I was already half asleep when my phone buzz-ed none stop like a mad cow yesterday night. It was already half past one in the morning and the phone just won't stop buzzing. This is the price one has to pay for using a Blackberry phone and I'm starting to hate mine. Lagi bagus kalau phone tanpa warna masih wujud lagi di rumah. I'd have use it still.
And as a result, I was freshly awake the whole night/morning and fall back to sleep hours later which was not good coz I ended up waking up with disappointment (for being unable to sleep and have a good night sleep) this morning.
Maka dengan itu, berfikiranlah saya semasa berada di dalam keadaan yang penuh segar-bugar itu. Yelah, mana taknya, dah kata tak boleh tidur. Jadi fikiran pun mulalah melayang-layang sampai ke Antartika.
I went out with Izwan later that afternoon to look for his ring. You see, Muslim men can't wear any kind of gold or white gold as an accessories. With that, if one is in need of wearing accessories, they can only wear platinum with 0% of gold or Suasa. You know-lah how expensive platinum ring can be. Boleh gugur bulu kaki melihat harganya. And it left us with no choice but to look for one. We went to GoldHeart to look for his ring. Lucky for us, we found the ring which he loves so much (bukan senang nak tengok Izwan suka sesuatu benda tuh) within our budget. Takda lah tergugur bulu kaki melihatnya. Fortunate for me, Izwan is not that type of person who wants diamond on his ring. Just a simple clean cut band will do. Maka, tidak gugur kuasa dua bulu kakinya. We may need to go back to the jeweler since there's no size that can fit Izwan's finger. Kesimpulannya, lagi 2 bulan baru cincin dia siap dengan harga yang sungguh berpatutan.
And it got me thinking.
How much one needs to spend just to prepare for one's wedding day. Dengan hantarannya, wang hantarannya (yang dah tentu-tentu ber-K'-K' jumlahnya. Bayar itu ini. Pening kepala itu ini. The fight one has to face with the immediate family. The miss-communication between the immediate family and the in-laws to be. Baju. Kenduri and whatnots only to know that the marriage that one is trying to hold on to only last for a year or two. Minta simpang tapi that's the reality that we are facing nowadays. I'm not saying that all marriages end up with a failure one but tengok saja lah. Bercerai sana sini dalam surat khabar. It scares me to death.
I spent a lot on this wedding. Ini baru preparation-nya saja. Belum lagi yang untuk rumahtangga. Tanggungjawab suami-isteri. You see, I'm that type of person who thinks a lot. Like a lot, LOT! That's why kadang-kadang benda-benda yang tak sepatutnya difikirkan pun difikirkan juga. Maka terfikirlah benda-benda mengarut ni.
Susah payah yang dilalui hanyalah sia-sia jika tidak berjaya untuk dipertahankan.
All these, all these kesusahpayahan were linked to the conversation I had with Izwan on our way to Mid Valley. I don't really quite remember what we were talking about but it came to a conclusion that we did not understand the meaning to our responses to each other. Lain yang di cakap, lain yang difahamkan. Sebab itu selalu miss-communication between us two. Tak faham maksud.
After 5 years. After 5 years of knowing/being with each other, we still experiencing this so called communication breakdown. Jadi, macam mana nanti bila dah kahwin tak kan nak ada communication problem lagi?!
Adakah berbaloi segala kesusahpayahan itu nanti?
I wouldn't know. I'm not there yet? But I hope and I pray that all these hardship that I have to go through in the name of preparing for a wedding worth all the sweat. Amin
No comments:
Post a Comment