To say "I do"

"If you can't be with someone during their worst, then you don't deserve to be with them in their best"

A friend of mine asked me couple of days ago what makes me want to settle down, getting married at the age of 25 (oh, I'll be 26 nanti bila sudah bergelar puan) with the person that I've been with for the past 5 years? "tak boring ke nanti kahwin dengan orang yang sama?", that was her exact question.

I smiled and gave her the most cliché statement one could have answered. "dah sampai jodoh". I don't see the point of explaining to her coz clearly she doesn't understand the concept of marriage. She was once married but unfortunately, her marriage doesn't stay for long. She has stop believing in marriage ever since. I don't blame her for that. I totally understand her situation.

This is not the first time she asked me this soalan cepu cemas. The first time she asked was more casual "ala, tak kahwin pun boleh happy" but I told her that I want to grow old, growing grey hair together with my husband, with god's will of course. Poyo kan bunyinya but who cares?! But she still insist in being happy.........alone. I don't blame her though. She had her share of unhappy marriage and we don't have the right to judge. Some people have their own story to tell; to believe in. And I believe in sharing my love with my loved ones.

Honestly, I was once like her. I don't believe in kahwin muda. I even have my life planned right after I graduated. Kerja puas-puas, kumpul duit, travel as much as I can before settling down. Basically, enjoying the single-hood to the fullest. I achieved most of the things that I want to achieve after graduation. I got my dream job. Travel a bit tetapi pepatah melayu ada berkata "semuaya adalah ketentuan tuhan" and never...never to say never in your life coz believe it or not, karma works weyh!

I nearly lost someone very dear to me and I had to learn life the hardest way. Lesson learned and everything changed ever since. So I decided to say "yes" to an early marriage. But the dreams to travel, kumpul duit, BEING HAPPY have never stop. Izwan and I, we have plans. The plan for traveling together. The plan of kumpul duit together. The plan of being happy with each other. Insyaallah.

I know it's too early to say. I'm not living in a marriage life yet but I'm anticipating much on it. They say marriage is for the good and the bad, in sickness and health, for richer or poorer and for better or for worse. Till death do us apart! They don't just vow meaninglessly don't they?!

If my future husband is willing to risk his life marrying me, taking the worst part of me together with him, handling the psycho part of me and for the fact that he has to deal with my sarcasm and crankiness his entire life, I don't see the point of saying "no" to him then. After all, he has been dealing with all that for the past 5 and half years. Kalau tak masakan dia proposed? Kan?! Memang menempah maut hidup sengsara. Siapa mau?

They say you'll only realize how important that person is to you only when they're gone and I have to agree with that. Life is after all about taking chances. Kalau tak cuba, mana nak tahu? Kalau dah cuba, barulah tahu, kan?!

So yea, I'm willing to take that chances with no regrets. Insyaallah.

Cerita hujung minggu

Ini adalah pesanan khidmat masyarakat. Kepada sesiapa yang bercadang untuk mendirikan rumahtangga, sila persiapkan diri anda dengan kekentalan emosi yang tinggi. Wang untuk persiapan tidaklah sepenting atau setinggi kentalnya emosi anda dalam menghadapi tekanan yang bakal dihadapi terutama sekali tekanan yang datang daripada kedua ibubapa kesayangan.

No, not that I'm not grateful for the parental help but I think, sometimes, just sometimes, they go overboard. Being excited is OK but don't get too high on it. Let's keep it slow shall we?!

I had a fight with my dad this morning. Sorry daddy, please don't blame me for I have the same kind of genes as you. I'm your daughter remember? Knowing me who has zero level of patience and the tendency to speak recklessly, we screamed at each other this morning. I was too angry, I even cried while "talking" with dad. All this, all this has got to do with my marriage application.

I know that he is excited over these whole wedding prep thingy. I get it, I do! But there are things that I need to do on my own. Say, like this marriage application for instance. It's me who has to get all the forms and whatnot and get it approved before the solemnization but why must he.............oh well, I get the excitement! I really do!

As a result, we are currently not talking to each other. It's better that way. Knowing my father, he'll talk to me eventually. It's the matter of time.

He was supposed to send me to the printing shop to print the wedding invitation card the same morning. But since the whole drama occurred, he decided to bail on it. Oh, for those who don't know me, my level of ketegaq is very very high. It's the ego actually. But what the heck, my ego has been my best friend ever since and I trust my ego more than you. Yes, you! So off I went to Jalan Pudu to get my wedding invitation card printed. Memang random sungguh pergi ke Jalan Pudu. Emosi telah membawa kepada kejayaan yang tidak ternilai. Di tambah pula apabila perjalanan ke sana hanyalah menggunakan public transportation ye puan-puan. Saya tahu, saya memang awesome. I am very proud of you, my ego! You're awesome! Sorry daddy, you raised me well to always do things independently and that is why most of the things I did were discreetly kept as secret. Not till I told you so.

But I got my kind of therapy right after. The meeting with my best girls has totally changed the mood. I had so much fun. I got the kind of laugh that I needed for the longest time. Work and life have been depressing much lately and I got the chance to repair them with the girls.

Sadly, life gets to normal right after too. I ter-accidentally accepted an order made by my cousin. Her friend requested 50 cupcakes and I totally forgot about it. The worst part is, she is coming to collect them tomorrow. I have no choice but to bake them as early morning as possible.

I'm starting at a new place on Monday and I haven't had the rest before starting fresh. I'm exhausted.

That's all for today. Good night lovers. Sleep tight.

Pilih, pilihan dan memilih.

Life is about taking chances. Life is about making decisions. Life is about picking what's best for you. Life is about finding opportunities. Life is about making choices.

Nak kahwin pun kena buat pilihan. Lelaki tidak berkahwin sesukahati. Dia pilih. Dia buat pilihan. Pilihan yang boleh melayakkan dia untuk berkahwin dan pilihan yang menjaminkan kebahagiaannya di masa hadapan. Sama juga dengan perempuan. Perempuan lagilah, nak pilih yang handsome-handsome saja. Yang muka macam tembok pecah tak nak pulak dia. Nak yang berduit, berkereta besar. Kalau takat mampu bawa naik LRT tak mahu pulak dia. Nak yang berkerjaya. Katanya kalau gaji sikit nanti tak mampu nak tanggung. High maintenance. Apa yang high and apa yang maintenance nya tak tahulah pulak. Mungkin make-up Bobby Brown perlu di top-up setiap bulan atau mungkin face foundation yang di pakai bercap Chanel berkotak hitam border gold. Semunya harus dipertimbangan, perlu dibuat pilihan.

Macam makcik yang nak beli ikan di pasar. Itu pun harus di buat pilihan. Kadang-kadang sampai naik pecah kepala makcik pilih ikan kat pasar. Yang mata merah tandanya ikan dah di simpan lama. Yang kulit ala-ala pucat maknanya dah dipancing lama. Nak beli ikan je kot! Lamanya macam Jovian Mandagie nak buat scatches for his client's wedding dress. Itu pun harus membuat pilihan yang baik.

Tambahan pula adek-adek kecil yang baru nak kenal dunia. Yang baru nak berjinak-jinak nak bercinta. There are a lot more that life can offer other than looking for a perfect relationship. There is no such thing as a perfect relationship. Percayalah adek-adek bahawasanya manusia itu tidak dilahirkan sempurna. Alas, there's no way one could find a perfect relationship. Kadang-kadang, kita lebih terhegeh-hegeh mengejar cinta daripada mencintai diri kita sendiri. Itu pun pilihan juga. Kita pilih untuk memeranakan diri demi sebuah hubungan yang belum tentu-tentunya berpanjangan. Life is too beautiful to be wasted in finding true love. True love doesn't exist on its' own. True love exist between two people who love and care for each other unconditionally. Sebab itu, kita selalu dengar phase paling popular bila putus cinta; "letting go". Sebab tak semua yang kita inginkan akan menjadi kenyataan. In order for you to move on is by letting them go despite of all the hardship that one has to counter.

Choices are given in order for us to choose. It may be the best gift that one has ever wished for or the ugliest one has to go through. Choices are there to be the only friend we wish we would have or the enemy that we hope to kill. Choices are there to make our days turn as beautiful as the rainbow or to make our nights as dark as hell. Choices are meant to be chose but to make the right choice is the hardest thing to do. There's no such thing as try and error in picking choices. Luck; maybe but luck doesn't do wonders all the time. Even Einstein having hard time choosing the right formula before E=MC² was created, what differences can us be?!

Pilihlah dengan bijak kerana undi anda adalah rahsia!

Three

Three is the number of pimples I have scattered all over my face. They are placed nicely at the middle of my batang hidung (saling tak tumpah macam Ultraman Taro), at the corner of my chin and on the right cheek. Reddish and most importantly, they are VISIBLE even when you're miles away.

Three is the number of days left before saying goodbye to SAA *sad*. I know I'm going to cry bucket of tears on Friday. I dare not elaborate more on this. We shall wait till Friday comes. But nonetheless, work has been piling up high since Monday and I don't think I would be able to clear everything before I leave. *Sigh*

Three is also the number of things that I need to get it done by November.

• To get the wedding card printed.
• To get all the surat kahwin ready (nak kahwin pun kena surat-menyurat)
• And to find more $$$ *double sigh*

Three is the time showing at the clock now and I'm still freshly awake. I'm still working on the flash file. I'm still struggling with flash commands. I'm still worrying about work. I'm still thinking about work and I am still freshly awake. Hurmmm...

Three is the number of wishes that I currently pray for:-

• Nak cepat kahwin, saya stress kerja!
• Nak cepat kahwin, saya stress kerja!
• Nak cepat kahwin, saya stress kerja!
  

Three is officially not my favorite number.

But,

The only good thing about three is the number of girls I have as my besterestest friends that I'm going to meet in three days time *super excited*

At times like this

"Ya Allah ya tuhanku, kau berikanlah aku kekuatan. Kau teguhkan imanku. Kau berikanlah aku kesabaran. Permudahkan bagiku dalam menghadapi dugaan-dugaanmu. Teguhkanlah imanku dalam menghadapi dugaan-dugaanmu. Berikanlah aku kesabaran yang tinggi dalam aku menghadapi dugaan-dugaanmu. Sesungguhnya ya Allah, aku adalah hambamu yang terlalu lemah. Permudahkan bagiku dalam menyelesaikan segala urusanku. Permudahkan bagiku dalam menjalani penghidupanku. Permudahkan bagiku dalam pintu rezekiku. Sesungguhnya kaulah yang maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hambamu ini"

Amin, amin yarabbil a'lamin

The poyo bride2be is back!

I went to have my reception dress fitting earlier this afternoon. Being the simple me, I just wore a pair of jeans and a Chelsea jersey together with a tak gosok black hijab to meet the wedding coordinator. That's the whole point of wearing a black hijab so that I won't be spending 10 minutes of my time ironing them.

Ok! that's another story. Back to this one.

Itu tak kira lagi selipar pink ala-ala tak berapa nak jepun. Nasib baik depan pintu kedai kena buka selipar/kasut. Kalau tak memang awesome habis!

Kak Ju, the wedding coordinator together with her assistant took the measurement while I stood still like one of her mannequin dressed nicely in a wedding attire. Tiba-tiba tak semena-mena, "rock habis bakal pengantin ni" and both of them laughed cynically (or so I thought). Nak dijadikan cerita, mereka ketawa sebab saya rock berdiri macam gangster pakai baju seselamba mungkin unlike the normal future bride that came to her boutique dressed se-perempuan habis atau dalam bahasa melayu aslinya, semolek-moleknya, lemah-lembut, ayu-mayu.

The same story applies when I was at Alor Star with the future mother in law for wedding dress hunting couple of days ago. As much as the FMIL wanted the over beaded baju pengantin, I, on the other hand preferred the super classic white kebaya songket. I'm a simple person you know, who loves simple things. Tak serabut mata memandang, tak pening kepala melihat. Tapi untuk sedapkan hati bakal ibu mertua, I took the beaded dress for the 2nd reception. Karang merajuk mak mertua habislah point I!! Kena reject siapa yang susah? Mak jugak nok!

Cantik kan songket? Credit from Yamin & Sha during their Penang reception.

We've secured the reception for both sides. Baju dah pilih. Masing-masing dengan temanya tersendiri (I have no say on this. The mother from both sides telah mencipta tema mereka sendiri) and all that we have to do now is to be mentally and physically ready (monetary too!) for the upcoming 80 days to come.

Ohh whhaatttttttttt??? *panic attack*

80 days and counting. Saya panic! Sekian terima kasih.

1M Malaysians Reject 100-storey Mega Tower

As per today, we have officially reached more than 130,00o people supporting the page.

I am no politics supporter but I think I have to agree with this one. RM5 billion for a 100-storey Mega Tower is a big no-no. We have PETRONAS Twin Tower and I don't think we need another skyscraper in the country.

There's a lot more that we can do with RM5 billion than building another "bangunan pencakar langit". There's a lot more that we can generate than funding another Mega Tower building.

Yes, we do need development but I think now is the right time to develop other aspect other than developing a new building. I think we have enough of "tarikan pelancong". KLCC Twin Tower is one, Pavillion is another and I don't think building this so call "Bangunan Warisan" will do any justice.

Apa kata sogok sikit duit kasi buku teks kat sekolah-sekolah semua free. Lets make our universities a world recognized! Lets equip our hospital (I mean the public ones) with better supplies. Lets improve our public transportation for its' convenience. Lets generate more $$$ into tourism. Lets promote our country for its' beauty. Lets clean our super-dirty-city. Lets educate our people for their manners. Lets improve the living standard of our people. Lets help the needs. Lets improve the numbers on crimes. Lets!

I may not be the kind of supporter who chances their facebook profile picture into one of these.

1. Because I don't think by changing the profile picture will help in doing anything.
2. Because I still think that my current profile picture is way cooler that this.

But nonetheless, I still support the movement coz I think that by funding another skyscraper won't help in bringing Malaysia to another level. We are loosing more money than we actually are. What's the benefit that the rakyat is getting? I'm a tax payer that's why I want to know where my money has gone to?!



p/s: thanks Izwan, you have officially make me a politic-conscious, if ever that exist!

Ulaq melingkaq atas pagaq

After spending 3 nights here in Alor Star:-

1) There is nothing more important than watching a football match especially when it's a home-match (or so they call it). Kedai tutup beb tengok bola.
2) Izwan's family surrounded by talkative people and that explains how "banyak mulut" Izwan is which is a good thing though!
3) Orang utagha ni klakar lah. Seriously!
4) Maxis broadband sucks big time. Celcom has my vote here, no kidding!

I have one more night to go! Alor Star is very peaceful lah unlike the-over-crowded-K.Lumpur.
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Ye, sayalah peminat Anuar Zain itu

I attended a wedding ceremony at Royale Chulan last Sunday night with my cousin. I was her plus one though but I wouldn't mind at all. I love......love attending weddings. The chance of being part of one's happy day makes me a happy person. Those beautiful....beautiful wedding dresses, the dias, the pretty.....pretty bride & groom and to be able to cuci mata, itu paling terbaik! Not much of the food though. Wedding food memang tak creative langsung. Same old! Same old!

The ceremony that I attended was a so-so. For the fact that I didn't know anyone there (I was a plus one remember?) jadi wedding itu agak keras bagi saya. But I love the concept of Songket that the groom's family chose. Every thing is Songket-related from the wedding card to the dais and even for the hall decoration. Baju tak payah cakap. Everyone practically wore Songket that night. It's pretty amazing you know. But like I said, the ceremony was so-so.

Till that ohhhhh...that cair voice singing loudly through the air......*faint*


Yes, that sexy voice belongs to none other than Anuar Zain.

He was at the wedding. He sang for the couple *faint kali kedua*. Apparently, he's the groom's cousin. So, he decided to bloom the wedding by singing two (2) songs that night. One was when the wedded couple walked through the aisle for the cake cutting and one was when....when everyone's jaw drop by the gorgeous voice of his. *faint lagi*

And that explains the status I have on my facebook. I would love to have him to sing during my wedding day although the possibilities of not getting is very high but I would still want to dream of his presence. Ahhhhhhh *cair*. And that also explains why I have his songs playing on loop for the past couple of days. Cair.

It's Anuar Zain week ye adik-adik. Excuse the kodiness but I'm in the mood for Anuar Zain. Nothing else matters!

So dear cousins, uncles & aunts, it would be much appreciated if you could surprise me by "inviting" Anuar Zain to sing for my wedding day and I promise to bake cookies for all of you for hari raya for the next 5 years. Kuih raya on me meng!

Mucho grasias!

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Semi-productive Sunday

Thought of reviewing the new 2011 budget that were presented last Friday (konon-konon nak jadi tak ketinggalan zaman) but after much of consideration, I think I'm going to past!

• I wasn't tuning to any radio station or tv station for that matter during the presentation of 2011 budget because Najib's voice irritates me. I feel noxious every time I hear Najib's voice. Unlike everyone else, I only knew about it from the review Izwan and his friends gave that evening.
  
• It doesn't change the fact that the government has taken a lot of our money unnecessarily.
  
• And it doesn't change the fact that Rosmah's face is placed on every proposals.

There are few things that caught my attention

• Something about improving the education system. I am totally agree with the proposal but lets just wait and see for it to be implemented. Or is it going to be one of the fail-half-way-done-keep-on-reviewing-before-they-can-be-implemented education system? For what it's worth, am saving as much as I can now so that my children won't suffer as how many school children currently are!
• There won't be any rate increment on 4 major tolls for the next 5 years. There's no such thing on major or minor tolls here in Kuala Lumpur. When it comes to toll, all of them are the majors. And how many tolls we have here in KL? Exactly!
  
• Spending roughly about RM 6billion on development. This include the building of new MRT and improving public transportation system. I am a devoted public transportation user. My daily routine involves using public transportation. If this is also going to be part of a fail promises, you are officially off my vote!
• Duty import kurang 30%. Good news ha? But wait!
• GST is now 1% higher. If you don't know what GST means, please my dear go kill yourself. Kalau di kira-kira, if I bought a Gucci handbag which is now 30% lower but the tax is increasing, would that be any difference? Go do the math!
• The spending of another quarter millions for Ketua Kampung dan yang sekutu dengannya for their monthly allowances. Is this really a must?! *Sigh!* Nak jadi ketua kampung pulak lah lepas ni.
• There's no need to pay for 10% down payment for those who earns less than RM3K per month if they were to buy a house. Tempting huh?! But trust me, the value of buying a house in officially increase. Nak cari rumah RM100K memang jangan harap. Silap-silap, rumah flat harga RM300K.
• Income tax, tak payah cakaplah!
  

This is why I said Rosmah's face is all over the proposals. What's the benefit the rakyat is getting? Exactly my point! The hardship of being a Malaysian.

I think...............I think, Pilihanraya is around the corner! Lets just wait and see.




You, jom migrate jom!

Spring, 2008

I miss!





Oh, excuse the facial expression I have there. We were practically walking throughout the whole city in just one day with extra luggage in hand. Awesomeness!

Oh, how I miss this dirty.....super-dirty-but-romantic-beautiful-city.

Confession Part 1

As much as all working people are looking forward to Fridays, I, on the other hand, have a serious love/hate relationship when it comes to welcoming Friday. Not just any particular Friday, it's basically all Fridays stated in the Chinese calender. Unless, unless if there's any public holidays fall on that day, well, that's the love part!

Friday is when client is being on their suckiest. Friday is the day for all materials to go wrong; wrong version, wrong copy, wrong color, wrong visual and god knows what other wrong thing one can create! Friday is the day when everything needs to be settled for client's approval. Friday is the day where people in this agency are not so keen when it comes to completing job requisition. Friday is also the day where people gone M.I.A especially when it involves delivering.

Friday is official my hate-day!

Unlike Monday. Monday is my happy day! I don't experience Monday blues. You see, my job requisition doesn't really works on Monday. Monday usually the happiest day for the week; for me that is! My week starts either Tuesday or Wednesday. As much as all working people hate Mondays, I, on the other hand adore Mondays as hell!

Oh, today is Friday. Patutlah!

All time fav

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean
I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart

But it might me a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Gonna come out anyway

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

Congratulations, you just won.........

......the first prize of officially becoming a Bridezilla. Bukan takat bridezilla tetapi lebih daripada itu, Godzilla atau segala -zilla yang ada.

*Stress*

Ever since the acknowledgment of the remaining days left till my wedding day, I have been nothing but a worried bitch. My heart pumped faster than ever as if I was running on a track reaching for the finishing line. I wasn't able to sleep at night which is very crucial coz I haven't been sleeping well for the past 4 nights. Baru mata nak lelap dah terjaga and ended up being grumpy in the morning. Itu sangat tak bagus. It's depressing. It is, really!

The word P.S.Y.C.H.O. is written nicely on my forehead. I need to scrub the word off pronto! Else, I'll be reaching Tanjung Rambutan anytime soon which is not good for the resume. Heh, takde kena-mengena! Argh! I hate this feeling. The feeling of insecurities. The feeling of killing yourself. The feeling of unable to speak. The feeling of running away.

*Tired*

Is this normal? Coz I don't think it is. I think it's crazy! I think all bride-to-be(s) should go for one last medical check-up before their wedding day. I know I am coz I think one of my wire has gone missing. Better still, all wires are gone and I am officially disfunctional. I'm a retard, yes I am! Ok, I'm crapping.

Lets do the check listing ye ladies and gentlemen:-

• Baju nikah : 60% ready
• Need more money
• Baju for reception : tunggu designer balik haji
• Need more money
• Reception on his side : Next week balik Kedah
• Need more money
• Melawati reception : Confirmed all the needs and wants, paid deposit
• Need more money
  
• Wedding Card : Out for printing over the weekend
• Need more money
• Hantarans : Tinggal untuk di decorate
• Need more money
• Homestay for the FILs side to stay : checked
• Need more money

So there you go! The updated check list of things to do before the wedding day. I'm tired. Exhausted. Seriously I am. I just pray that the remaining 90 days will past as quickly as it can coz I can foresee the breaking down of me anytime soon. I need a break. From work and all these wedding preparation crap. From work sebenarnya. Work is depressing. But I need the money though *sigh*.

Lets go cuti-cuti before masuk kerja baru. Anyone?!

I need money help!

We are born monsters

A colleague of mine was being robbed yesterday. Not only that, she was badly injured as her neck and palm were slashed with parang. But Alhamdulillah, she survived. She was trying hard to fight the robbers but ended up being injured. The robbers took her car and handbag with all her important documents. All praise to Allah, she survived.

I went to visit her at Tawakal during lunch hour. The injuries at her neck was not that serious. Lucky for her, the parang only cut the surface of the skin at her neck but her anak jari needed to undergo a minor surgery. I think the bone at her finger broke while struggling during the incident. I left minutes before she left to the operation room but I was told that she's doing fine now. Alhamdulillah.

The incident happened right after she arrived home from having late dinner. I guess the robbers have been eyeing the house for quite some time. Mana taknya, rumah anak dara tinggal dua orang memang jadi spot hangatlah perompak-perompak. Unfortunately, the neighbours were not at home when the incident happened. So she had to deal with these two robbers herself. She fought with the robbers and ended up being badly injured.

Apa nak jadi dengan manusia sekarang. This is not the first time things like this happened to her. Her house was robbed couple of months back. Police reports were made but no actions were taken. There's no guarantee of the safety within the housing area. Neighbours are not that friendly either. Dah tahu jiran tu anak dara, tengok-tengok lah sama. Fortunate for her, her housemate was around and the bastard robbers didn't do anything harmful to her except for those injuries. She was left in one piece. But what happen if the robbers decided to do things beyond control? What would happen to the poor young lady? And all that we are doing is just nothing. We didn't do anything. Bila dah berlaku baru nak menyesal, baru nak ambil tindakan. Time tuh, nasi dah bukan takat jadi bubur tapi dah lebih macam sup. Dah tak guna. Dah hancur.

Well, there is no point in blaming. Nak salahkan society, tak boleh juga. Nak salahkan diri sendiri, kadang-kadang kita yang berhati-hati ni pun menjadi mangsa keadaan. Nak salahkan kerajaan? I think we've blamed them enough. Dah tak lut dan. Nak salahkan polis? Mungkin mereka dah jalankan tanggungjawab tapi mungkin juga mereka sebenarnya makan gaji buta. Seriously, there is no need for blaming coz at the end of the day, diri sendiri juga yang akan dipersalahkan.

I still remember that this country was once the safest country in the world. Pergi mana-mana pun tidak perlu rasa takut, tak perlu rasa gelisah dan tak perlu rasa ragu-ragu. I don't think that the country exist anymore sebab pergi mana-mana pun ada kes bunuh orang, ada yang kena rogol tepi jalan dan yang cuba mengekor dari belakang.

Adakah manusia sudah jadi binatang atau binatang yang sebenarnya tiru muka manusia?

Tak perlu bersungguh Mak Ngah!

Orang tua-tua dulu ada berpesan, kalau mahu memikat si pasangan, pikat lah dahulu keluarganya. Lebih champion kalau boleh pikat si ibunya yakni, si bakal ibu mertua. Moga-moga berpanjanganlah hubungan tanpa gangguan daripada keluarga mertua kelak. Ini terutama sekali apply kepada wanita-wanita yang bakal mendirikan rumahtangga dengan pasangannya *cough*.

Itu kata orang tua-tua dahulu.

Tetapi, kata saya........................Bullshit! One does not need to make the impression. Just be who you are, you'll definitely be loved endlessly. Respect the elderly, learn to communicate well, know where you stand, mind your bloody damn business and most importantly, never to practice hyprocracy. You'll be just fine young lady.

Tidak perlu bersusah-payah ye adik-adik. The harder you try, the foolish you'll be.

I think parents nowadays, they are more educated compared to before. They accept the fact that in this modern world, communication is more important than kissing the asses, if you know what I mean. If one is able to present herself well, I don't think there will be any problems for the future in-laws to accept her. If you are able to look after their sons just like how they've raised them, you'll aced it the second your husband pronounce "aku terima nikahnya..."

Lainlah kalau anda masih hidup di zaman batu, di mana bakal ibu mertuamu memakai gelang setebal 6 inci setinggi lengan. Memang tiada lain lagi yang boleh dilakukan selain mengampu selagi boleh. Ampu sampai lebam!

The funny thing is, masih ada lagi umat manusia yang mengamalkan pengaplikasian begini. Bukan pada si ibu mertua tetapi kepada si cik adik yang baru mahu mengenali keluarga yang mungkin atau tidak mungkin bakal menjadi keluarganya.

Mungkin mereka tidak pernah mendengar peribahasa rekaan terkini "kalau mahu memikat suami, pikatlah dahulu perutnya". If the tummy says yes, well, the mother will definitely shut her mouth up!

Rationalnya, kalau si anak kata "Mak, timah masak sedap hari nih. Lauk ayam masak lemak". Cuba bayangkan apa si ibu akan berkata? Mesti tiada apa-apa bukan?! Sebab anaknya sudah kekenyangan memuji masakan si isteri. Cuma yang akan berlaku adalah rasa tercabar si ibu kerana menantunya telah berjaya mencantas skill-skill memasak yang ada pada dirinya. That would be another story.

Peribahasa lama ada berkata "gendang gendut tali kecapi, kenyang perut suka hati". Walaupun kaitannya tiada di sini tetapi kalau di ambil daripada sudut positif, kalau si suami sudah suka hati maka apa lagi yang si ibu boleh berkata?

Kesimpulannya, peribahasa lama sudah tidak boleh digunapakai lagi. Sudah boleh di campak ke dalam lombong. Fikirlah dengan menggunakan akal fikiran yang waras. Kalau mahu memikat hati si bakal ibu mertua, pikatlah dulu perut si bakal suami. Because when the tummy starts crying, you are not just facing the thunder of a husband, but you will also facing the storm from the mother-in-law simply because you have failed in feeding her favorite son the way she fed them healthily.

Renung-renungkan lah dan selamat beramal =)

10.10.10

I want to fill this new frame,
But it's empty.

I have a piece of paper,
But it's empty.

We could lie in this bed,
But we're empty.

DIY - Bunga Pahar

This is what I come home too.

I was not aware about this whole bunga pahar thingy. Not till last Tuesday. You see, my responsible Creative Director has planned everything accordingly. Tup tup tengok dah sekotak siap. SEKOTAK BESAR ye puan-puan. Bukan saiz kotak kasut. Tetapi SEKOTAK besar letak vacum cleaner. Ntah bila masa dia buat saya pun tidak tahu. Oh! Ini adalah hasil tangan Creative Director saya ye puan-puan. Dari mana datangnya talent dia pun saya tak tahu.

Beginilah rupanya apabila digolongkan bersama-sama.

Jadi kepada sesiapa yang berminat untuk menghasilkan bunga pahar yang serupa ini, this is how it goes:-

• Ketekunan dalam merempuh Jalan Masjid India/Jalan Tunku Ambul Rahman untuk berminggu-minggu lamanya.
• Kesabaran yang tinggi dalam mencari, meng-survey dan membuat.
• Harus mempunyai seorang ayah yang sanggup untuk menjadi pemandu yang bertauliah dalam merempuh tempat yang di sebut di point yang pertama.
• Kebijaksanaan dalam meng-negotiate untuk mendapatkan harga yang murah.
• Daya creativity yang tinggi.
• Keupayaan dalam bermulut manis.
• Daya determination yang sungguh tinggi.

Sekiranya anda memenuhi ciri-ciri di atas, saya yakin anda juga mampu untuk menghasilkan bunga pahar ini malah anda bakal menghasilkan yang lebih baik daripada ini.

Untuk pengetahuan, Creative Director saya juga sebenarnya adalah mak saya. I'm impressed to know that mother, I repeat, MY MOTHER actually has this kind of talent. Super impressive!

Jadi puan-puan, selamat mencuba!

Under Construction

If your partner tells you that he/she loves you for the person you are, well, don't be fooled by the statement. It's bullshit! Nobody loves you for the person you are. Nobody can! Parents are excluded as they are the responsible person for making you; you. You're like their own piece of art, painted on the canvas. The canvas that they've created.

I'm talking about an outsider whom you've invited in to be part of your life. Someone you barely knew and willing to risk the person you once be just to fit in to meet the so called "criteria". If you past the first round that doesn't mean that you've succeeded. Not even for the second or third. There's always changes and amendments that need to be done along the way. By the end of the day, you realized that you've transformed to be someone new. Someone different carrying the same identity card, same old face shape, maybe a little bit changes on your physical features, same shoe size with a different kind of personalities. Whether you like it or not, you are now the new version of YOU.

Then comes the part where you start comparing the previous YOU with the current YOU. When one starts commenting on how much you've changed, you start to question yourself, which one you like better? The new you or the old you.

One may says that you're way much better now compared to the old version of you but one may also says that they like the old you better then the new you.

So what are going to do now?

You can either stay and be the current you or change back to the old version of you. Or maybe you can run though the same process of transforming yourself again and create a new version of you. Three versions altogether. Past, present and future.

My question is, why can't you be someone that you're comfortable with. Someone that fits your own kind of criteria. Someone that makes you the real you. The kind that you like the most.

The reality is, people change because they want to get notice. They change because they want to fit into someone's else life. They change because they want to be liked. They change because they want to prove that they too are as better as others. They change just to fit in.

But is it worth doing? Will you get all the attention that you needed? Will you be as what you've wished for? Is that what you really want? Will that makes you happy for the rest of your life coz whether you like it or not, you are the one who is responsible in leading your own life.

Because at the end of the day, you are actually lying to yourself, not being fair to others and hypocrite is your new best friend.

tik tok tik tok......98 days......tik tok tik tok

Not to brag but.......I have another 98 days to go.....Woooooooo!!!! Which mean, I have less than 100 days to prepare, less than 100 days to get things done and less than 100 days before I officially have a room partner *teehee*.

Tiba-tiba hari ini saya rasa sungguh berdebar-debar dan MARAH *grrrr*

As we all know, I'm currently serving my one month notice. I tendered last Thursday due to the fight I mentioned on my previous post. Don't get me wrong, kalau tak berlakunya perselisihan faham pun I'm tendering cuma mungkin perasaannya saja yang tidak sama. Mungkin akan lebih berbelah-bahagi. But since that lady has created the "unwanted" scene, I tendered wholeheartedly.

Friday went not so well since the GM decided to be on his worst mood towards me and a colleague of mine kept on calling me jahat for no reason. And the lady boss has been acting cold since then.

Monday came with a surprise. Everyone from the building knew about my resignation including the tea lady. My oh my! How could it possibly be? I remember telling to one person only which was the GM since he was the one who received my resignation letter. The management knew about it coz, well, they have too right? They are the management team but what surprises me was the acknowledgment from the creative team and people in the studio. One by one came to me and asked about it. Does my resignation letter flew to every department or was it sent to a different tray before reaching the management table?

You guessed it right people! The lady boss just couldn't get over the fact that I'm leaving her. She has to tell and bragged about it to everyone. She discussed it over WIP, she talks about it during lunch (for all that I know she has been telling everyone during lunch hour for 3 days in a row now) and she also called her friends and discussed about it over the phone. She talks in her typical chinese language and thought that I don't understand. But sorry lady, I work here for a year and a half, I understand chinese pretty well. It's disgusting. Keji sungguh keji.

What did I do that makes her go kachiong about it? I'm leaving and there's nothing you can do. No one can do anything about it. Just shut the hell up and MOVE ON! People leave. They come and go and nothing you can do about it.

I'm not looking for enemies here. I respect her as my superior. Though we might not reached the same kind of understanding but she is still my superior; the respect that I have to give for being a boss. But she has officially crossed the line and it's intolerable. I feel sorry for her. Really, I am!

Everyone seem to get the wrong picture. No, I don't leave because of the money. I don't leave because I don't like this place. I like it here so much I was having difficulties deciding whether should I or shouldn't I leave this place. And it is absolutely not because of the lady boss. I think I've dealt with her pretty well. It's just that opportunities don't come knocking on your door twice. Who knows one day, I might be joining the team again. Who knows right?! But for the time being, allow me to gain as much experience as I can in order to be a successful Media Planner.

She's making things worst that it already has.

Project Awesome

Glee's tribute to Britney Spears for their Season 2 Episode 2 last week was awesome.



Brittany's version of I'm A Slave for You. Flawless!




And my all time favorite....*drum roll please*



From their first season 2 episode.


P/S: Haven't I told you that I'm a TV Series junkie?! It's proven though! They're irresistible. I'm having a good feeling that they're going to be awesome this season. Super Excited!!

So what is it with you then?!

The different between a 25 year old lady and a 25 year old lady who thinks like a 15 year old girl is....isn't it obvious?! Do I still need to clarify?!

One may has the physical of a 25 year old human being but that doesn't mean that one is really acting on one's age. It's all about maturity if you must say. Ada orang dewasa sebelum usianya. Ada orang entah bila-bila akan capai tahap kematangannya. Kesannya, well, lu pikir lah sendiri.

I'm not saying that I have reached my maturity level. I still have the childishness in me but I know when and where or who I can actually expresses my childishness. Kadang-kadang, dengan perbuatan mengada-ngada itu boleh membawa kepada keselesaan diri. Sometimes, but not most of the time ye adik-adik. Sendiri kena pandailah kan.

Logically, when someone has reached his/her quarter life of age, he/she should be able to do things right and has reached the maturity in making decisions. The ability in seeing things rationally. Able to judge and differentiate between right and wrong. Most importantly, one should be able to prioritize what's important and what's not. Sadly, some people don't have the quality in being one. At least paling busuk pun, one should be able to think rationally. Kata dah 25 tahun. Tak kan tak boleh berfikir?

Ini baru mukadimahnya belum sampai ke isi kandungan.

But I decided not to elaborate more on this coz I think I've wrote about this before. Redundancy, orang pon boring nak baca, saya pun malas nak tulis. Macamlah ada orang yang baca.

Kesimpulannya, well, I don't have anything to write on the kesimpulan coz I don't think that I'm that perfect either. I made mistakes and learned from my mistakes. I try to be someone better each day. Try to improve myself in every possible way. Cuba untuk tidak menyakitkan supaya tiada yang menyakiti.

We can't expect people to live their lives on our expectations. After all, we have no rights in controlling others' life. We are not born with perfection. We don't have the similarities in thinking. We see things differently. All that we need to do is to communicate in order to understand each other. Communication is the greatest tool in keeping a good relationship between friends, family or anyone for that matter.

To have a good life is by having a good heart. Kalau masih menyimpan dendam, well, you can never go far. You are actually killing yourself, damaging your soul bit my bit. It can never be good. It is as bad as having a heart attack or operating one side of your breast for being diagnosed for having a breast cancer or even worst!

So from on, start living your life they way you should be. After all, people is really watching if you know what I mean.

Goodnight everybody and have a great weekend.

Daddy cool

Bapak turned 62 last week. Mom personally took a day off and arranged for a family dinner at Cozy's. Alasan for a day off; to jalan-jalan beli barang perhiasan for my wedding day. Very manipulative, I know! She dragged bapak all day long to Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman and suggested to have dinner at Cozy's since she's too tired to cook and craved for The Big Crab (Crab covers with cheese).

Kakak arrived first and followed by Izwan and me. Bapak was away for Maghrib and was practically shocked to see us. She thought that it was only the two of them; mak and bapak. Mak told him that we were actually leaving late for work. Manipulative remember?!

So there we were, dinner-ing at Cozy.

Then comes the surprise birthday cake. The super delicious ice-cream cake from Baskin Robbin.


So Bapak, Happy 62nd Birthday! I know I've given you so many headaches, hantar sana, hantar sini, melawan yang tidak kira acara, basically making your heart pumped high with my behavior but please know that I will always love you although I may not seem appreciating enough but you will always have a place in my heart. Always! I know I have not been expressing my love to you that much but you will always be my mr. old man in my heart.

Semoga Allah panjangkan umur bapak, murah rezki dan kesihatan berpanjangan. May your life fills with love and joy for the many years to come. Love you big time!

So let's...MOVE ON!

Be happy even when circumstances & people let you down, because you were only given ONE life, and you have to live it to the fullest!

- True Love Stories

Currently serving my one month notice. Was still considering whether I should or shouldn't I take the offer. Though I've signed the agreement letter but I was still considering till the fight I had with my superior yesterday morning. The fight that changes everything. She just couldn't understand the system and how to work in a systematic way. So now, it's official, I'm leaving.

I rather jeopardizing my career life than stay. I guess, I'm done dealing with her.

Everyone was practically being emotional with me today. Not in a good way though! Will not elaborate more on that cause I know that they knew why I left.

Yeah, we were given life once and I'm living my life to the fullest. I believe it is the right decision made though I'm still doubting it. I'm risking my career life for a better future.

But for the time being, let's enjoy watching her mengumpat-ngumpat.

Tomorrow is Saturday and I'm no longer needed at the training center. Yeappie!

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