Congratulations, you just won.........

......the first prize of officially becoming a Bridezilla. Bukan takat bridezilla tetapi lebih daripada itu, Godzilla atau segala -zilla yang ada.

*Stress*

Ever since the acknowledgment of the remaining days left till my wedding day, I have been nothing but a worried bitch. My heart pumped faster than ever as if I was running on a track reaching for the finishing line. I wasn't able to sleep at night which is very crucial coz I haven't been sleeping well for the past 4 nights. Baru mata nak lelap dah terjaga and ended up being grumpy in the morning. Itu sangat tak bagus. It's depressing. It is, really!

The word P.S.Y.C.H.O. is written nicely on my forehead. I need to scrub the word off pronto! Else, I'll be reaching Tanjung Rambutan anytime soon which is not good for the resume. Heh, takde kena-mengena! Argh! I hate this feeling. The feeling of insecurities. The feeling of killing yourself. The feeling of unable to speak. The feeling of running away.

*Tired*

Is this normal? Coz I don't think it is. I think it's crazy! I think all bride-to-be(s) should go for one last medical check-up before their wedding day. I know I am coz I think one of my wire has gone missing. Better still, all wires are gone and I am officially disfunctional. I'm a retard, yes I am! Ok, I'm crapping.

Lets do the check listing ye ladies and gentlemen:-

• Baju nikah : 60% ready
• Need more money
• Baju for reception : tunggu designer balik haji
• Need more money
• Reception on his side : Next week balik Kedah
• Need more money
• Melawati reception : Confirmed all the needs and wants, paid deposit
• Need more money
  
• Wedding Card : Out for printing over the weekend
• Need more money
• Hantarans : Tinggal untuk di decorate
• Need more money
• Homestay for the FILs side to stay : checked
• Need more money

So there you go! The updated check list of things to do before the wedding day. I'm tired. Exhausted. Seriously I am. I just pray that the remaining 90 days will past as quickly as it can coz I can foresee the breaking down of me anytime soon. I need a break. From work and all these wedding preparation crap. From work sebenarnya. Work is depressing. But I need the money though *sigh*.

Lets go cuti-cuti before masuk kerja baru. Anyone?!

I need money help!