The real definition of a fairy tale wedding

The wedding of Nur Nadiah SM Nasimuddin and Hamzah Alang Azman Shah

If one is a daughter of a very successful businessman who inherited her father's business in the food and hospitality division and married to a son of Holiday Villa Chain owner; well, this is what you get for your wedding ceremony.

*Sigh*

#19

After the conversation I had with kakak last night, I felt much relieved. I'm glad she understands. It was stupid of me to think the other wise. I feel much better now.

She was a bit confused of the facial reaction that I have upon my face. Well kakak, I was being confused about the whole thing and that explained the sloppy face I had earlier on. She said that I look unhappy about the news which was true for the fact that I'm pretty worried for the decision that I might be agreed on. I'm taking the risk of jeopardizing my career here sister. That is why I'm worried so much.

"Go for it. Take the challenge". That was all she said while wrapping up our adik-beradik-heart-to-heart session before mom decided to kacau daun. We had to stop immediately as I haven't told my parents yet. Itu pun satu lagi sebab musabab for the worried face. The challenge of telling the parents for making such decision. I have to admit, this is the only, I repeat, THE ONLY decision made that both my sister and I agreed on. The encouragement she gave to me to just go for it. She has never encouraged me on things that I do except for this one. Sungguh flattered!

Takpe. Buat apa nak takut. Bukan kita meropak. They'll understand, eventually.

I'm so grateful for having the people who constantly showering me with their love and support. Who will always be there for me when I needed them the most. Who I can always rely on and be there through thick and thin.

I would like to personally thank Izwan for all the time he spent just to get me to where I am today. Not that I've done any better but at least, there's improvement made from the day I started "laboring" in this advertising world. I'll be better, don't worry. Insyaallah. Love ya long time!

All I need to do now is to get the answers ready to all the soalan-soalan cepu cemas yang bakal di tanya tidak lama nanti.

Got to go now. Work awaits. Have a nice day lovers!

L.E.A.R.N

As you learn how to survive, you learn how to appreciate. As you learn how to love, you learn how to live.

- The Love Stories

The parrot in you.

There was an episode of Sex & The City season 6 playing on HBO last night. They never failed in being inspirational especially for those who are facing the hardship in life and relationship. It isn't just about the dresses that they wore or the killer heels that walked together with that smooth beautiful pair or legs or the blinking blinked accessories that composite those drop dead gorgeous dresses or for the fact that the romantic scene one is having really portraying the love one is getting. No, it is not just that!

It was an episode where Carrie was being super excited in introducing her Russian boyfriend to her girlfriends but ended up being ditched for the wrong timing. He, the Russian man was in the midst of preparing for his own art exhibition in Paris do not want anyone to disturb him while working on his so called "masterpiece" including Carrie, the love of his life. And being an understanding friends, the girls went home right away and canceled their plan of touring the luxurious apartment where the hunk Russian is staying.

Knowing Carrie who is very defensive trying to defend her friends whom she loves so much for the fact that they were being ditched went to see Alexandra at his studio for a consolation. But instead, she went there to only see that Alexandra was having his own breakdown. The moment she saw that gloomy face of Alexandra, she decided to shut her mouth and be a good listener, consoling her Russian boyfriend and be a good girlfriend.

Maybe, just maybe, I may need to shut my mouth sometimes and be a good listener instead. I've done enough of talking but less listening which is not good at all.

I talked and I nagged macam orang tua. Well, who doesn't?! And people tend to hate it most of the time. Talking is good but being talkative sometimes can kill one's personality.

I talk so much and sometimes (most of the time sebenarnya) I got carried away with things that I talked about and I know how devastated my partner is just to layan all the talking(s) I made. One thing that I always forget is that, it is not always about me. Things don't actually always revolve me. It is not just me who lives in this world and I have to start to listen to other people coz they matters too.

Orang melayu pun ada cakap, "orang yang banyak cakap, isinya selalu kosong" and I couldn't agree more. The more you talk, the more crappy things came out from your mouth. The more it comes out, the higher chance of you making a fool of yourself. The foolish you'll be, the greater chance of people making fun of you and the list goes on. You get it, don't you?!

So now ladies, you decide.

SR + Mokhsen

credit photo from Paan's facebook

This is the true meaning of love. They met, became friends, hated each other first, he decided to confess the feelings he had towards her on one fine evening, decided to be more than just friends right after, engaged and now married to fulfill the companionship for each other.

The fights they had, the long distance relationship that they practiced; were all worth every sweat. All these because of the love they have for each other. Till death do them apart.

I have my own story with each one of them. I met SR while we were still in KMPP. She was the girl next door. Don't really talk to her much as we rarely seen each other although we were just a wall away. Not even a smile on the face. She has this sloppy face and I well, this snobbish face don't really smile much. Not till that knocked on the door when she came to my room and asked for a cup of maggi. That was in semester two. We were friends since and friends still and were destined to be in the same course in USM. I was a month late and she was the only girl I knew who could help me with all the notes and whatnots. We became closer. The room that I went to if there's a case of emergency. Her room was much nearer to the bridge that we have to cross compared to mine. Jadi, kalau nak tumpang sembahyang, bilik SR jadi mangsa utama. SR juga memiliki watak yang sungguh heartless, very easy going like very very easy going. Suka tidur tahap melampau and easy going. I did mentioned that kan tapi dia memang very easy going macam sampai takda perasaaan langsung. Till that day when they announced the relationship SR is currently in (which is dengan Mokhsenlah siapa lagi) to me baru lah tahu yang sebenarnya SR ada perasaan juga. She's a friend, still.

Berlainan pula dengan Mokhsen. I met him while I was struggling with my degree courses. He was somehow the representative of our batch. Macam ketua darjah lah macam tuh. Very bersopan santun, lemah lembut kalah perempuan, super friendly dan sangat sangat suka bergossip. Memang kawan sepergelakkan dan kawan ntah pape sepanjang 2 tahun. I just can't really describe the fun I had with him throughout that 2 years of hell. He's like my partner in crime. Kawan lepak kedai mamak sampai pukul 2-3 pagi, gelak-gelak kutuk orang. Super fun! Oh, I missed those fun moments. Wish it could just remain still. Hmmm...kalau tulis lagi sampai esok tak habis.

To cut things short, I would like to congratulate and wish the both of you Selamat Pengantin Baru dan semoga berpanjangan sehingga ke anak cucu. You guys make a cute couple! Like super cute!! Sorry I couldn't make it due to transportation disabilities. *teeeheee*

I feel like crying while writing this note. Emotional sekejap but I pray that rumahtangga yang bakal di bina ini akan sentiasa dilimpahi dengan kasih sayang dan di beri penuh keberkatan oleh tuhan. Korang memang chomel lah. SR jangan gangster-gangster lagi ok!

Take care you guys.


Hugs & Kisses,
Ajlaa Azam

Wedding checklist

Seperti yang dijanjikan. Ini adalah attempt pertama dalam merealisasikan impian untuk menjadi seorang b2b yang poyo. Jadi, untuk percubaan pertama ini, here are the checklist of things that need to be done and things that have already been cleared.


SUDAH LANGSAI

Confirmed date: 15 January 2010, 10 Safar 1432H
Solemnization: 11 AM
Wedding reception: 8 PM

Venue:-
Solemnization: Home sweet home
Wedding reception: A garden house at Taman Melawati

Attire:-
Solemnization: A cousin who is the responsible tailor for one of top designer in the country. Oleh yang demikian, kemudahan untuk mendapatkan keberkesanan serupa seperti menghantar baju ke designer tersebut adalah lebih kurang 99.9% serupa cuma dengan kadar upah yang lebih murah. Since he is the tailor in charge, we bought the material for both bride & groom at a very very VERY low rate. Like SUPER low! Oh and the actual designer for my baju nikah is my mother who actually got the inspiration by one of the dresses she saw at BSC laundry shop.
Reception: Designed by yours truly and my parents for the groom's suit.

Wedding planner: My mother who is also the Creative Director, the CEO, Managing Director, General Manager, and a full time Director for both events. She is also the best, I repeat, THE BEST negotiator in town.

Canopy: It so happened that the canopy owner is a friend of my father's. We rented 8 canopies and got 2 FOC canopies.

Caterer: Orang kampung saya yang akan menghidangkan juadah makanan original Minang and a cousin of mine will be preparing the dishes for the solemnization to feed the northern side of the family.

Invitation card: Designed by yours truly.

Hiasan bunga pahar: The mother of the bride (ibunda saya lah siapa lagi)

Photographer: A friend of mine.

AV: A cousin of mine who is also a professional event coordinator/MC

BELUM LANGSAI:

Attire:
Reception: For the reception. Tukang jahit kata dia akan call after raya week. To also find a nice pair of heels that can fit both dresses.

Hantaran: Will be decorated by my cousin's mother-in-law who volunteered to help with the decoration for free. Oh, she has been decorating hantarans her entire life. So, gaya dan taste-nya amatlah dipercayai. Oh please take note that she will be doing for both bride & groom. To get all the stuff for hantaran before December comes.

Invitation card: To get it printed and distribute to the guest latest by the first week of December 2010.

Wedding cake: to be confirmed (sama ada mahu atau tidak mahu sebab saya bagitau ibunda saya yang saya tidak mahu)


So there you go. The checklist of my wedding day. These are only the list that I can recall at the moment. Nanti bila-bila ingat akan ditambah lagi from time to time. Tapi ingat, majlis ini bukan untuk membazir. Segalanya haruslah dilakukan dalam kadar yang berpatutan dan TIDAK MEMBAZIR.

Sehingga bertemu lagi dalam percubaan untuk menjadi bride yang poyo.

Sekian terima kasih.

#35

Yes darlings, you see it right. This is my latest invention. My version of my own bakery shop. If you check on the list, you'll find it at #35.

Tak dapat yang the real bakery, yang virtual pun jadilah!

This is just the beginning of a bright future, Insyaallah. The needs of wanting to own a bakery shop. Mula-mula buang masa dengan the virtual version, mana tahu tahun-tahun mendatang dapat yang the real static one?! We wouldn't know kan?? After all, I already started this so-called business online. Remember Cuppiesland? Cuma sekarang masa yang tidak mengizinkan saya untuk memperluaskan perniagaan online saya sahaja.

Ada betulnya kata-kata melayu yang sekarang ini kebanyakkan melayu hanya suka ngomong kosong. "Hangat-hangat tahi ayam". Dulu sungguhlah bersungguh tapi sekarang, hanya tuhan saja yang tahu. Bila MALAS sudah menguasai badan, boleh hancur semua jadinya.

But I still bake though. Itu sahaja yang masih kekal. Cuma "membakar" untuk ahli keluarga saja dan untuk hidangan mulut dan perut sendiri. Bukan untuk tujuan komersial. Eh! but I still accept orders. Kalau ada sesiapa yang berminat, silalah hubungi saya di talian "Comment" di bawah.

There's another dough of chocolate chip cookies that needs my attention. See, I never really stop baking but the lack of determination saja yang menggangu jiwa dan raga.

I better get those cookies ready. We are expecting visitors later tonight. Nantikan kemunculannya di post-post yang akan datang. I have decided to transform this blog to a bride-to-be blog yang poyo. Mestilah mengikuti trend masa sekarang. Asal nak jadi bride je ade b2b blog. Maka, saya hanya mengikuti trend untuk mempraktikan ke-poyo-an saya.

Kita tunggu dan lihat tahap ke-poyo-an saya. Marilah kita sama-sama mendoakan ke-poyo-an saya ini agar menjadi kenyataan. Amin.

The price of a platinum ring

I was already half asleep when my phone buzz-ed none stop like a mad cow yesterday night. It was already half past one in the morning and the phone just won't stop buzzing. This is the price one has to pay for using a Blackberry phone and I'm starting to hate mine. Lagi bagus kalau phone tanpa warna masih wujud lagi di rumah. I'd have use it still.

And as a result, I was freshly awake the whole night/morning and fall back to sleep hours later which was not good coz I ended up waking up with disappointment (for being unable to sleep and have a good night sleep) this morning.

Maka dengan itu, berfikiranlah saya semasa berada di dalam keadaan yang penuh segar-bugar itu. Yelah, mana taknya, dah kata tak boleh tidur. Jadi fikiran pun mulalah melayang-layang sampai ke Antartika.

I went out with Izwan later that afternoon to look for his ring. You see, Muslim men can't wear any kind of gold or white gold as an accessories. With that, if one is in need of wearing accessories, they can only wear platinum with 0% of gold or Suasa. You know-lah how expensive platinum ring can be. Boleh gugur bulu kaki melihat harganya. And it left us with no choice but to look for one. We went to GoldHeart to look for his ring. Lucky for us, we found the ring which he loves so much (bukan senang nak tengok Izwan suka sesuatu benda tuh) within our budget. Takda lah tergugur bulu kaki melihatnya. Fortunate for me, Izwan is not that type of person who wants diamond on his ring. Just a simple clean cut band will do. Maka, tidak gugur kuasa dua bulu kakinya. We may need to go back to the jeweler since there's no size that can fit Izwan's finger. Kesimpulannya, lagi 2 bulan baru cincin dia siap dengan harga yang sungguh berpatutan.

And it got me thinking.

How much one needs to spend just to prepare for one's wedding day. Dengan hantarannya, wang hantarannya (yang dah tentu-tentu ber-K'-K' jumlahnya. Bayar itu ini. Pening kepala itu ini. The fight one has to face with the immediate family. The miss-communication between the immediate family and the in-laws to be. Baju. Kenduri and whatnots only to know that the marriage that one is trying to hold on to only last for a year or two. Minta simpang tapi that's the reality that we are facing nowadays. I'm not saying that all marriages end up with a failure one but tengok saja lah. Bercerai sana sini dalam surat khabar. It scares me to death.

I spent a lot on this wedding. Ini baru preparation-nya saja. Belum lagi yang untuk rumahtangga. Tanggungjawab suami-isteri. You see, I'm that type of person who thinks a lot. Like a lot, LOT! That's why kadang-kadang benda-benda yang tak sepatutnya difikirkan pun difikirkan juga. Maka terfikirlah benda-benda mengarut ni.

Susah payah yang dilalui hanyalah sia-sia jika tidak berjaya untuk dipertahankan.

All these, all these kesusahpayahan were linked to the conversation I had with Izwan on our way to Mid Valley. I don't really quite remember what we were talking about but it came to a conclusion that we did not understand the meaning to our responses to each other. Lain yang di cakap, lain yang difahamkan. Sebab itu selalu miss-communication between us two. Tak faham maksud.

After 5 years. After 5 years of knowing/being with each other, we still experiencing this so called communication breakdown. Jadi, macam mana nanti bila dah kahwin tak kan nak ada communication problem lagi?!

Adakah berbaloi segala kesusahpayahan itu nanti?

I wouldn't know. I'm not there yet? But I hope and I pray that all these hardship that I have to go through in the name of preparing for a wedding worth all the sweat. Amin

Photostream

Few of my recent shots.

Sotong tepung separa enak

Kangkung terkurang belacan

Facial expression

Saya tidak mahu pergi ke kantor esok boleh?!

Ye, saya akan kembali ke kantor bermula esok. Semenjak dua menjak bercuti raya, the body and mind have stopped working and having the determination of going to work. If money grows on trees? *sigh*

Oh, bukan ini sebenarnya tujuan penulisan blog. Tujuan sebenar adalah untuk mempamerkan akan visual-visual yang telah diambil pada majlis tidak rasmi berbuka puasa bersama rakan-rakan seperjuangan seperti yang telah digembar-gemburkan dahulu.

Tapi maaflah, visualnya hanyalah visual makanan yang separa enak sahaja yang mampu untuk diupload. Since my laptop has decided to go dead on me by missing its' networking card, I can only use my sister's broadband connection which took me years to upload the pictures. Yes, I wrote it right. YEARS bebeh, years!!

Sebenarnya, niat di hati ingin memperkenalkan tomyam ayam yang serupa tomyam bawang masak air tetapi hanya separa saja gambarnya yang kelihatan. Jadi, inilah hasilnya.

Inilah ia kangkung belacan yang ditempah. Nasib baik rasanya seperti kankung belacan walaupun agak tasteless di situ.

Ikan pari yang sudah dikerat-kerat dan dibelah-belah kepada dua. Al-kisahnya si Faiz membisingkan dirinya kepada si penghantar makanan kerana tidak berpuas hati dengan kondisi ikan pari bakar yang ditempahnya. Yang di ambil adalah 2 ekor tetapi hasilnya serupa seekor saja. Mengamuk lah member ikan parinya kecut seekor.

Banyak-banyak makanan, inilah makanan yang paling kami berpuas hati sekali. Sotong tepung. Tidaklah superb rasa. Superb lagi yang saya goreng tetapi, bolehlah untuk di makan.

Dan akhir sekali dan yang laing enak sekali dikalangan makanan yang telah dihidangkan adalah ketam masak merah. Lihat gambarnya saja sudah boleh mengliurkan mulut yang sudah berisi nasi lemak sebelum membaringkan diri di katil. Rasanya, sedang-sedang saja tapi sedaplah juga jika nak dibandingkan dengan yang lain-lain.

So there you go, food for your soul. Eh silap! food for your tummy. Not recommending this place though. Cuba sekadar untuk mencuba dan jika tidak ada pilihan lain lagi boleh lah.

Oh, did I mentioned that we met Sheila Majid that night? We did!! She's pretty and humble. Like very pretty and super humble. Awesomeness!!

Ohh, need to go to bed now. Why do I have to go to work tomorrow?? *sigh*

Jadi kenapa kita menilai?

I received numerous of notifications on twitter over her controversial statement couple of weeks ago. Not going to name who as I do not know her personally nor have I ever knew her existent not till the night everyone was talking over her pengakuan berani mati. Shocking, yes (dah kata pengakuan berani mati) but I don't blame her for being so. Minta simpang daripada berlaku but the moment I read the post she wrote, I prayed that one day, that one fine day, she'll find her way back; pada yang satu!

I was angry but not to her. To the people who condemned her mostly. How people started labeling and judging her for the decision she made? She must has her own reason for being so and it is not right for us to judge her. After all, kita sendiri belum tahu akan nasib kita di mata-Nya. Jadi, siapa kita untuk menghukum dan menilai?

Mungkin dia masih belum bertemu dengan apa yang dicari. Kita yang dilahirkan sediakala patut bersyukur kerana masih diberikan peluang untuk bersama-Nya. Belum tentu apa yang ada pada kita akan menjanjikan kita pintu syurga. Jadi kenapa kita menilainya akan arah yang akan dia tuju?

Bersolat 5 waktu sehari semalam, berpuasa di bulan Ramadan, menunaikan haji, bersedekah, beramal; itu semua belum tentu menjanjikan kita yang kita ini mulia di sisi tuhan. Jadi kenapa kita menilai sedangkan nasib kita sendiri belum tentu?

Bukankah elok jika kita mendoakan kesejahteraannya atau mendoakan supaya dia ketemu jalan yang benar suatu hari nanti daripada menilai akan apa yang akan ditimpanya kelak? Kenapa mesti menilai?

Yes, I do wear hijab. I pray 5 times a day, everyday. I fast during Ramadan. I pay the zakat. I managed to khatam Quran more than once. I don't drink nor I practice the life of a modern person. I know to differentiate between haram and halal. Alhamdulillah I have all the knowledge that I need to know and I'm grateful for that. Tetapi itu semua tidak menjanjikan yang bahawasanya saya mulia di sisi tuhan. Saya berusaha kerana apa yang penting adalah niat dan niat itulah yang akan membawa kita nanti. Yang lain hanyalah bekalannya sahaja yang akan membantu tetapi semuanya di tangan tuhan.

Mungkin suatu hari nanti dia ketemu apa yang dicarinya. Dan mungkin pada masa itu, taubatnya lebih diterima tuhan daripada kita yang sudah ada bekalan. Kita sendiri tidak tahu akan nasib kita. Jadi kenapa kita menilai sedangkan kita juga sepertinya.

Islam adalah agama yang sungguh indah. Tidak menyiksa atau memaksa. Tuhan tidak pernah menghalang umatnya untuk beragama. Sekurang-kurangnya dia masih beragama cuma belum bertemu dengan yang sepatutnya. Tidakkah elok jika kita mendoakan supaya dia kembali? Kenapa menghukum sedangkan kita sendiri tidak layak untuk menghukum?

Betul tak?

Not here to be an Ustazah. I just don't agree over the fact that people seagama condemning her over the fact that she's going on a different direction. These are the reason why she converted. Because people of her own religion condemning her, judging over her decision but not guiding her back to the right path. She needs guidance but we are here putting more oil in the fire.

I pray and I hope that one day, she'll find her way back. The place where she belongs. She's intelligent, pretty and live a good life. She'll find her way back soon, Insyaallah coz I know (from her writing on her blog) she still has faith with her former religion. Amin.

Cerita Malam Raya

Sudah menjadi kelaziman dan perkara yang paling wajibul-ngunnah untuk dilakukan oleh kami sekeluarga yang berdarah minang (yes people, I am a proud Minangites) untuk memasak rendang daging. Bukan rendang ayam ye tetapi rendang daging. Maka bergegaslah si Busu (panggilan untuk makcik yang paling bongsu sekali) untuk memasak rendang untuk kakak-kakaknya sekalian; iaitu ibunda saya dan Maklong tersayang.

Memandangkan busu sekarang ini telah menjadi pengusaha Rendang Minang yang baru sahaja beroperasi semenjak bulan Ramadan dan menjadi tonggak utama dalam mewarisi masakan rendang minang ini selepas arwah nenda saya meninggal dunia, maka menjadi heroin lah beliau dalam "berdendang" bersama kayu api dah kawah besar.

Resepi utama dalam menghasilkan rendang minang bukanlah terletak pada santannya mahupun kelembutan daging itu tetapi terletak pada kayu api yang menjadi punca utama kesedapan rendang tersebut. Maka terjadilah ia seperti gambar di bawah.

Gambar ini di tangkap sewaktu api sedang membara dan keadaan rendang yang sedang menggelegak panas di dalam kawah. Hanya bergantung kepada kekuasaan voltan kayu api itu sahaja bisa menghasilkan rendang yang begitu lazat sehingga menjilat jari.

Ini adalah contoh bagaimana rendang sedang "didendangkan". Jangan keliru, wajah di dalam gambar itu bukanlah Busu. Busu merupakan seorang wanita yang comel dan berbadan genpal sedikit dan tidak lupa juga ibu kepada 3 orang hero-heronya yang super nakal. Figura di dalam gambar itu merupakan pembeli yang rendangnya sedang dihasilkan di dalam kawah untuk di bawa pulang ke kampung halaman di Kedah. Cuba perhatikan longgokan kayu api sebagai backdrop gambar itu. Itulah longgokan kayu api yang digunakan bagi menjayakan rendang minang.

Memandang di saat-saat akhir penghasilan rendang seberat 6Kg terdapat bakian sebanyak sekilo setengah kilogram, maka saya telah mengambil keputusan untuk "open table" dan menjualnya secara suka rela tanpa perlu di paksa di hadapan rumah nenek saya dan memulakan operasi penjualan jam 5 petang. Sungguhlah tidak logik tetapi dek kerana suka-suka, maka terhidanglah 13 pack rendang seberat seratus gram di atas meja itu. Oleh kerana waktu penjualan yang sungguh tidak logik maka dengan sukacitanya dimaklumkan bahawa tiada sebarang jualan yang berlaku hanya pencucian mata saja yang dapat dihidangkan. Oh, pada hari kejadian, sungguh banyak pemandu-pemandu yang berwajah kacak lalu lalang di jalan raya. Saya sungguh suka sekali!

Beginilah ceritera rendang minang di malam hari raya. Oh, untuk promosi tambahan, Busu saya menjual rendang minang enak sedap sehingga menjilat jari dengan harga RM50 sekilo. Tempahan boleh dibuat melalui saya dan jika berminat, bolehlah mengisi borang "Comment" di bawah.

How was your Raya? Mine was as expected. I'm enjoying every bits of it. It's my last raya as a single lady Insyaallah and I'm looking forward for next year's already. Everyone is showing off their beautiful and colorful raya dress. Mine, well it was halfway done. Didn't get the tailor to do the beading but Alhamdulillah, I still got the chance to celebrate Eid Fitr' with my loved ones. That's more important than the dress' beading. Still in the mood of rendang and lemang.

Till then, see ya when I see ya!

Have a bless raya!

1431 Hijrah

Ramadan has come to an end and Syawal has finally opening its' door. Semoga Ramadan yang bakal berlalu ini telah menjadi Ramadan yang dilimpahi dengan penuh kerahmatan dan barakah-Nya dan telah menjadi Ramadan penuh bermakna kepada kita semua. Hope we benefited the rahmah and taqwa that He gave us through out this holly month of Ramadan. Semoga kita bertemu lagi di tahun Hijrah yang akan datang.

I don't have any fancy card to show but I would like to wish all Muslim friends and readers Selamat Hari Raya. Sorry body and soul for all my wrongdoings or I have offended you with my silly posts or hurt anyone with an inappropriate statements intentionally or unintentionally. Semoga Syawal ini merupakan Syawal yang penuh bermakna kepada kita semua. Have a safe journey balik kampung and take care! Have a bless Hari Raya!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

Ikhlas dari,
Saya, Ajlaa Azam

Stay

You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.
And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.
So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.
And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I miss you.
You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just
scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."
And you say I only hear what I want to.

On the other hand, I have been doing nothing except playing games and watching videos on Youtube the entire morning. 90% of my mind is now at home imagining the fun I'm going to have celebrating raya. The remaining 10% will only keep we purely sane in the office while waiting for the clock to tick five.

Have a nice day peeps!

Bridezilla what??

While waiting for Izwan to come home (chehh dah macam bini tunggu lakinya pulang kerja pula. Coz he need to call me before I go to sleep) and while waiting for these eyes to shut down, I browsed through some b2b blog(s). Yes, I'm not going to deny for not reading them. I do, in fact I enjoy myself reading them. Reading the excitement one expresses. Sungguh menghiburkan dengan kadang-kadang timbul rasa geli pon ada (selalu sebenarnya). I found the link to a Bridezilla quiz here.

For those who don't know, bridezilla is a term used by most bride to be(s) during the process of preparing for their wedding. It shows the expression of the bride while dealing/handling her wedding prep. Pendek kata, kadar ke-gelabah-an seseorang pengantin itu. I think so-lah! Apa yang saya tahu adalah perkataan ini mengambil perkataan Godzilla sebagai kata dasarnya. Maka terciptalah Bridezilla. I don't see the resemblance but what the heck, alang-alang dah nak jadi bride-to-be, gunakan aje term-nya. Barulah se-aliran. Ok, kodi gile!

Jadi kepada sesiapa yang seangkatan dengannya (I know Farizah is!), jika mahu menguji tahap ke-bridezilla-an anda, sila jalani ujian di atas.

Sekian, wassallam and good night peeps!

Malam Ramadan yang ke-28

As I was on my way to the bus stop, walking slowly towards the side of the road, taking my own sweet time, hoping that somehow I can just lay on bed on a cooling Monday without the needs worrying over the workloads that need my urgent attention before closing for holiday. While reaching the entrance of the exist between the housing area and the road side, there was a man, an Indonesian man dressed properly in his jeans and shirt standing at the side of the corner. Let me remind you that I was still mourning over the fact that I have to go to work on Monday morning. Still blurry and sleepy.

As I passed him by, guess what he was doing. Flashing his penis to every possible people who are passing the area. Gila weyh! It's in the month of Ramadan and this silly idiot bustard was standing there tanpa rasa bersalah langsung. Shocked, I am but I feel like smacking his face down for doing such thing. Better still, chop his penis and hope he die there on spot.

This was not the first time I experienced such incident. About a year ago and I bet it was from the same idiot Indonesian bustard who did the very same thing on Ramadan at the very same spot.

They came here without permits, working illegally and now causing troubles and the authorities have done nothing except being flexible and keeping everything under table about these idiotic Indonesians. They caused crimes, pecah masuk rumah, selling drugs, snatch thieves dan ntah apa-apa lagi dorang buat and all we have to do is NOTHING! We do exactly nothing.

Sungguh menyedihkan. I seriously don't understand the whole scenario that we are facing. We are being too lenient with these immigrants. Not pointing to Indonesians per se, but over all in general. We have the "mat black" which I don't actually know which country they came from. The Pak Arabs, Banglas tuh dah immune dah, Vietnamese and all dah serupa pusat pengumpulan pendatang-pendatang asing dah Malaysia ni.

So now the question is, where have our own citizens gone too? Migration. If I have the opportunity, I would do the same thing. Migration.

It has officially ruing my day! Please clock tick to five PM please. I want to go home now!

Love letter

Yes, you! You know I'm talking to you right?! And I bet everyone knows who I'm actually referring too and yes, it's you my dear!

This is just a quick reminder from me to you before I start preparing for berbuka (konon nak cakap yang hari ini kena masak untuk berbuka kerana bonda saya terpaksa bekerja lebih masa hari ini). Ok, no. No, that's not my point.

Back to the actual purpose of writing the post.

Dear you,

Setelah ditolak cuti umum, cuti tak umum, kerja lebih masa, kerja terkurang masa dan yang seangkatan dengannya, kira-kira adalah dalam 3 bulan lagi sebelum anda terpaksa dan dipaksa untuk memakai baju melayu berwarna off-white itu. I know and you know that both of us are looking forward for that 3 months to come. I know people, we are the desperados! haha. Ok, that sounds pretty weird but what the heck, it's my blog I'm writing here.

I just need to remind you of things that you promised me before we decided on this marriage. Yes, the terms and conditions that we've agreed on. The agreement of traveling together. I've been putting on hold all the traveling plans I have for this marriage. I have even used half of the savings that I've put aside for that purpose due to the agreement we made for traveling together. Well, I'm actually excited for all the plans we made and places that we decided to visit together. After all, dah jadi suami-isteri, kira halal dah =). And I am looking forward to spend my time with you. These includes the fun activities that we've agreed on for taking up diving license, climbing Mount Kinabalu and to visit all the beautiful places/beaches together.

Secondly, for allowing me to still keeping my baking skill. You know how much I love baking right?! and for that, you are forbidden from stopping me to do things that I love the most. Adalah lebih baik jika anda boleh provide me a nice oven since the one that I'm currently using is mom's. Tak perlulah besar sangat. Yang kecil je pon boleh! *hint*

This third agreement, hmm....let's stay with the "family planning" plan for about a year or two. Let me enjoy the fun of being your wife first before "developing" our commitment in building our family. Nanti dah ada baby dah tak boleh manja-manja lagi *teehee*. Tapi kalau rezeki tuhan nak kasi, kita terima saja dengan hati yang terbuka.

Well, these are the things that I can recall on the agreement we've made. Will update you from time to time. I don't need you to provide me with a huge house or a luxury car. No, I'm not that material type of girl. We'll work our lives together, cari harta sama-sama. I just need you to be a leader for the family that we're going to make. A man that can leads his woman for a better living; dunia dan akhirat. To have fun together, to enjoy each other company and to go through shits together. Insyaallah. Itu sahaja, tidak lebih dan tidak kurang. Apa yang penting? KERJASAMA.

Well, as excited as I may sound, there are few other things that worries me much. Got to experience it first hand first before deciding on the follow up reactions. Inilah namanya pengalaman hidup, ye tak?

I think I better stop now before melalut dengan lebih panjang lagi. Sampai di sini sahaja surat saya untuk anda. Di harap anda terhibur membacanya.

Sekian terima kasih.

Yours truly,
Ajlaa Azam.

Malam Ramadan yang ke-23

Kerja menimbun but I'm here playing, re-arranging my blog's layout.

Need to get things out before the holidays. Pejam celik, pejam celik, genap lagi 7 hari before raya. Yes, I am that kind of girl who look up to raya very much. There are card raya(s) to be distributed to the Media Owners, clearing the schedule for campaigns to start right after the festive holidays and there's a wedding to be worried for. I'm short of manpower. I have only two hands and two legs to work.

Oh yeah, we celebrated our independence day few days ago but there's nothing interesting to shout about. Coz truth be told, we Malaysians are still having the third class way of thinking. Yes, there are development happening here and there. There's Petronas Twin Tower to be proud of. The Sepang Circuit that is used for The F1 and GP races. MAS for its' Malaysian Hospitality which is known for its' "World Best Cabin Stuff". Proton to be known for our National Car. But all these, all these can't really bit the hideous mind we Malaysians are. To fight for which party to rule the country. To condemn each other on who's wrong and who's not. To golek orang saya and orang sini. The one thing that they forget to do despite of all the development is to make the people happy; sustaining the people's right. And for that, we are only independent by words.

I'm trying to breath hard though I have drained half of my body down the sea. Serious shit! I can't even believe I just wrote that. I know Allah is showing me something. He is testing me on my patience which is now at ground zero.

Bukan untuk mempraktiskan kadar ke-kodi-an kami tapi we've decided that hmm...."mom, can we just get married in October instead?"

Need to get these sheets done before clock ticks five!