Hello Semester 3

I actually wanted to post about my Sydney trip. I even drafted the points and put aside the relevant photos for it but after receiving a text message from one of my lecturer, I did a quick check on my September to November schedules to allow the small project that I will be doing Insha Allah. After included all my assignment deadlines and checking on the coming client's meeting schedule, I started to feel uneasy and worried over the coming few months. It is going to be another stressful months for me.

So yes, the 3rd semester is here and it is on the 3rd week already and I don't feel good about it. The confident level that I have for this semester is definitely at its lowest - at the negative point if I must say. I pointed out my worries to my husband that maybe... maybe I should just stop with this program. But of course, the reply I received doesn't permits me to do so. 

Work - well, it is going to be a busy week for me. Seriously, I really don't have the heart to do this anymore. As much as I love my work and the company that I work with but it has stopped in driving the excitement in me or probably, this is just another bad phase in my life. "This too shall pass" - I hope so!

My current emo-con except that Iman is not as big as the boy and I don't have a small baby to carry on my shoulder but you get the idea right? Juggling all at the same time is tiring... How I wish I can just be a stay home mom. Sigh!

I believe you must be wondering, after all of the complaining (yes, this is me complaining) why on earth am I still here blogging? Well, one of my definitely-won't-work wish is to be a full time blogger. Konon nya! So that I will be able to stay at home and just blog. Hey, don't be surprised that there are a lot of working mothers who quit their job and be a full time blogger. And not just any blogger, there are some who are paid to blog. In a way, they earn money by just writing a post on their blog. 

But of course, to be like them needs courage and determination. Ini posting pon ntah apa-apa punya topic ada hati nak jadi full time blogger. No of daily pageview visits pon seciput ada hati pulak tuh. 

But then again, blogging gives me the opportunity to improve my writing skills as well as to firm up my grammar. Let's face it, my English is as bad as a kindergarten kid (I bet theirs is better than mine) and this is just a way to improve them. After all, I can always set the date of my posting to when it is published. I write 2/3 posts over the weekend and set them to be published on a different day of the week. Senang cerita.

So yea, back to the main objective. This coming 3 months will be a stressful one for me. Seriously, I don't think I can manage them all considering the fact that all papers I registered for this semester require high % on the exam portion and knowing me, I don't study for exams. It will be madness!

Praying hard that I can do this. Bismillah.