to sit for the exam and how much the exam has caused me pain; mind pain. But I still went anyway, halfheartedly.

So yea, they emailed me the results couple of days ago and Alhamdulillah, I passed! But I still need to undergo another 2 more tests which they will notify me later on the dates and whatnot. Pokok pangkalnya nak cakap, don't hate too much coz they might be haunting you back.

I guess there's nothing else for me right now to be worried for. Lets enjoy the remaining 3 weeks with laughter and joy. Afterall, it's the remaining weeks of me being single. Gotta enjoy it to the last sip.

Happy Wednesday lovers, Christmas is just next door.

Poyo bride2be update #7

Dear friends,

Here's the map to the location:-

Click to enlarge

I guess we're 75% ready. Invitation were all sent (for those who have yet to receive, do let me know. I've posted everything on Friday morning and would probably reach your postbox latest by Tuesday if you're in Selangor/Kuala Lumpur area). For those who are staying outside from the area, give it till Friday next week. Kalau masih belum terima cepat-cepatlah mengirimkan khabar. Will definitely serang Pos Malaysia again for the second time.

We received another good news last Wednesday. All praise to Allah, Alhamdulillah. Rezeki last minute tuhan nak kasi. All that one needs to do is be patience. Berdoa dan bertawakal, Insyaallah rezeki ada untuk masing-masing.

Mom's renovated kitchen is 85% completed. Alhamdulillah. I know she's on the rack too when she sees the progression of her kitchen. Takut-takut tak sempat siap and while me on the other hand keep on bragging over her ridiculous decision on renovating the house when clearly the kenduri is just around the corner.

I guess that's all for now. Oh chop! question, what's the purpose of hiring a videographer? Seriously, I want to know. Is it really a must atau hanya untuk suka-suka? Videographer adalah untuk..............? Your help/info will be much appreciated. Tqvm.

Ho! Ho! Ho! Merry Christmas

It's an early celebration for us at OMD. We had a lunch christmas party at WIP, BSC today. So we car-pooled and headed to BSC as early as 12pm. Traffic was terrible due to the heavy rain. It's KL, what's new?!

This is my second plate. Should've have posted my first. Memang dasar nafsu setan.

With Mr. CEO

Emails were circulated to inform that we are to exchange gift for the event couple of weeks ago. Gift must be anything below RM30. I was having hard time deciding on what to buy. So I decided to buy the most common christmas gift. Yes, you guessed it right. To top it up, I got mine on Sale. Jimat duit den! I got a mug in return. A super large mug. Gee, thanks dear Santa/Santarina. You've added my mug collection.

But before that, a task was given by the committee for us the 2010 intake (chewah, macam intake universiti pulak) to decorate the christmas tree.

And as a result, a fugly looking christmas tree decorated by us the 2010 intake.

Ohh, I missed out the good news did I?! The management announced that 24th and 31st of December 2010 are officially our public holiday. Yeay!

Merry Christmas everybody. Am I too early for that?!

This is life

Listen to the sound of this music. There's nothing great about it but it somehow creates peacefulness in me. It's calm, peaceful and happy I shall say especially on the first 55 sec of the commercial. This is the sound that you'll be listening to when you call ASTRO's general line. But of course, without the extra sound from the motion movements.

Tell me what you think. Tell me what you feel.

When it is the time of the month

No, it's not the pay-cheque. That's the other form of when it is the time of the month; that's the happy one my dear friend. But this is the one that can cause so much of headaches especially to the guys whenever their partner is facing such syndrome. Yes, I'm taking about the PMS. What other kind of time of the month can I possibly referring too?! I'm a woman aren't I? And I have a partner who is suffering hard whenever I'm PMS-ing and I can actually see from his eyes that it's torturous. Poor baby but don't blame me for having such syndrome. Kalau tak suka, sorry darling, you won't be having your own generation in the future. So, mana mau?!

Usually a woman will experience such syndrome between 7 to 10 days before menstrual. Ohh, I'm not making up facts ye ladies, it is stated on studies as 80% of women population experience such syndrome. It's our nature for PMS-ing. So don't blame us for acting like one.

The reason I'm writing this is because I've been observing my weird behaviour whenever I'm on that circle of the month and it has been bad, pretty bad actually that Izwan has no choice but to be the victim during this period of time. Poor him. I will talk aggressively as if everything in the world is turning upside down. I will be super sensitive and emotional over things I that see. My psychotic level will automatically increase to an undefined level (super high) and paranoid is my middle name during this period. My suggestion is, do not contact me directly or indirectly unless if it's important. I'll be a psycho bitch that you wish you'd kill.

But once it's over, once the red flag arrive, I'll be switching to the normal me instantly as if there's an auto generated button that works automatically switching the button from being an emotional bitch to the moderate level of psychotic Ajlaa (heh, I'm still a psycho girl in a way but in a nicer way of course).

But according to the [source], it's actually normal to act such way.

Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) is a combination of emotional, physical, psychological, and mood disturbances that occur after a woman's ovulation and typically ending with the onset of her menstrual flow. The most common mood-related symptoms are irritability, depression, crying, oversensitivity, and mood swings with alternating sadness and anger. The most common physical symptoms are fatigue, bloating, breast tenderness (mastalgia), acne, and appetite changes with food cravings.

A more severe form of PMS, known as premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), also known as late luteal phase dysphoric disorder) occurs in a smaller number of women and leads to significant loss of function because of unusually severe symptoms.

So guys, don't ever question why we are having such syndrome. It's not our fault anyway. It's nature. We are born with such package. You have no choice but to deal with it. After all, it is just a week of your time. We'll turn into our normal behaviour once it's over, we promise. It's not that we are intended to hurt you during that time, it's our nature. It's either you deal with or hmmmm, deal with it. No other options.

So, have fun dealing.

5 in the morning

I should.......breathe

Me, Us & Them

My company hosted a two days workshop at Avillion Admiral Cove, Port Dickson on 9 & 10 December 2010. All planners, buyers, General Managers and Finance department must make their presence. No one is exceptional and that is why the training was held during the weekdays as weekdays are working days (everyone has to come to work right?!). Kalau buat during weekends mesti akan ada yang bagi a long list of excuses on why they can't make it to the training. Good thinking!

So off we went on a Thursday morning. Everything went as planned. This is in fact the first time I'm actually in a program that is not on a janji melayu basis. We were scheduled to take off at 8am and arrived tentatively at 11am. We departed as planned and arrived about an hour early. Got our room key, freshen up a bit and off we went to our first session.

The objective was to enlighten on what we have been lacking; team work. We go to work everyday. We do our job as what has been instructed. We fight for things that we thought was right. Though we work on a team but we never really work as a team. We take credit on our own. We start blaming others when things go wrong so on and so forth.

But we never really question ourselves; am I a good employee/boss? Have I benefited others? How good my relationship with my colleagues/boss/team-mates?

So yea, it's good that we are reminded from time to time that we're actually working together as a team, not individually. We have to fix ourselves first before fixing others. And most importantly, we have to start communicating in order to work well with each other.

I didn't get the chance to take lots of photos. Here are just a few of what I have.

The CEO was trying his luck flying his version of an aeroplane.

Top: Building tower with straws.
Bottom: Our hand-made cupboard stylist hat.

Top: OM team with our GM.
Bottom: The whole of OMG (OMD + PHD)

Apart from the fun time I had, there was a slight mis-communication between the committee and the bus service company. The had forgotten to remind the bus drivers to pick us up at 3.30pm as scheduled but instead they've agreed to the time arrangement of picking us up at 7.30pm. Gila mengamuk semua orang. But the drivers managed to arrive at 5.30pm and we arrived KL safe and sound about 2 hours later. Knowing the traffic on a Friday night memang ma-fan.

Poyo bride2be update #6

I came home one evening and found this cute little thing lingered around the middle hall. Mak was so excited she just can't wait till I settle down and immediately shown the cute little thing to me. I was still with my bag on and my shoes were not even off after reaching home from work. As excited as she was, I am too!

It's called corsage but I think it has been mistakenly used by most bride-to-be(s). Corsage is known to be as a gift from a person to his/her partner and usually presented during a dance event/prom. But for weddings, it is the thing that family members tuck on the side of their clothes as to show that they are the family members or the person in charge for the wedding. But I still don't get it why it is called corsage.

So anyways, this cute little thing will be used among family members during the reception. Mak saw it at Semua House and it's very cheap too. She can't resisted it and bought it immediately. In a way, it saves up a lot of my time since I thought of diy-ing myself but since the thing is way cheaper than the cost of me diy-ing the corsage, I say why not?!



Cute kan?! *Cakap cute jugak walaupun tak cute*

All I need to do now is to figure out how to put a two ringgit note at it so that it will look presentable and does not kill the cuteness.

On the other note, mom has come up with a brilliant idea to renovate the kitchen where I'm about to get married in one month time. The house is officially in a mess and Uncle Yap the contractor is scheduled to start his constructing tomorrow. I don't know where on earth does she gets the idea of renovating the kitchen now where she clearly knows that we are having the kenduri at home in a month time. Uncle Yap has promised her that the kitchen will be ready in a week time. Can you even believe that? I don't think so.


This is how the middle hall looks like. You should see how it is now, it's even worst.

Perlukan kesabaran yang super tinggi. Breath in, breath out. Breath in, breath out.

Tahun baru

I hope it is still not too late to wish all muslim Salam Maal Hijrah. May this new year bring happiness and fill with His barakah and rahmah, Insyaallah.

I guess it's about time for me to "renew" my new year's resolutions. Not that I have over the past years but it's going to be a hell of a new year for me this year. Am not going to set a long list of resolutions as I may not follow, I rather set a few that I can cope with.

So, here it goes:-

1. Solat 5 waktu - I know I've been lacking some especially during working hours. I got caught up with work I tend to delay my solat and ended not performing them.
2. It's about time to hormat suami - Since I'm going to be a wife this year, Insyaallah, I guess menghormati suami is part of the responsibility. I may need time to adjust with this but I'm going to try the best I can. Dah 25 tahun hidup buat kepala tau sendiri, tiba-tiba dah nak kena hidup berdua, yea, I definitely need time.
3. To be more patience as I'm lacking of those.
   
4. And last but not least, to be a good muslimah generally.

I guess that's about it. Let's see how it goes as I know that I'm going to have hard time coping with it.

Ohh btw, I have no idea that today is actually a public holiday, not till everyone has been asking me what's my plan for Tuesday and I was like "haaa, kenapa dengan tuesday? kerja lah". Then only I knew that Tuesday is a public holiday.

On the other hand, I got my baju nikah yesterday and I must say that I'm totally in love with the baju. Super love. As much as I want to post about it, I rather keep it to myself. Nanti hilang lah seri baju tu kalau tunjuk sekarang. Tak surprise lah nanti. Excited*excited

According to the ticker

It's 1 Month, 1 week & 1 Day more to go..

Saja nak mem-poyo-kan diri di sini. Cantik nombor ni, boleh dijadikan sebagai nombor ekor kepada sesiapa yang berminat.

To Say I Do

Ok now back to work.

Wake me up when December ends

It's the fifth day of December, already?! What happen to January? It feels as if it was just yesterday where I got engaged and we are now nearly at the end of 2010.

A lot has happened in 2010. A fair share of ups and downs. But I must say that 2010 is really an eye-opener year for me. Though we are not officially there yet, I mean the end of 2010, but I must say that 2010 has been a very good year. A year where I've successfully transformed my inner self to be someone better. Kurang keras kepala dan lebih penyabar berbanding biasa kerana saya adalah seorang manusia yang langsung tiada tahap kesabaran di dalam diri. Most importantly, 2010 has been a recovery year for me as to compare to 2009. And I'm here, ready to wrap up 2010 with a huge happy smile on my face and welcoming 2011 with open arms. Super sexcited for 2011! *gelak setan style*

I've been pretty occupied with work lately. Work has been piling up high since.....since forever. Hence, the lacking of blog updating. And I've also been pretty excited over card delivery. Delivering invitation card makes me...hmm happy. Tinggal nak beli setem untuk yang harus di hantar menggunakan post. Itu yang masih tidak tahu, ye saya seboleh-boleh mahu meng-delivery sendiri kad kahwin saya kerana lebih mesra begitu padahal kedekut nak bayar setem sebab Pos Malaysia macam tuuut.

I've been having weird dreams for couple of days now. Most of them involving me and Penang. Mungkin rindu Penang kot, tapi ape hal?? About a year ago, me and the girlfriends, we have had the plan of visiting Penang again this year and have our night spend in Hard Rock Penang. Tapi bak kata melayu, kita merancang tapi tuhan yang menentukan. Berangan harus lebih. But I kept on dreaming over Penang. Pelik bin ajaib.

My future sister-in-law will be registering to UiTM by end of this month for her degree program tapi saya pulak yang excited lebih. Thought of following Izwan to send her sister sebab...hmmm malu nak cakap tapi saya sebenarnya tak pernah terfikir pon nak menjejakkan kaki di UiTM Shah Alam. Dah alang-alang kepalang, apa salahnya.

I guess that's all for tonight. Sweet dream lovers.