Friday, December 31, 2010

Tunangan orang.

Last Saturday, my dear friend Nadia got engaged.


Us girls

The pretty Nadia.

Nadia + Sobri


To Nadia and Sobri, Selamat pertunangan. Semoga kalian bertahan merempuhi konon-konon alam "darah manis" untuk jangka masa 5 bulan ini. Take good care of each other. Be patience. There'll be a point where you will given up on your hope. There'll be a point where you feel like canceling your wedding. There'll will be a point where anger and hatred take control of you. Be patience and always, always believe in each other. Banyak-banyak berdoa semoga segalanya berjalan dengan lancar. All the love and joy to the both of you.

Love much,
Me

Thursday, December 30, 2010

I thought I was making the right decision

.................but I guess, I'm not!

But I'm juggling. I'm juggling all.

I will survive this.
It's the matter of time.
I will heal this.
Maybe next time.
I will make this up.
But not now,
Not tomorrow,
But when the time right, I'll make it all.

For all I know, I have myself to hold.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Chronicle

  1. A boy said Hi!
  2. A girl just smile.
  3. They became friends instantly.
  4. The boy confessed,
  5. The girl said "why not?!"
  6. Boy met with an accident.
  7. Girl got panic.
  8. Boy graduated and started his career in the city.
  9. Girl was left with another 3 semesters to go.
  10. Girl graduated.
  11. Boy got promoted.
  12. Girl got hooked up with life
  13. Boy screwed up
  14. They separated
  15. Girl suffered - hard!
  16. Boy apologized
  17. Girl moved on
  18. Boy made up.
  19. And got back together.
  20. Boy proposed
  21. Girl said "Yes!" - who would say "No" to a ring?!
  22. And now, they are about to get married in 2 weeks.

5 years (6 years in 3 months) and counting. Amin.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Monday oh Isnin!

I'm writing due to the lack of work. Yes darling, you read it right; lack of work. I guess everyone is still in their holiday mood so work can be put aside.


I'm writing coz right now, right now my wisdom tooth is aching and is aching hard. Last month, I experienced the same kind of pain as the left tooth ached. Today, the right tooth decided to show its' talent and started aching. I was supposed to operate both teeth but I'm just out of time to do soo. Well, no that's just an excuse. The fact is, I just love to feel the pain, the headache that I'm going to feel due to the pain, for being unable to open up my mouth coz it hurts so bad and the trouble that I have to go through caused by the pain. I just love the pain. If ever you believe that!


I'm writing coz right now, all that I have in my mind is the video I watched on youtube of a confession from a malay man over his sexuality. Bravo brother for being bold, brave and honest about your sexuality. But I think, the boldness in you is not placed at the right position and no, I'm not going to post the video here. You may need to put some afford to google it yourself.


I have nothing against gay people. I grew up surrounded by them. I went to an all girls school and yes, we have lesbians in our school and I bet at an all boys school, they have it too! I have a friend whom I'm close with who is a gay and he is still my friend eventhough he confessed about his sexuality. He's no alien to me. He is still an understanding friend who I sometimes, sometimes neglected. Boohoo. I'm not in the right position to punish or to judge. I've advised and he has promised that maybe someday, that day will come for him to change. All that I can do is just pray. Pray that someday, he'll change. Dosa pahala dia hanya urusan antara dia dan tuhan. Urusan dia dengan kita adalah urusan sesama manusia. Moga-moga tuhan buka kan hatinya untuk bertaubat. Itu sahaja.


But mister, there's no need to announce publicly on your status. We are no Americano. What will happen to the other gays for your bold confession. They have feelings too. C'mon, we have to face the fact that there are gays here in Malaysia. There are even some who have had a grand wedding just to cover up on their status. Well, that's totally out of my league but yea, they do exist! But the need of publicly announcing your status is inappropriate. After all, we are here living in Malaysia where almost everything is prohibited. You just gotta learn how to play the game by its' rule. That's all!


I'm writing coz I have the sudden missed of my best friend. She's out on a vacation to Korea and I miss her. Gila gay! Mesti dia kembang tak kempis-kempis kalau dia baca. Sungguh tidak sesuai.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Fever, fever go away

...........come again another day!

I'm down with fever for a week now and I don't see its' going away anytime soon. I think miss fever just love "living" in my body beranak-pinak bercucu-cicit.

Orang cakap demam adalah penghapusan dosa-dosa kecil. Harap-harapnya sudah terhapuslah dosa-dosa kecil. Seminggu demam cik, banyak kot dosa kecil yang boleh dihapuskan. Amin.......

Tuhan cakap, jangan minta sakit kalau tak sakit. Nanti Dia kasi sakit betul-betul.

A week ago, I went to the clinic to get an MC for a "day off". I was too tired I couldn't bare it anymore. I just need a day off. I went to the panel clinic and the doctor said that my stress level was high so he gave me a day off. I was a happy bitch that day, went home and sleep. Woke up to get my wedding stuff settle and I went out to meet with ex-colleagues at SAA. It was in deed a very fine day. I got my rest and few things done, so happy-lah!

Few days later, the fever starts crawling in. Sakit kepala, temperature, ulcer bibir pecah, you get the picture don't you?! It drags till today. Still sakit kepala + temperature. Ulcer bibir pecah makin seksi. I didn't get an MC (bila perlu tak nak pulak). I still went to work with a terrible condition and a sloppy face. I sneezed, coughed and hingus meleleh-leleh throughout the whole week. Horrible I tell you.

Pendek kata, PADAN MUKA! Jangan minta sakit kalau tak sakit sebab sakit akan datang bila-bila dia suka.

I just want this fever out from the body, itu sahaja!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

To say "Thank you"

There are so many things that I would like to thank for.

God works in the most mysterious ways. Alhamdullilah for His blessing and barakah.


I've been receiving good news for the past couple of weeks; tak putus-putus. Alhamdulillah. At times like these, good news are what I'm praying for and Alhamdulillah, my prayers were answered. I called it as rezeki orang nak kahwin. I guess apa yang orang tua-tua cakap as apabila seseorang itu ingin berumahtangga, rezeki memang datang melimpah ruah is true. Alhmadulillah.

The biggest news I received was about the exam that I sat last month. I know how skanky I sounded back then for having to sit for the exam, how I rejected the idea of sitting for the exam, how excited the parents were knowing that I have to sit for the exam and how much the exam has caused me pain; mind pain. But I still went anyway, halfheartedly.

So yea, they emailed me the results couple of days ago and Alhamdulillah, I passed! But I still need to undergo another 2 more tests which they will notify me later on the dates and whatnot. Pokok pangkalnya nak cakap, don't hate too much coz they might be haunting you back.

I guess there's nothing else for me right now to be worried for. Lets enjoy the remaining 3 weeks with laughter and joy. Afterall, it's the remaining weeks of me being single. Gotta enjoy it to the last sip.

Happy Wednesday lovers, Christmas is just next door.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Poyo bride2be update #7

Dear friends,

Here's the map to the location:-


Click to enlarge

I guess we're 75% ready. Invitation were all sent (for those who have yet to receive, do let me know. I've posted everything on Friday morning and would probably reach your postbox latest by Tuesday if you're in Selangor/Kuala Lumpur area). For those who are staying outside from the area, give it till Friday next week. Kalau masih belum terima cepat-cepatlah mengirimkan khabar. Will definitely serang Pos Malaysia again for the second time.

We received another good news last Wednesday. All praise to Allah, Alhamdulillah. Rezeki last minute tuhan nak kasi. All that one needs to do is be patience. Berdoa dan bertawakal, Insyaallah rezeki ada untuk masing-masing.

Mom's renovated kitchen is 85% completed. Alhamdulillah. I know she's on the rack too when she sees the progression of her kitchen. Takut-takut tak sempat siap and while me on the other hand keep on bragging over her ridiculous decision on renovating the house when clearly the kenduri is just around the corner.

I guess that's all for now. Oh chop! question, what's the purpose of hiring a videographer? Seriously, I want to know. Is it really a must atau hanya untuk suka-suka? Videographer adalah untuk..............? Your help/info will be much appreciated. Tqvm.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Ho! Ho! Ho! Merry Christmas

It's an early celebration for us at OMD. We had a lunch christmas party at WIP, BSC today. So we car-pooled and headed to BSC as early as 12pm. Traffic was terrible due to the heavy rain. It's KL, what's new?!


This is my second plate. Should've have posted my first. Memang dasar nafsu setan.


With Mr. CEO

Emails were circulated to inform that we are to exchange gift for the event couple of weeks ago. Gift must be anything below RM30. I was having hard time deciding on what to buy. So I decided to buy the most common christmas gift. Yes, you guessed it right. To top it up, I got mine on Sale. Jimat duit den! I got a mug in return. A super large mug. Gee, thanks dear Santa/Santarina. You've added my mug collection.

But before that, a task was given by the committee for us the 2010 intake (chewah, macam intake universiti pulak) to decorate the christmas tree.


And as a result, a fugly looking christmas tree decorated by us the 2010 intake.

Ohh, I missed out the good news did I?! The management announced that 24th and 31st of December 2010 are officially our public holiday. Yeay!

Merry Christmas everybody. Am I too early for that?!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

This is life

Listen to the sound of this music. There's nothing great about it but it somehow creates peacefulness in me. It's calm, peaceful and happy I shall say especially on the first 55 sec of the commercial. This is the sound that you'll be listening to when you call ASTRO's general line. But of course, without the extra sound from the motion movements.





Tell me what you think. Tell me what you feel.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

When it is the time of the month

No, it's not the pay-cheque. That's the other form of when it is the time of the month; that's the happy one my dear friend. But this is the one that can cause so much of headaches especially to the guys whenever their partner is facing such syndrome. Yes, I'm taking about the PMS. What other kind of time of the month can I possibly referring too?! I'm a woman aren't I? And I have a partner who is suffering hard whenever I'm PMS-ing and I can actually see from his eyes that it's torturous. Poor baby but don't blame me for having such syndrome. Kalau tak suka, sorry darling, you won't be having your own generation in the future. So, mana mau?!

Usually a woman will experience such syndrome between 7 to 10 days before menstrual. Ohh, I'm not making up facts ye ladies, it is stated on studies as 80% of women population experience such syndrome. It's our nature for PMS-ing. So don't blame us for acting like one.

The reason I'm writing this is because I've been observing my weird behaviour whenever I'm on that circle of the month and it has been bad, pretty bad actually that Izwan has no choice but to be the victim during this period of time. Poor him. I will talk aggressively as if everything in the world is turning upside down. I will be super sensitive and emotional over things I that see. My psychotic level will automatically increase to an undefined level (super high) and paranoid is my middle name during this period. My suggestion is, do not contact me directly or indirectly unless if it's important. I'll be a psycho bitch that you wish you'd kill.

But once it's over, once the red flag arrive, I'll be switching to the normal me instantly as if there's an auto generated button that works automatically switching the button from being an emotional bitch to the moderate level of psychotic Ajlaa (heh, I'm still a psycho girl in a way but in a nicer way of course).

But according to the [source], it's actually normal to act such way.

Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) is a combination of emotional, physical, psychological, and mood disturbances that occur after a woman's ovulation and typically ending with the onset of her menstrual flow. The most common mood-related symptoms are irritability, depression, crying, oversensitivity, and mood swings with alternating sadness and anger. The most common physical symptoms are fatigue, bloating, breast tenderness (mastalgia), acne, and appetite changes with food cravings.

A more severe form of PMS, known as premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), also known as late luteal phase dysphoric disorder) occurs in a smaller number of women and leads to significant loss of function because of unusually severe symptoms.

So guys, don't ever question why we are having such syndrome. It's not our fault anyway. It's nature. We are born with such package. You have no choice but to deal with it. After all, it is just a week of your time. We'll turn into our normal behaviour once it's over, we promise. It's not that we are intended to hurt you during that time, it's our nature. It's either you deal with or hmmmm, deal with it. No other options.

So, have fun dealing.

5 in the morning





I should.......breathe

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Me, Us & Them

My company hosted a two days workshop at Avillion Admiral Cove, Port Dickson on 9 & 10 December 2010. All planners, buyers, General Managers and Finance department must make their presence. No one is exceptional and that is why the training was held during the weekdays as weekdays are working days (everyone has to come to work right?!). Kalau buat during weekends mesti akan ada yang bagi a long list of excuses on why they can't make it to the training. Good thinking!


So off we went on a Thursday morning. Everything went as planned. This is in fact the first time I'm actually in a program that is not on a janji melayu basis. We were scheduled to take off at 8am and arrived tentatively at 11am. We departed as planned and arrived about an hour early. Got our room key, freshen up a bit and off we went to our first session.

The objective was to enlighten on what we have been lacking; team work. We go to work everyday. We do our job as what has been instructed. We fight for things that we thought was right. Though we work on a team but we never really work as a team. We take credit on our own. We start blaming others when things go wrong so on and so forth.

But we never really question ourselves; am I a good employee/boss? Have I benefited others? How good my relationship with my colleagues/boss/team-mates?

So yea, it's good that we are reminded from time to time that we're actually working together as a team, not individually. We have to fix ourselves first before fixing others. And most importantly, we have to start communicating in order to work well with each other.

I didn't get the chance to take lots of photos. Here are just a few of what I have.


The CEO was trying his luck flying his version of an aeroplane.



Top: Building tower with straws.
Bottom: Our hand-made cupboard stylist hat.





Top: OM team with our GM.
Bottom: The whole of OMG (OMD + PHD)



Apart from the fun time I had, there was a slight mis-communication between the committee and the bus service company. The had forgotten to remind the bus drivers to pick us up at 3.30pm as scheduled but instead they've agreed to the time arrangement of picking us up at 7.30pm. Gila mengamuk semua orang. But the drivers managed to arrive at 5.30pm and we arrived KL safe and sound about 2 hours later. Knowing the traffic on a Friday night memang ma-fan.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Poyo bride2be update #6

I came home one evening and found this cute little thing lingered around the middle hall. Mak was so excited she just can't wait till I settle down and immediately shown the cute little thing to me. I was still with my bag on and my shoes were not even off after reaching home from work. As excited as she was, I am too!

It's called corsage but I think it has been mistakenly used by most bride-to-be(s). Corsage is known to be as a gift from a person to his/her partner and usually presented during a dance event/prom. But for weddings, it is the thing that family members tuck on the side of their clothes as to show that they are the family members or the person in charge for the wedding. But I still don't get it why it is called corsage.

So anyways, this cute little thing will be used among family members during the reception. Mak saw it at Semua House and it's very cheap too. She can't resisted it and bought it immediately. In a way, it saves up a lot of my time since I thought of diy-ing myself but since the thing is way cheaper than the cost of me diy-ing the corsage, I say why not?!



Cute kan?! *Cakap cute jugak walaupun tak cute*

All I need to do now is to figure out how to put a two ringgit note at it so that it will look presentable and does not kill the cuteness.

On the other note, mom has come up with a brilliant idea to renovate the kitchen where I'm about to get married in one month time. The house is officially in a mess and Uncle Yap the contractor is scheduled to start his constructing tomorrow. I don't know where on earth does she gets the idea of renovating the kitchen now where she clearly knows that we are having the kenduri at home in a month time. Uncle Yap has promised her that the kitchen will be ready in a week time. Can you even believe that? I don't think so.


This is how the middle hall looks like. You should see how it is now, it's even worst.

Perlukan kesabaran yang super tinggi. Breath in, breath out. Breath in, breath out.

Tahun baru

I hope it is still not too late to wish all muslim Salam Maal Hijrah. May this new year bring happiness and fill with His barakah and rahmah, Insyaallah.

I guess it's about time for me to "renew" my new year's resolutions. Not that I have over the past years but it's going to be a hell of a new year for me this year. Am not going to set a long list of resolutions as I may not follow, I rather set a few that I can cope with.

So, here it goes:-
  1. Solat 5 waktu - I know I've been lacking some especially during working hours. I got caught up with work I tend to delay my solat and ended not performing them.
  2. It's about time to hormat suami - Since I'm going to be a wife this year, Insyaallah, I guess menghormati suami is part of the responsibility. I may need time to adjust with this but I'm going to try the best I can. Dah 25 tahun hidup buat kepala tau sendiri, tiba-tiba dah nak kena hidup berdua, yea, I definitely need time.
  3. To be more patience as I'm lacking of those.
  4. And last but not least, to be a good muslimah generally.

I guess that's about it. Let's see how it goes as I know that I'm going to have hard time coping with it.

Ohh btw, I have no idea that today is actually a public holiday, not till everyone has been asking me what's my plan for Tuesday and I was like "haaa, kenapa dengan tuesday? kerja lah". Then only I knew that Tuesday is a public holiday.

On the other hand, I got my baju nikah yesterday and I must say that I'm totally in love with the baju. Super love. As much as I want to post about it, I rather keep it to myself. Nanti hilang lah seri baju tu kalau tunjuk sekarang. Tak surprise lah nanti. Excited*excited

Monday, December 6, 2010

According to the ticker

It's 1 Month, 1 week & 1 Day more to go..

Saja nak mem-poyo-kan diri di sini. Cantik nombor ni, boleh dijadikan sebagai nombor ekor kepada sesiapa yang berminat.



To Say I Do
Daisypath Wedding tickers




Ok now back to work.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Wake me up when December ends

It's the fifth day of December, already?! What happen to January? It feels as if it was just yesterday where I got engaged and we are now nearly at the end of 2010.

A lot has happened in 2010. A fair share of ups and downs. But I must say that 2010 is really an eye-opener year for me. Though we are not officially there yet, I mean the end of 2010, but I must say that 2010 has been a very good year. A year where I've successfully transformed my inner self to be someone better. Kurang keras kepala dan lebih penyabar berbanding biasa kerana saya adalah seorang manusia yang langsung tiada tahap kesabaran di dalam diri. Most importantly, 2010 has been a recovery year for me as to compare to 2009. And I'm here, ready to wrap up 2010 with a huge happy smile on my face and welcoming 2011 with open arms. Super sexcited for 2011! *gelak setan style*

I've been pretty occupied with work lately. Work has been piling up high since.....since forever. Hence, the lacking of blog updating. And I've also been pretty excited over card delivery. Delivering invitation card makes me...hmm happy. Tinggal nak beli setem untuk yang harus di hantar menggunakan post. Itu yang masih tidak tahu, ye saya seboleh-boleh mahu meng-delivery sendiri kad kahwin saya kerana lebih mesra begitu padahal kedekut nak bayar setem sebab Pos Malaysia macam tuuut.

I've been having weird dreams for couple of days now. Most of them involving me and Penang. Mungkin rindu Penang kot, tapi ape hal?? About a year ago, me and the girlfriends, we have had the plan of visiting Penang again this year and have our night spend in Hard Rock Penang. Tapi bak kata melayu, kita merancang tapi tuhan yang menentukan. Berangan harus lebih. But I kept on dreaming over Penang. Pelik bin ajaib.

My future sister-in-law will be registering to UiTM by end of this month for her degree program tapi saya pulak yang excited lebih. Thought of following Izwan to send her sister sebab...hmmm malu nak cakap tapi saya sebenarnya tak pernah terfikir pon nak menjejakkan kaki di UiTM Shah Alam. Dah alang-alang kepalang, apa salahnya.

I guess that's all for tonight. Sweet dream lovers.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

I'm kodi this way.


As much as I hate my wedding preparation, I still want to marry that guy in the picture. Kalau boleh, secepat yang mungkin *teeheeee*

Friends and family have been asking me why him, why Izwan? How do I know that he's the one, the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with? All sorts of questions. My answer usually goes "I don't know" but with a smile on my face. Frankly, I seriously don't know why I choose him.

He's the first to be called as my boyfriend. I've never had one before him. Not even during schooling years. Teman tapi mesra tuh berlambak lah but I've never got myself involved with relationship. For the record, I'm not the type of person who beliefs in love. Not till I met him five and a half years ago (six years in March). I know that sounds pretty weird. I've always had this kind of attitude who believe that woman can live independently without a man by their side and that we can live without love and boys, they suck big time. When ever there's someone trying their luck to approach me, I'll make sure with all the powers in hand to make the guy's life miserable. I just don't have the heart for relationship. Technically, I don't have anyone to compare with to ensure whether I'm picking the right one.

So why Izwan? Seriously, I don't know.

He's not the type of guy who give flowers or chocolates to their girlfriend or any of that matter. He's not a romantic type of person. He can't even remembers my birthday or any important dates relating to us inikan pula nak kasi bunga. But once he did, you'll be melting like an ice-cream on a sunny day because it is so spontaneous of him to give it out of the blue unexpectedly. And when it happens, I'm sure gonna go ohh la la for at least a week or two and the feeling is indescribable although it is just a small box of chocolate.

He's the only one who has the balls to break my heart into million of pieces and fix them back into a beautiful one. He's also the one who make me cry myself to sleep and shed the tears to make sure that everything will be fine again. He make my life like a living hell and turn them into a beautiful, beautiful garden that is filled with love and care. He can be a pain in the ass sometimes but also a super, super generous on the other. In term of understanding, well, that's so not his specialty coz I'm not too. We often have communication breakdown especially when it comes to making decisions. Sungguhlah tiada kesepakatan but we managed to overcome the situation by just being ourselves.

But most importantly, he has been the one who has successfully managed to control the psychotic part of me with patience and care. I scream and shout at him most of the time. There was a part where I constantly throw things at him whenever I'm on anger but he dealt with it patiently.

The one thing that I'm sure of to marry him is because the thing he did a year ago that makes me realize that life isn't just revolves around me, that there's also a soul that I should take into consideration, that people actually do have feelings. Well thanks to that incident, I am now marrying you my psycho partner.

And if you ask me again why I'm marrying Izwan, my answer will still be I don't know but with a smile on my face.

He's not perfect but with those imperfection is the reason why I'm still stuck with him for nearly six years now.


46 days seem like 46 years.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Poyo bride2be update #5

Look who's back.

I went to collect my wedding invitation card this afternoon and my hormones are happy now, yey! Remember the rambling on me being a psychotic bride-to-be, taking public transportation and the fight with daddy just to get the card printed? Well ladies, it was totally worth the trouble.

The printing company called me up last week saying that my cards are ready for collection. I was quite nervous actually for the fact that my heart wasn't 100% confident with the printing people as:-
  1. I don't get the type of paper that I wanted.
  2. The color selection was quite limited. I was looking for creamy gold but unfortunately, they don't have such color. So I pick off-white instead.
  3. I wasn't pretty sure if the design will turn out as what I wanted coz they don't prepare a mock up for me. If I were to test-print the card, that would cost me a lot as most printing company print in bulk and there's no such thing as test-print for wedding cards.
  4. For the fact that Izwan condemned me much on the cost of the wedding card padahal takdelah mahal pon.
So when they called, I prayed hard that the cards will turn out well.

When the lady handed me my card (dalam hati tak putus-putus berselawat) I was relieved as the card looks exactly as how I wanted it to be. Simple, very very simple, very clean and straight forward, takde corak-corak semak kepala...........and simple. I love it!


Simple kan?!

Of course you silly, tak surprise lah kalau tunjuk kad di sini. This is just a sneak peak of my wedding card. I'm not that generous to show you how my wedding card looks like. Nanti bila dah dapat barulah tengok sendiri ye kawan-kawan. Don't worry, it is so simple that you'd probably say "simple-nya wedding card dia". Well, that's the kind of expression that I want. It's not pretty but it's simple. It's ME!

They gave 50 extra copies of my wedding card for free. Super generous!

Oh, for those who have no idea where to go to for wedding card printing, I recommend LH Creative Concept. They're located at Jalan Brunei, Off Jalan Pudu, Kuala Lumpur. If you have zero idea on how to do your wedding card, they have the solution. They have ample of samples on wedding cards that they have created. Price is negotiable. It depends on your quantity but not much on the design. Have a visit, you'll get the idea.

And if you're like me who designed your own wedding card, well they accept that too. Show your design and they'll help to match it with the paper that will suit your design. Sungguh akan rambang mata.

I have to say that I'm much relieved after receiving those cards. Stress-free.

Now, it's time to get them ready for delivery. I'll be knocking at your door soon.............or maybe stuck in your postbox. Check them out soon. Cheh, macam apa jer!!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Satu bulan sudah?!

Pejam celik dah sebulan menabur bakti di tempat baru. So far, so good. Though the workloads are like double (triple maybe) from the previous company but I kinda enjoy doing it. I spent most of my hours at the office. Pergi kerja separa terang, balik kerja sepenuh gelap. I take the train (PUTRA LRT) to and fro everyday, from one end to another. I got the chance to rest my eyes for awhile in the morning and one on the ride back home. Life is good in that sense.

By the time I reach home, my body is already half collapsed. Sebenarnya nak cakap that I miss blogging. I miss writing. I've not been writing properly lately. I've been nagging over unnecessary things, writing over the over-exhaustion wedding preparation which took half of my sanity. My sense of writing has dropped to ground zero. My English, don't ever start on it; hay-wired! Grammar tunggang langgang. Mood swings all the time. Itu satu lagi masalahnya.

Why do we have to grow up? Why do I have to grow up so fast?

Dulu time belajar, terkedek-kedek nak cepat kerja. Sekarang bila dah bekerja, menyesal pulak habis belajar awal-awal. Itulah manusia, tak adanya yang puas, tak adanya yang cukup.

But I've found my remedy; for the time being that is. Ever since the "mix feeling" syndrome hits me, I've been watching/listening to this song whenever I'm in my lowest. I even assigned it as my caller ringtone, how kodi is that?! I've been pretty hooked up with the scene ever since I downloaded the episode. Takda lah gempak mana pun lagunya but the song has never failed in putting a smile on my face and I listen to it over and over again.




This is even better from the original version; Cee Lo - Forget You.

I didn't know that Gwyneth Paltrow has a beautiful voice. Isn't she a hottie? This must be the reason for my addiction.

I need inspiration. Saya mahukan inspirasi. Goodnight!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Air Asia J'taime Paris!

Received Air Asia notification early this morning. Although my dear friend Hairil has warned me about it but I coudn't care less.






Couldn't care less konon, tapi check jugak! Layan kan aje kegatalan tangan untuk menge-check kemurahan yang Air Asia tawarkan but knowing Air Asia, their cheap fare is not that cheap pun.

Check punya check......tadaaaaaa!




It's CHEAP weyh!!

So what are you waiting for? Check it now before it ends. Click AirAsia now!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Level "Game Over"

To Say I Do
Daisypath Wedding tickers

Or specifically 55 days to go.

Yes, I'm counting days now and if I can, I would count the hours to. Panic is officially my middle name. Panic dah lama tapi sekarang lebih panic daripada dulu. Panic, panic dah terus panic (mesti bercakap gaya Datuk Sheikh Muzaffar).

So anyways, here are few tips that I'm going to share to those who are in the midst of planning for their own wedding day. Yes, wedding preparation is by far the funnest (if ever the word exist) thing to do. You get the chance to see all the beautiful things. The flowers, the dais decorations, your wedding dress(es), the hantarans, creating your own wedding invitation card and for the fact that you are marrying the person that you love the most, well that's the most fun fact that you're getting. All these, all these fun preparation will soon fade away once you hit the last 2 months before the exact date.

And once it hits, you'll definitely will have the feeling of canceling your so called "happy day". You know how I know? Coz that is the feeling that I'm facing right now. The feeling of canceling my wedding day. The day that is 55 days away. The only feeling that you have now is the feeling of running away and never to come back. Dramatic kan?! Cuba lah nanti and you'll know what I mean.

Within these 2 months of period, there are few things that you have to finalize in order for you to get married. First is the Surat Pengesahan Perkahwinan. This is by far the suckiest procedure that one has to go through especially for those who are marrying in Selangor. Perasaannya macam nak bakar je pejabat jabatan agama. From Shah Alam to Taman Keramat, panjat jabatan agama itu ini baru nak selesai just to get the approval signatures.

The never ending fights with your parents is very very crucial. Period.

Dalam masa 2 bulan lah nak uji tahap kesabaran pasangan masing-masing. Penipu paling besar sebesar planet Marikh kalau siapa-siapa cakap yang dorang tak bergaduh dengan pasangan dorang during this period of time. The heat is on, everyone feels the tension, work is depressing (bagi yang bekerja seperti buruh kasar seperti kami), duit mengalir seperti air terjun; everything seem so wrong. When things don't go as planned, ayat paling glamor untuk di sebut tatkala ini adalah "susah-susah tak payah kahwin". Kan?!

The pressure from your surrounding is another factor.

*Sigh*

Bersabar dan berdoa agar masa berlalu dengan pantas sepantas kereta Ferrari di atas highway.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Sakit perut? Makanlah pil Che-ke-te-oon

We usually take things for granted especially when it comes to health issues. Sakit perut is among the common ones. But do you know with that sakit perut will leads you to more sakit perut(s)?
Source from here
PETALING JAYA, 16 Nov – Nora, 47, terasa sakit sangat di perutnya sejak enam bulan yang lepas. Beliau percaya ia hanya masalah ‘angin’, tetapi sejak kebelakangan ini minyak angin yang menjadi penawar selama ini tidak lagi melegakan sakitnya itu.
Gary, 53, pula sering kali mengadu sakit gastrik sejak sebulan yang lepas. Apabila beliau ke klinik, doktor memberitahu beliau mengalami gastritis, dan mengesyorkan ubat untuk melegakan sakit itu. Doktor menasihatkan beliau supaya makan mengikut masa.
“Tetapi saya tidak faham,” kata Gary.
“Saya makan mengikut masa,” katanya.
Ia mungkin sukar untuk percaya tetapi simptom pada Nora dan Gary mungkin penunjuk awal masalah yang lebih besar – kanser perut.
Dr Ramesh Gurunathan, seorang pakar bedah Gastrousus di Pusat Perubatan Sunway, menyatakan bahawa kes kanser perut telah berganda di Malaysia berbanding 700 kes pada 1997 walaupun kes kanser ini berkurangan di seluruh dunia.
“Ini sesuatu yang membimbangkan,” kata beliau kepada Bernama di Kongres Ketiga Kanser Gastroesofageal di Pusat Perubatan Sunway.
Simptom
Kanser perut merupakan kanser ketujuh paling lazim dalam kalangan lelaki di Malaysia, dan ke-10 paling lazim pada wanita.
Dr Gurunathan berkata ramai rakyat Malaysia bagaimanapun masih tidak sedar akan masalah sebenar di sebalik simptom ini. Ini kerana mereka sering kali menganggapnya sebagai sakit perut biasa disebabkan kerana tidak makan mengikut waktu atau amalan pemakanan kurang baik.

Beliau berkata mereka di Peringkat 1 atau Peringkat 2 kanser perut mungkin mengalami simptom berikut, yang lazimnya tidak banyak berbeza daripada sakit perut biasa:

  • Senak perut atau rasa kurang selesa di bahagian perut
  • Perut rasa macam ada angin, terutama selepas makan
  • Cepat kenyang, walaupun makan sedikit sahaja
  • Pedih hulu hati
  • Rasa mual

Bagaimanapun, kata beliau, ramai yang mengalami sebahagian sahaja simptom ini di peringkat awal. Simptom di peringkat lanjut kanser adalah lebih ketara, seperti najis berwarna hitam yang menunjukkan pendarahan di perut, kehilangan berat badan, hilang selera, rasa letih, sering kali muntah atau muntah darah.

“Malangnya, simptom ekstrem inilah yang akhirnya memaksa pesakit untuk ke hospital bagi mendapatkan rawatan,” kata Dr Ragunathan.

“Ketika itu ia mungkin terlalu lewat,” kata beliau.

Punca

Punca sebenar kanser perut masih tidak diketahui, tetapi terdapat faktor yang boleh meningkatkan risiko bagi kanser.

Kajian menunjukkan kehadiran bakteria Helicobacter Pylori, atau H. Pylori, dalam 70-90 peratus daripada pesakit dengan kanser perut.

Bakteria ini boleh bertindak sebagai kaseinogen yang akhirnya boleh menyebabkan kanser perut, kata Dr Ragunathan.

Bagaimanapun, ini tidak bermakna semua yang dijangkiti akan menghidap kanser.

Beliau menunjukkan satu penemuan menarik daripada penyelidikan yang dijalankan di Malaysia di mana lebih ramai anggota masyarakat India dijangkiti H. Pylori berbanding masyarakat Cina, tetapi lebih ramai orang Cina pula menghidap kanser perut.

Dr Ragunathan berkata simptom awal jangkitan H. Pylori hampir sama dengan kanser perut, dan adakalanya pesakit dirawat menggunakan ubat sahaja.

“Tetapi jika simptom yang sama berulang walaupun selepas mengambil ubat, anda perlu ke hospital dan jalani pemeriksaan kesihatan,” kata beliau.

Ujian darah biasa boleh menentukan sama ada seseorang itu dijangkiti oleh H. Pylori. Rawatan mungkin semudah satu dos antibiotik selama seminggu, katanya.

Bolehkah jangkitan berulang? Ya mungkin, kata doktor, tetapi kemungkinannya sangat kecil.

Genetik

Kajian menunjukkan bahawa asal-usul etnik dan genetik juga memainkan peranan ketara dalam menentukan siapa yang lebih berkemungkinan untuk menghadapi kanser.

Statistik 2006 Institut Kanser Kebangsaan menunjukkan bahawa orang Cina mewakili 61.7 peratus daripada pesakit kanser perut, diikuti oleh Melayu (25.9 peratus) dan India (12.4 peratus).

“Kami telah cuba mencari kaitan antara jenis diet yang eksklusif kepada setiap kumpulan etnik itu dan juga kemungkinan faktor lain, tetapi memandangkan pengaruh antara budaya di Malaysia, keputusannya tidak jelas,” katanya.

Elak makanan mentah

Pada masa yang sama, makanan mentah yang mengambil masa lama untuk dicerna boleh meningkatkan risiko kanser. Penemuan ini mempertikai kepercayaan segelintir pakar kesihatan, yang menggalakkan makanan mentah sebagai alternatif lebih sihat kepada makanan yang dimasak.

“Makanan mentah dikatakan antara sebab mengapa negara seperti Jepun menyaksikan kejadian kanser yang lebih tinggi,” kata Dr Ragunathan.

“Saya tidak berkata anda tidak langsung boleh makan sushi, tetapi mungkin boleh hadkannya kepada sekali setiap bulan.”

Selain itu, makanan yang digarami, disalai, jeruk atau makanan yang diawet, yang lazim di negara-negara seperti China, Korea dan Jepun, juga dikaitkan dengan risiko yang lebih tinggi bagi kanser perut.

Obesiti, penuaan dan tabiat buruk seperti merokok dan ketagihan
alkohol juga dikatakan sebagai menyumbang kepada kanser perut.

Di Jepun, di mana insiden kanser perut sangat tinggi, imbasan dijalankan bagi mereka yang berusia 40 tahun dan lebih.

“Bagaimanapun, ia tidak mungkin dapat dilakukan di Malaysia kerana kadar kejadian tidak setinggi seperti di Jepun selain ia juga tidak berkesan daripada segi kos,” kata Dr Ragunathan.

Rawatan

Beliau berkata kanser perut boleh dikesan menggunakan kaedah endoskopi. Kaedah ini menggunakan satu tiub dengan lensa video pada hujungnya yang dimasukkan ke ruang dalam perut menerusi mulut.

Menggunakan kaedah ini, keseluruhan dinding boleh diperiksa secara visual dan diambil sampel tisu di tempat-tempat yang disyaki untuk menentukan kehadiran sel barah, jika ada.

Beliau berkata di hospital kerajaan, pemeriksaan menggunakan endoskop ini dijalankan pada harga yang murah iaitu RM20 kerana kosnya disubsidi kerajaan.

Bagaimanapun, katanya, selepas itu doktor mungkin hanya mahu merawatnya dengan ubat-ubatan sahaja.

Oleh itu, katanya, jika pesakit itu berusia lebih 45 tahun, mempunyai kanser perut dalam sejarah keluarga dan mengalami simptom itu untuk satu tempoh, mereka harus memaklumkan ini kepada doktor dan bertanya:

“Haruskah saya menjalani endoskopi?”

Jika kanser perut dikesan sementara ia masih di peringkat 1, pembedahan mungkin tidak perlu untuk mengeluarkan ketumbuhan.

“Ia boleh dikeluarkan menggunakan endoskop, dan bagi peringkat 2, satu pembedahan dikenali sebagai gastrostomi mungkin perlu,” kata Dr Ragunathan.

Prosedur ini membabitkan pembuangan separuh hingga keseluruhan perut bergantung kepada kedudukan ketumbuhan. Ini mungkin disusuli dengan rawatan kemoterapi atau radioterapi.

Bolehkah seseorang hidup tanpa perut? Jangan terkejut, doktor ini berkata boleh.

“Mereka masih boleh menikmati kehidupan yang agak baik. Satu-satunya masalah ialah mereka mungkin terpaksa makan sedikit-sedikit enam atau tujuh kali kerana tiada ruang - atau bagi mereka yang sebahagian daripada perut mereka yang dikeluarkan ruangnya terhad untuk menyimpan makanan,”
katanya.

Bagaimanapun, peringkat 3 dan 4 mungkin sukar untuk dirawat, katanya.

“Rawatan bagi mereka ini lebih kepada penjagaan paliatif, radioterapi dan kemoterapi. Jadi jalani pemeriksaan awal jika anda mengesyaki sesuatu yang tidak kena. Ia boleh dirawat jika dapat dikesan awal.”

Dr Ragunathan merupakan pengerusi penganjur bagi kongres dua hari itu yang bermula pada 10 Nov dianjurkan oleh Kelab Pembedahan Gastrousus Atas Malaysia dan Kolej Pakar Bedah. Pakar-pakar terkemuka asing dan tempatan hadir dan berceramah di kongres itu, yang membincangkan topik berkaitan pembedahan bahagian atas gastorusus, satu bidang pengkhususan yang agak baru dan berkembang pesat di Malaysia. – Bernama

So, don't go easy with that sakit perut anymore.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Mix feeling part 2

Every time I feel like I'm falling apart, there's always something that will hold me back to you. Always! - Ajlaa Azam




Tiada lukisan
yang adil menggambarkan
Apa ku lihat,
semudah itu, senyuman.
Tak mungkin ku temui
Suatu masa dulu
Tiada lain ku impi
Bayang wajahmu

Tiada seniman
karya yang memahami
Bagai serunai
lembut badai pun menghilang
Begitulah melodi
Suatu hari nanti
Hanya engkau dan aku
Hingga akhir pasti

Adanya diri ini,
Hanyalah untukmu,
Sayangku
Getaran hati ini,
permaisuri kasihku,
Hingga akhir pasti

Halus di cipta
Suci peribadi, manja
Di kau cahaya
Menerangi alam, maya
Tak dapat ku bayangi
Dunia tanpanya
Yang sudi menemani
Hingga akhir pasti

Adanya diri ini
Hanyalah untukmu,
Sayangku
Getaran hati ini,
Bidadari kasihku
Hanya untuk mu,

Kasih,
Diri ini hanyalah untuk mu...
Hanya untuk mu
Sungguh!
Di kaulah segalanya
Segalanya........
Semua yang ku miliki,
Dalam dakapanku
Tak lagi ku bermimpi
Hingga akhir pasti.


- Innuendo: Hingga Akhir Pasti

Mix feeling

  • It's either that or never......
  • All that I could only see now is a blank wall on every corner that I turn too, which is bad actually. No visuals, no colors, no nothing; absolutely nothing!
  • I looked so pale lately. A colleague came over at my place and told me that I looked tired as if I was working at a farm or something and it was only 10 in the morning.
  • And that explains the delay of my menstrual of 7 days. I even had the slightest thought in my mind of being pregnant. But how could that be possible, I have never really do such activities. Yea, you know what I mean.
  • Work at the new place is pretty hectic. It's towards the end of the year (already?! what happen to January??). Clients are asking for reports, figures, numbers and such.
  • I just want this whole wedding thingy to be done and over with. It's tiring. Really! The pressure is over-rating.

I think the wedding pressure has caused me much stress than ever. To my surprise, wedding is actually one of the main reason for causing stress. Here are the list of top 7 causes of stress:-
  1. Finances - this is a never ending reason.
  2. Work
  3. Family
  4. Personal concerns
  5. Wedding
  6. Personal health & safety
  7. Death
Well.......well........look at what I got.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Autism raising fund event.



Kindness has a new colour with Suria KLCC’s first ever Purple Day! - An event dedicated to creating awareness about childhood autism, and raising funds for the non-profit, non-governmental National Autism Society of Malaysia (NASOM).

You can help afflicted families piece their lives and dreams together when you visit the exhibition booths at Centre Court and participating outlets from 11 to 14 November 2010 at Suria KLCC. T-Shirts are selling at RM30 and fridge magnets at RM10 only. All profits go to NASOM.

This Saturday, November 12, 2010 at 3pm, the children from NASOM will be singing their hearts out and giving a performance that’ll put a smile on your face from 2pm to 4pm as well, 988 DJs KK & XIn Yee will be there for autographs and photo-taking sessions.

If you have time to spare this weekend, come and give us a helping hand too!


Participating outlets are as below



Thursday, November 11, 2010

Posto! Posto!

Media Planner

Responsibilities:

Able to plan and execute media as well as work independently with at least 2 years of working experience in the advertising industry.

Requirements:
  • Candidate must possess at least a Diploma, Advanced/Higher/Graduate Diploma, Advertising/Media, Mass Communication 0r equivalent.
  • Required skill(s): Able to work independently, strategic minded and self motivated.
  • Required language(s): Bahasa Malaysia, English
  • At least 2 year(s) of working experience in the related field is required for this position.
  • Preferably Junior Executives specializing in Advertising/Media Planning or equivalent.
  • Fresh grads are encourage to apply.
If you are interested or if you know anyone who meets the criteria, please do not hesitate to contact me directly at ajlaa0907@gmail.com

Thank you.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Poyo bride2be update #4

Tiba-tiba update #4.

Anyways, I haven't been updating on my wedding progress for awhile now. Eh, ke baru je beberapa hari lalu?! So, here to the making of the Poyo bride-to-be.

Someone got his suit ready some time last month. You see, this is one of the reason why I hate being the bride. I have to go thought thousand and thousand of wedding magazines just to get the idea for my wedding dress. And when I finally had one in mind, I have to go through another thousand of processes from finding the good material to the final fitting just to meet the satisfaction. When everything is all set, the groom just need to find something nice that can match the bride's dress.

In my case, a suit is what Izwan's going to wear for the reception.

So, off we went to the tailor that has been sewing my dad's suit ever since.....hmm, I don't know, donkey years ago.

We went to the tailor in the early month of October. Oh, we decided to tempah his suit separately as Izwan wants it as his personal suit after the wedding. Dah alang-alang nak buat harta, might as well we do it properly. We went to the tailor, picked the material that is suitable for Izwan's skin (encik ini ada sensitive skin, kain tak boleh sebarangan pakai) and the tailor took his measurement right away.

And the suit is ready for pick-up 2 weeks later. Sangat sekejap. The suit and also the trousers.


It was nicely done. Saya yang suka lebih.

I hope my dress will turn out to be as nice as his. Mine won't be ready anytime soon; not till December I suppose. Baju perempuan memang selalu lambat. Tempah 5 bulan sebelum, fitting berkali-kali, siapnya 2-3 weeks before the wedding. Alasan, nanti measurement tak lari dengan saiz badan. Wth?!

Itulah orang kata, penantian adalah satu penyeksaan. Waiting for my wedding dress to be ready is one of the penyeksaan.

All that Izwan needs to do now is to get that tummy of his to be few inches smaller, boleh?

Monday, November 8, 2010

World Walking Day


More info here

Thought of joining. I've never participated in any activities such. I think this is a good start. I've stopped myself from exercising years ago. After all, it is for a good cause, don't you think?!

So why wait?! Come and join us and start living a good healthy life.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

9 years and counting

The people that I can always count on, besides my family and Izwan. The people that will never judge. The people who are there to lend their ears and shoulder to cry on. The people who I care and love the most.




I look tired in every pictures taken. I was actually. Was having a tough day hopping from one place to another. But the day spent with those people, seeing those faces really turned by day on.

Girls, I really hope that our weekend gateway menjadi though I doubt it will happen. Takpe, gateway tak jadi, SPA relaxing time harus ok!!

Tips menjadi babysitter yang berjaya

My two lil' heroes are here for their annual school holiday sleepovers. It's a yearly event for these two lil' kids to come to their Maklang's house (my mother) for the weekend sleepover. Sleepover hanya boleh dilakukan hanya pada cuti hujung tahun ye adik-adik kerana cuti hujung tahun adalah panjang dan inilah masanya untuk mereka menghabiskan duit kakak-kakak saudara mereka.

My mother loves having them around; to cook for them, to make her life busy preparing for their breakfast, lunch and dinner and loves torturing us layaning karenah kanak-kanak ribena itu. She just loves listening to their screams and shouts.

Maka dengan itu, terhasillah tips-tips terbaik yang boleh digunapakai kepada mereka-mereka yang bernasib malang yang terpaksa menjaga anak buah/sepupu/adik saudara mahupun adik-adik kecil secara terpaksa.

And it ain't easy, I tell you!!

You would be surprised to know that this little kids, they wake up very early in the morning. As early as 8 in the morning. You have no choice but to wake up as early as they are just to make sure that they brush their teeth and get the morning susu dalam botol. Mandi and breakfast belom masanya lagi, their brains are still in sleeping mode. The possibilities going back to bed in very high.

Comes 10 to 11 am - that is the best time for you to prepare them for their morning shower, have breakfast and whatnot or else, they will end up not having shower till Maghrib. Oh, and the smell of air liur basi and the susu meleleh tepi pipi plus the dirty diaper that is still stuck underneath needs to be cleaned.

Now comes the serious pain in the head. They'll start fighting with each other till one of them got knock on the head and starts crying. In my case, my two lil' heroes will start chasing each other from the main hall to the kitchen and go back to the main hallway. And this is where the screams and shouts are the only sound that you are going to listen the entire morning/afternoon.

And all of the sudden, your house is so quiet as if there is no one staying in it. And that is when one of them has finally knocked-out.


Do not disturb them when their on their afternoon nap. It can always go on two ways; either before having the lunch meal or after. It depends on keadaan semasa. The younger brother fell asleep after fighting his own battle since none of us in the house nak layan dia. Not even the brother.


Si abang, dapat laptop, buka facebook, senyaplah dia. Kids nowadays, they are very modern. Facebook is part of their game lists. Computer is what they're eager for. PSP is what they carry in their pocket. Very modern. Sangat berteknologi tinggi. Sangat...........

This is also the time for you to get some rest but before that, make sure that you have their lunch meal prepared on the time. Coz boy, they'll get grumpy right after waking up for the empty stomach. Bangun-bangun, ayat pertama yang keluar is LAPAR. Nasi is what they're looking for.


Even nasi won't make them sit still. They will start asking impossible things just to put the pressure on you. To make them stay on their best behavior, you have no choice but to get them ice cream for dessert. In my case, the boys have already asked for McDonald's Sundae and Milk Shake. So off I go to the nearest drive-thru for the desserts. See, how lucky they are. Ice-cream pun dapat McDonald punya. Bertuah!


Bila petang pun menjelma, maka masing-masing pun sibuklah nak ke playground. Nasib playground hanya sekangkang kera dari rumah. Kalau tak masak lah nak bawa mereka pergi playground. You'll need to spend roughly about one to two hours accompanying them at the playground. You need to stay and monitor every steps of their way at the playground. Macam-macam boleh berlaku. You got to stay till they are fully "satisfied" with the playground. Kadang-kadang sampai hujan nak turun pun belom tentu mereka nak balik lagi.


Bila tiba waktu malam, tv adalah source utama hiburan mereka. Sebenarnya, tv adalah source utama hiburan mereka semenjak pagi cuma malam lebih kronik berbanding siang. You won't be able to watch your favorite tv programs as the remote control will be solely conquered by them. There'll be after one and another; Kampung boy, Hagemaru, Fukuchan, Spongebob, Hikayat Putera Shazlan - basically the entire cartoon channels; Ceria terutamanya. Sabar adalah segalanya yang ada perlukan ketika ini.


And when it's time for bed, you need to prepare the bed in a safety manner coz they sleep exactly like the picture shown above.

Good night everybody. Tomorrow will be another babysitting day!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Air yang dicincang

........tidak akan putus.

Masalahnya, air boleh ke di cincang?!

That is why the proverb was created that way. Dihasilkan secara metafora.

My sister and I, we don't click with each other that much. No-lah, tipu je! We are very very close with each other that sometimes, just sometimes we wish that one of us die faster. We are known to behave aggressively towards each other whenever we're into a fight. Even though we are already in our 20s but we still fight aggressively. There was a time when I was holding a knife and she was holding the scissors trying to kill each other over a silly reason. We fought over ekor ikan. We fought over clothes. We fought over toiletries. We fought over the silliest thing one couldn't have imagine. We fought over nasi. We fought over almost everything in the world, you name it. She even screamed at me with disagreement when I first told her about me getting married. Nobody can understand us; even the parents. We fought but 20 minutes later, we're back to being normal as if there was nothing happened. That is how we communicate; by practicing the love-hate kind of relationship. Like I said, nobody could understand us.

Few days before she left for her 2 weeks of vacation, we were not in a good term. I can't really remember what was it about (banyak sangat gaduh, dah tak keep on track) and she left without saying goodbye. It was a relief though, for me that is as she won't be anywhere near me for quite some time. After few days of her absence, I started to miss her presence. Dah tak ada orang nak dibertekak kan mestilah jadi rindu. She texted me everyday about her vacation and her where about coz she doesn't want me to be worried. Sebab itu orang cakap air dicincang tak akan putus.

When I told her that I'm moving out after getting married, her immediate action was "habis tu awak nak tinggalkan kakak sorang-sorang? Siapa nak tolong kakak kalau bapak merajuk?" After much of explanation, just to convince her the rationale of me moving out, her follow up action was, "takpe, nanti kalau ada pape kakak datang duduk rumah awak. Awak jangan pindah jauh-jauh".

Lain dialognya bila tengah bergaduh, "awak jangan lagi duduk rumah ni lepas kahwin. Pergi duduk rumah lain".

You get what I mean?!


She's turning 28 in a few days. As much as I hate her bossing around, I still love her fondly. She's my sister. My only kakak. The kakak I sometime wish I don't have. The type of kakak that I wish that I could kill when she's asleep. The kakak that I wish that I'm not related to. Despite all that, despite all the disagreements, all the arguments, all the "I hate you go and die" statements, she is still my sister and I love her unconditionally. I pray that she gets everything that she wished for. I pray for her happiness.

I love you kopam very much! Sila jadi rajin lepas ini. Kopam is her all time childhood nickname. Don't ask me why but that is what I call her for the past 25 years.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Family Planning

Promote My Wedding


I have roughly 10 weeks to go before the big day. And I think it is about time to start thinking on what's going to happen at that area down south. Fill free to click the "X" button if you think you're not comfortable reading what I'm about to write. I'm not harassing anyone for that matter but I think it is something worth sharing as most of my friends; women my age generally are getting married or maybe planning to settle down.

So, where should I start?!

I was at Guardian KLCC couple of weeks ago wondering around just to waste my time while waiting for my sister to leave her office. I was queuing at the counter when I saw boxes of several types of birth control pills at the display shelves. The thing is, Izwan and I, we have been discussing on the "future of our family" and how are going to go about it. Oh yes ladies, these are the things that you need to open up to, discussing openly with your husband/husband-to-be. This is not something that you need to keep it in silent. After all, you're going to live and have a life together, aren't you?! So yea, Izwan and I, we discuss about this a lot. And you should know that men will always be men. Lelaki dilahirkan mempunyai satu nafsu. So, go figure!

Izwan and I, we have come to an agreement whereby we are going to enjoy our marriage life first before "expending" our family for at least a year or two but the thing is he wants it manually. Birth control is part of the option. Lucky me, one of my besties has a very high knowledge on pills and whatnot. She is a Masters holder in this medic world which I have zero knowledge of. She advised me not to take birth control or even to think about taking birth control. Like I said, Izwan wants it manually.

These are the side effects on prescribing birth control
  • Blood cloth issues -the birth control patch increases the amount of estrogen and progestin, it has been shown that it affects the way the blood forms into blood clots.
  • Risks of stroke or pulmonary embolisms - pulmonary embolisms and strokes can result and therefore cause long term disabilities.
  • Severe headaches - There has been evidence that severe headaches can occur from use of the patch. These headaches often begin suddenly.
  • Vision problems - Another adverse reaction to the birth control patch is vision problems. It is not an uncommon side effect to have vision problems in one or both eyes.
  • Vomiting and nausea - There have been many cases where women using the birth control patch suffer from nausea and vomiting as a side effect.
  • Menstrual cramps - Use of the birth control patch can cause a woman’s periods to become shorter and fewer.
  • Difficulty Speaking and mental confusion - Birth control patches have been known to affect one’s speaking abilities. The patch creates a sense of confusion and can make it difficult to articulate words properly or express oneself properly.
  • Upper respiratory infection or cold like symptoms - There is nothing worse than having difficulty breathing. In addition, the cold like symptoms that accompany this could be a side effect that nobody would want to endure.
  • Skin irritation at the site of patch placement - Irritation of the skin is definitely a negative side effect that nobody would want to endure.
  • Heart Attacks - Probably one of the most dangerous of the side effects caused by birth control patches is the risk of a heart attack.
Source from here.

And for the fact that one could be highly exposed to cancerous diseases is a big no-no.

So she advised me to use Ovulation kit instead.

I know, I know! The purpose of an Ovulation kit is actually for women who are in need of pregnancy. The kit is actually a way to identify the exact right time for a woman to ovulate. With that, the chances of one in getting pregnant is very high. But in my case, the usage of the kit is to determine the time of me not ovulating. Do you get what I mean? It's like working the other way round.

I have yet to test on the accuracy. Some say, it's works on them. Some say, they couldn't reach the accuracy. It still depends on the temperature that your body is showing. If your temperature is high, it means that you are ovulating. If not, means the otherwise.

Oh by the way, for those who are wondering, you can get the kit at your nearest pharmacy store. They are usually at the shelves where condoms are displayed. Have time checking on it. You might never know that maybe, just maybe, you need them in your closet.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

A brand new day


Bukan! Bukan sebab saya sudah pandai buat kek. Kek ini lain cceritanya.

I started my day at a new place yesterday. I tendered my resignation letter a month ago. Bosses all berlakon-lakon-merajuk-tak-mahu-cakap-bagai and finally three days before my last day, the CEO called and we had some serious talk. I was surprised. Flattered actually. I can't believe that someone like him would probably care for someone like me to leave his company. Decision was made and here I am standing on it. I hope I made the right decision. Amin.

And so, here I am, heading to a new direction, going to a new building, sitting on a new chair, working with a new computer, messing my own cubicle, meeting new people, adapting to a new environment, HAVING A NEW BOSS who I have yet to work with (she's out for a week training), learning new things; slightly different from the previous work scope but still struggling in the same industry. I can't run from the fact that I actually love advertising although the ramblings I made are as high (or even higher) as the Mount Kinabalu.

So on Sunday, I can't sit still thinking how my Monday is going to be. I decided to take LRT instead of driving to Uptown which I have no idea about. Gamble. I thought of having a test ride going there since I clearly don't know where to go, which station to stop and how to go there after reaching the station. But the thought was left as a thought.

Jadi dengan kadar resah dan gelisah itulah hence the cake. I baked butter cake last Sunday to get rid of my nervous breakdown. As kodi as it sounds, the cake gives me an inspiration on which station to stop and how to go about it. Kan saya dah bilang, ia Kodi! I safely reached Uptown, my new office 20 minutes early. Gamble turun train, gamble naik shuttle bus and I survived Petaling Jaya on my own! *Clap hands*

But I have another problem coming. McDonald is just a level below from my office. And if I reach office 20-15 minutes early each day, I would probably have McDonald's Breakfast Value every morning. And if I have them every morning, kasi gaji RM3,000 sebulan pun belom tentu cukup kan?! Sigh.

Good night peeps!